the thoughts go go go,
nonstop,
like a river.
and floating down,
is her mind,
like a boat,
lost in the water.
Apr 21, 2018
Apr 21, 2018 at 10:49 AM UTC
stop pretending no one loves you
stop pretending no one cares about you
you care
if you didn't care you wouldn't wake up
you wouldn't give your lungs the oxygen they need
give yourself credit
you are the one who throws the blades out of the window
and listens to your head and your thoughts
you are the one who deals with your pain
and manages to drag you out of bed for a shower
every so often
you are the one who goes into recovery
because you want to live
no one else stays up to the late hours drying your tears
and listening to every deep breath and sob
and you long for someone to
although you already have someone
you are enough
Apr 10, 2018
Apr 10, 2018 at 11:14 AM UTC
thank
you
for
showing
me
how
cruel
the
world
is.
Apr 8, 2018
Apr 8, 2018 at 11:26 AM UTC
if you ask me what i fear,
i will not say heights,
i will not say snakes,
i will not say spiders,
i will say you.
im scared of having my love for you hurt me,
**** me,
****** me.
im scared of drowning in tears that Y O U could cause.
im scared of you not caring anymore.
im scared of you forgetting.
forgetting all the tears,
all the laughter,
all the smiles,
all the cuddles,
everything.
im scared of you leaving me.
alone.
and scared.
so ask me again what i fear.
and i will say over and over again.
you.
Apr 8, 2018
Apr 8, 2018 at 11:22 AM UTC
i am the master of my fate,
i am the captain of my soul,
i am the leader of my thoughts,
but i am not perfect.
i will crash this ship,
lead it wrongly,
wreck it,
but i will come out strong.
i will go into harsh seas,
and come out harshly strong.
i will get lost in the dark,
and come out darkly strong.
because i am not perfect,
but better yet,
i
am
s t r o n g
my boat will splinter,
and still lead the seas.
my crew will die out,
and still lead the ship.
i will NOT get to land safely,
but better yet,
strongly.
Mar 23, 2018
Mar 23, 2018 at 7:47 AM UTC
smile.
despite all the chaos going through your head
smile.
despite all the words people throw at you.
smile.
despite how much you don't want to.
smile.
because no one will know whether it's true or not.
Mar 3, 2018
Mar 3, 2018 at 10:19 AM UTC
i am afraid,
someone will not like me.
that someone will judge me.
that someone might look at me and think,
she makes my life miserable.
Jan 21, 2018
Jan 21, 2018 at 11:17 AM UTC
"I can see my door, my bed, my window, my chair, and my table.
"I can feel my spine against the wall, my feet against the floor, my jaw tightly shut, and my fingernails buried in my arms.
"I can hear the wind coming in from the open window, my heartbeat rapidly thumping, and that familiar voice in my head, shouting once again.
"I can smell the dampness of the ground outside as the breeze carries it to my room, and the sickly sweet odor from the soap used on my hands.
"I can taste my blood spilling from the bite in my lip; my last harsh reminder that
I
am
still
alive.
Jan 14, 2018
Jan 14, 2018 at 1:08 PM UTC
Tell me who you are.
Tell me what makes you tick.
Do you like the sound of rain?
Or do you prefer the sun?
Do you eat dessert for breakfast?
Or breakfast for dinner?
Is coffee what you crave in the morning?
Or is your first thought a nicotine fix?
Do you sleep peacefully?
Or do you lay awake tormented?
Do your skeletons dance in the closet?
Or do ghosts hide under your bed?
Do you prefer the storm?
Or revel in the stars?
What do you need to get through your day?
And do you think I could ever be one of those things?
Jan 14, 2018
Jan 14, 2018 at 10:53 AM UTC
three nights ago,
you were in my bedroom,
loving me,
kissing me,
helping me.
two nights ago,
you were in her bedroom,
loving her,
kissing her,
helping her.
one night ago,
you were in your bedroom,
neither loving her or me,
neither kissing her or me,
neither helping her or me,
because we both let you go.
Jan 12, 2018
Jan 12, 2018 at 2:27 PM UTC