the thoughts go go go,
nonstop,
like a river.
and floating down,
is her mind,
like a boat,
lost in the water.
Apr 21, 2018
Apr 21, 2018 at 10:49 AM UTC
if you ask me what i fear,
i will not say heights,
i will not say snakes,
i will not say spiders,
i will say you.
im scared of having my love for you hurt me,
**** me,
****** me.
im scared of drowning in tears that Y O U could cause.
im scared of you not caring anymore.
im scared of you forgetting.
forgetting all the tears,
all the laughter,
all the smiles,
all the cuddles,
everything.
im scared of you leaving me.
alone.
and scared.
so ask me again what i fear.
and i will say over and over again.
you.
Apr 8, 2018
Apr 8, 2018 at 11:22 AM UTC
i am the master of my fate,
i am the captain of my soul,
i am the leader of my thoughts,
but i am not perfect.
i will crash this ship,
lead it wrongly,
wreck it,
but i will come out strong.
i will go into harsh seas,
and come out harshly strong.
i will get lost in the dark,
and come out darkly strong.
because i am not perfect,
but better yet,
i
am
s t r o n g
my boat will splinter,
and still lead the seas.
my crew will die out,
and still lead the ship.
i will NOT get to land safely,
but better yet,
strongly.
Mar 23, 2018
Mar 23, 2018 at 7:47 AM UTC
smile.
despite all the chaos going through your head
smile.
despite all the words people throw at you.
smile.
despite how much you don't want to.
smile.
because no one will know whether it's true or not.
Mar 3, 2018
Mar 3, 2018 at 10:19 AM UTC
i am afraid,
someone will not like me.
that someone will judge me.
that someone might look at me and think,
she makes my life miserable.
Jan 21, 2018
Jan 21, 2018 at 11:17 AM UTC
three nights ago,
you were in my bedroom,
loving me,
kissing me,
helping me.
two nights ago,
you were in her bedroom,
loving her,
kissing her,
helping her.
one night ago,
you were in your bedroom,
neither loving her or me,
neither kissing her or me,
neither helping her or me,
because we both let you go.
Jan 12, 2018
Jan 12, 2018 at 2:27 PM UTC
think happy thoughts they say,
and the bad ones will disappear.
and my question to you is how?
how am I supposed to stay happy,
when my thoughts are telling me that i'm
a **** up,
a mess,
a ****
an idiot,
a *****
a fatty,
ugly,
a failure,
and i'm never gonna succeed?
just tell me how
is it by completely hiding the fact,
that i have not-so-great thoughts?
is it by spilling out my thoughts,
to a person in a white coat,
so they can write it down on a clipboard,
and give me happy pills?
because it's not that easy.
yet people tell me every day,
it's not hard.
i just chuckle at them and say,
you don't understand.
Jan 12, 2018
Jan 12, 2018 at 12:33 PM UTC