I dream about nothing but lying naked on the beach, feeling nothing but the heat from the sun
and your eyes
May 15, 2015
May 15, 2015 at 3:02 PM UTC
i know that you saying i'm the only reason you're still alive is meant as some sort of compliment or whatever but holy **** that just broke my heart
because i can't even carry myself, let alone you
May 15, 2015
May 15, 2015 at 3:01 PM UTC
i don't love my job
i don't love my studies
i don't love my town
i don't love my relationships
i don't love myself
i am so ******* done with not feeling love
all i feel is sad
heart cripplingly sad
i don't want to feel nothing any more
Aug 9, 2014
Aug 9, 2014 at 7:56 PM UTC
The sea couldn't drown you from my thoughts
Fire couldn't burn the taste of your tongue from mine
Darkness couldn't black out the pain you caused
A knife couldn't bleed you out of my veins
Alcohol couldn't make me forget
You
Jun 15, 2014
Jun 15, 2014 at 1:34 PM UTC
i told you about the demons i've told no other about
and you were there
stroking my scars and kissing my thoughts
you were there with wine when i told you my worst memories
you were there
and where the **** are you now
or who are you ******* now
telling her what you told me
it will all be okay
i will always be there for you
we have eachother
********
your blood is nothing but cheap beer and ********
i ******* hate you
and i ******* miss you
****
why aren't you here?
Jun 15, 2014
Jun 15, 2014 at 1:25 PM UTC
i pray you don’t repeat as everyone else has done before
and throw me away like the **** of your cigarette
Jun 13, 2014
Jun 13, 2014 at 3:21 PM UTC
I can’t help but hope that maybe one day,
I’m the reason
Your eyes light up ten times brighter,
Your pupils dilate twenty times wider,
Your heart beats thirty times faster,
Just like they do
When you talk
Oh so lovely,
About her
Jun 13, 2014
Jun 13, 2014 at 3:18 PM UTC
You will not look at me.
Not even look at the brave face I practiced
Not look at the smile I painted
Not at the dry eyes I skillfully mastered
This mask I made for you to see
But still, you will not look at me
As if my fakeness, will mutilate the image you have of me
I can tell you, it will.
Jun 13, 2014
Jun 13, 2014 at 3:14 PM UTC
The first time I smoked a cigarette
I felt the exhilaration of putting it to my lips
Sharp inhalation followed by sputtering coughs
Barely managing to pull in an even breath
Followed by a head rush
My stomach tied in knots and I questioned whether or not I would be sick
But I persisted, and choked it down
Eventually I got used to the taste
I grew to rely on the way my world would stop
My head swam, and time slowed down
My anxious mind was eased, if only for a moment
I craved it more than oxygen
I knew that it would be the death of me
Yet I couldn't walk away
I spent money I didn't have, just to get one more taste
I lost who I was to what I thought I needed
Such was loving you
Time went on and it strangled me
I felt like I could hardly breath
There is no nicotine patch for loneliness
And the nights of missing you still make me shake
But loving you was smoking
So I quit
Jun 13, 2014
Jun 13, 2014 at 3:12 PM UTC