mikayla-shaw - Hello Poetry

All the flowers were just about to bloom When I was, for the first time, in a crowded room Alone… With you By the end of those two days We were already in the flirting phase Full of shy smiles and quiet jokes with you Yeah you already had another girl But that was just about to unfurl All I had to do was wait to be with you And I already had another guy Who got me more than just a little high But you convinced me, I’d be better with you When she didn’t want to be there You came running to me and let me hear How she was just toying with you Time and again, he went and let me down He was just toying with me, but you were always around Made me realize it was safer with you Eventually things fell apart like we knew they would And we gave voice to your unspoken question: if I could Ever want to be with you And that’s where it all began We closed our eyes and just ran With it, happy that I was finally with you You put your arm around me, asked “is that okay?” And I didn’t know what else to say So I just stayed and watched movies with you Flash back to the first week, in a room full of friends But when your hand found mine, our conversation ends Because, suddenly, I am alone with you And it was conversations with our hands met Between us, at sunset In the parking lot with you It was your hand in my pocket My hand around the picture of us in my locket Lying on the couch with you It was dangerous Rebellious Sneaking around with you It was sensational Wonderful Magical being with you It was precious sand Slipping our hands A fragile era with you We went from “you look wonderful tonight” To three a.m. fights, staying up crying all night On the phone with you So now I’m bathed in the moonlight Wide awake at midnight Lying here, in the dark, without you It’s one-hundred- and-ten, heat’s on high I claim I’m alright, but it’s a lie Because it’s so cold here without you I know we weren’t made to last Our foundation was made of glass But it’s hard to think of me without you The whirlwind of emotions brought us to life Everything from passion to strife I feel less alive without you It was short lived, but it was all too real To forget how you made me feel I’ve never felt more alone than I do without you Looking back on it now, I become distraught: I think I was more in love with the thought Of you than I was…. With you

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Nov 2, 2014

Nov 2, 2014 at 3:06 PM UTC

mikayla-shaw

With You

All the flowers were just about to bloom When I was, for the first time, in a crowded room Alone… With you By the end of those two days We were already in the flirting phase Full of shy smiles and quiet jokes with you Yeah you already had another girl But that was just about to unfurl All I had to do was wait to be with you And I already had another guy Who got me more than just a little high But you convinced me, I’d be better with you When she didn’t want to be there You came running to me and let me hear How she was just toying with you Time and again, he went and let me down He was just toying with me, but you were always around Made me realize it was safer with you Eventually things fell apart like we knew they would And we gave voice to your unspoken question: if I could Ever want to be with you And that’s where it all began We closed our eyes and just ran With it, happy that I was finally with you You put your arm around me, asked “is that okay?” And I didn’t know what else to say So I just stayed and watched movies with you Flash back to the first week, in a room full of friends But when your hand found mine, our conversation ends Because, suddenly, I am alone with you And it was conversations with our hands met Between us, at sunset In the parking lot with you It was your hand in my pocket My hand around the picture of us in my locket Lying on the couch with you It was dangerous Rebellious Sneaking around with you It was sensational Wonderful Magical being with you It was precious sand Slipping our hands A fragile era with you We went from “you look wonderful tonight” To three a.m. fights, staying up crying all night On the phone with you So now I’m bathed in the moonlight Wide awake at midnight Lying here, in the dark, without you It’s one-hundred- and-ten, heat’s on high I claim I’m alright, but it’s a lie Because it’s so cold here without you I know we weren’t made to last Our foundation was made of glass But it’s hard to think of me without you The whirlwind of emotions brought us to life Everything from passion to strife I feel less alive without you It was short lived, but it was all too real To forget how you made me feel I’ve never felt more alone than I do without you Looking back on it now, I become distraught: I think I was more in love with the thought Of you than I was…. With you

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What do you see when you look in the mirror? Try moving a little nearer Wipe away the fog, try and see a little clearer. All you see is sunken eyes A girl run dry from years of torment and lies Every moment another unwanted surprise A girl who will fight about anything ‘Cause she needs to feel something She’s so tired of feeling nothing She’s a walking corpse with nowhere to go No one else has ever felt this low There’s too much that they don’t know You say I don’t know how you feel Like everything around you is surreal Because your heart’s not made of steel There’s no one on your side, you say You’re just trying to keep the pain at bay But end up pushing everyone away I know the story better than you think I do Because I’ve looked into that mirror, too And I survived what you’ve been through I’ve been down that same lane I’ve felt your pain You aren’t insane You stand tall through all you can take But when you’ve had enough, you break No choice but to give in to the earthquake It’s still a dark story when it’s covered in lace And the tears still stream down your face And you still don’t know what dreams to chase I know there’s so much you don’t say You’re just trying to make it through the day But I promise I’ll never walk away Stop running and stand your ground You’re done being pushed around Use the courage you have found The pain has made you strong The best revenge is to live happy and long They’ll never silence your song Moving on the key Your soul’s still beautiful; you can look to me Look at your scars and strength is all I see You can lean on me, if you need I can take the lead But you need to plant the seed Then I’ll make a spark To help you light up the dark The difference will be stark Break the chains, set yourself free When you forget who you are, look to me And I’ll remind you of all you can’t see

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May 12, 2014

May 12, 2014 at 9:53 PM UTC

mikayla-shaw

Look To Me

What do you see when you look in the mirror? Try moving a little nearer Wipe away the fog, try and see a little clearer. All you see is sunken eyes A girl run dry from years of torment and lies Every moment another unwanted surprise A girl who will fight about anything ‘Cause she needs to feel something She’s so tired of feeling nothing She’s a walking corpse with nowhere to go No one else has ever felt this low There’s too much that they don’t know You say I don’t know how you feel Like everything around you is surreal Because your heart’s not made of steel There’s no one on your side, you say You’re just trying to keep the pain at bay But end up pushing everyone away I know the story better than you think I do Because I’ve looked into that mirror, too And I survived what you’ve been through I’ve been down that same lane I’ve felt your pain You aren’t insane You stand tall through all you can take But when you’ve had enough, you break No choice but to give in to the earthquake It’s still a dark story when it’s covered in lace And the tears still stream down your face And you still don’t know what dreams to chase I know there’s so much you don’t say You’re just trying to make it through the day But I promise I’ll never walk away Stop running and stand your ground You’re done being pushed around Use the courage you have found The pain has made you strong The best revenge is to live happy and long They’ll never silence your song Moving on the key Your soul’s still beautiful; you can look to me Look at your scars and strength is all I see You can lean on me, if you need I can take the lead But you need to plant the seed Then I’ll make a spark To help you light up the dark The difference will be stark Break the chains, set yourself free When you forget who you are, look to me And I’ll remind you of all you can’t see

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I can’t tell which way is up or down My thoughts keep tossing all around I’m stuck inside a whirlwind Your words running circles in my mind I’m up here dancing through the air No net below me, but I don’t care If I fall, will you be there to catch me I guess all that’s left is to wait and see Because I’m about to crash and burn if you aren’t there Tell me you will be, tell me you swear You’ll be there; my brain’s already on fire Can you douse the flames and return the desire

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Apr 25, 2014

Apr 25, 2014 at 3:46 PM UTC

mikayla-shaw

Whirlwind

I can’t tell which way is up or down My thoughts keep tossing all around I’m stuck inside a whirlwind Your words running circles in my mind I’m up here dancing through the air No net below me, but I don’t care If I fall, will you be there to catch me I guess all that’s left is to wait and see Because I’m about to crash and burn if you aren’t there Tell me you will be, tell me you swear You’ll be there; my brain’s already on fire Can you douse the flames and return the desire

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I am a wailing infant swaddled in my crib, warm with love. I am a playful toddler lying on the pavement with scraped knees, blind with tears. I am a running child on the playground at noon, breathless and free. I am a defiant teen hunched over on the curb, hopeless and broken. I am a wonderstruck bride bathed with white, full of life. I am a lonesome wife curled up in an empty bed, yearning for him. I am a delighted mother watching my baby drive away, proud beyond belief. I am a sorrowful widow standing beside his grave, abandoned and afraid. I am a decaying woman holding her first great-grandbaby, nostalgic but peaceful. I am a dying elder slipping into the darkness beyond, eager to rest. I am *crushed love-struck turbulent shattered passionate fearful euphoric anguished zealous grief-stricken victorious* alive

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Apr 18, 2014

Apr 18, 2014 at 11:50 AM UTC

mikayla-shaw

Who I Am

I am a wailing infant swaddled in my crib, warm with love. I am a playful toddler lying on the pavement with scraped knees, blind with tears. I am a running child on the playground at noon, breathless and free. I am a defiant teen hunched over on the curb, hopeless and broken. I am a wonderstruck bride bathed with white, full of life. I am a lonesome wife curled up in an empty bed, yearning for him. I am a delighted mother watching my baby drive away, proud beyond belief. I am a sorrowful widow standing beside his grave, abandoned and afraid. I am a decaying woman holding her first great-grandbaby, nostalgic but peaceful. I am a dying elder slipping into the darkness beyond, eager to rest. I am *crushed love-struck turbulent shattered passionate fearful euphoric anguished zealous grief-stricken victorious* alive

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I Bathed in Heaven’s radiant light I brighten up even the darkest night Love, peace, and salvation Are the messages of my oration All the beauty in the universe Is found in each holy verse Of which I speak I answer every hopeless shriek In a veil of sacrosanct mystique II Dark hair, dark eyes A mouth always full of lies Envy, greed, and death Are what I speak with every breath All the evils of the world In my eyes they are swirled A mysterious ********* is what I am For these evils I do not feel a single qualm With my tricks, many people do I condemn III An angel’s wings Tainted by the evilest of sins The smell of death is in the air Dark red blood dishonors her blonde white hair The devil’s fire Built with an ungodly pyre Quenched with the holiest of intentions A hallowed intervention A little of good and evil lies In each of them, every day a little reprise A sweet twisted melody Which heavenly Paints a harmonious disaster To remain a memory forever after

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Apr 17, 2014

Apr 17, 2014 at 10:59 PM UTC

mikayla-shaw

Harmonious Disaster

I Bathed in Heaven’s radiant light I brighten up even the darkest night Love, peace, and salvation Are the messages of my oration All the beauty in the universe Is found in each holy verse Of which I speak I answer every hopeless shriek In a veil of sacrosanct mystique II Dark hair, dark eyes A mouth always full of lies Envy, greed, and death Are what I speak with every breath All the evils of the world In my eyes they are swirled A mysterious ********* is what I am For these evils I do not feel a single qualm With my tricks, many people do I condemn III An angel’s wings Tainted by the evilest of sins The smell of death is in the air Dark red blood dishonors her blonde white hair The devil’s fire Built with an ungodly pyre Quenched with the holiest of intentions A hallowed intervention A little of good and evil lies In each of them, every day a little reprise A sweet twisted melody Which heavenly Paints a harmonious disaster To remain a memory forever after

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Here I am once more Standing on this vacant shore A tear rolls unhindered down my cheek Hard to care when the scene is so bleak A set of footprints leads away from me Adjacent to the rolling sea Struggling to catch my breath A heavy weight lies on my chest High above me looms overcast skies Nothing save emptiness lies behind my hazel eyes The smell of rain and salt is in the air An unexpected, desirable affair Feet sinking slowly in the sand Overwhelming confusion makes it hard to stand All alone; no one else in sight So tired of this endless fight The pull of the tide dragging me in Dragging me under ~ ~ ~ I find myself here one more time A redundant, lonely crime The vision of a rainbow dances in my mind Past days when the sun had shined I know those times with return someday A person will come to hold these evil thoughts at bay To stand with me, feet sinking in the sand Until, together, we get the strength to withstand Someone to wipe away the tears for me To bring me hope in my prison by the sea Someday the footprints will be erased By the waves, who move without haste To be replaced by a different set Leading towards me, not away, yet I must wait for that person to save Me from the hole I’ve dug for myself, this grave A gentle hand lifting me out Lifting me up

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Apr 17, 2014

Apr 17, 2014 at 10:57 PM UTC

mikayla-shaw

The Shore

Here I am once more Standing on this vacant shore A tear rolls unhindered down my cheek Hard to care when the scene is so bleak A set of footprints leads away from me Adjacent to the rolling sea Struggling to catch my breath A heavy weight lies on my chest High above me looms overcast skies Nothing save emptiness lies behind my hazel eyes The smell of rain and salt is in the air An unexpected, desirable affair Feet sinking slowly in the sand Overwhelming confusion makes it hard to stand All alone; no one else in sight So tired of this endless fight The pull of the tide dragging me in Dragging me under ~ ~ ~ I find myself here one more time A redundant, lonely crime The vision of a rainbow dances in my mind Past days when the sun had shined I know those times with return someday A person will come to hold these evil thoughts at bay To stand with me, feet sinking in the sand Until, together, we get the strength to withstand Someone to wipe away the tears for me To bring me hope in my prison by the sea Someday the footprints will be erased By the waves, who move without haste To be replaced by a different set Leading towards me, not away, yet I must wait for that person to save Me from the hole I’ve dug for myself, this grave A gentle hand lifting me out Lifting me up

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I Brilliant red encased in morning dew Effulgent in the dull bayou All is silent in the tranquil air So different from the hellish nightmare Of the hussle and bussle of city life Out here among the wildlife A single spark of beauty Absolutely beyond reality The first rays of sunlight peeking over the horizon Breathless glamour, set to enliven Yes, it is without question The rose is the lucky one II The peace is but yet a guise As thunder clouds form in the skies For under those verdant covers Lies several sneaky lovers Oh what deceiving beauty to Fool the mind in this dreary venue For nothing is ever as it seems Except, of course, in dreams It draws in love mercilessly So people simply say blankly Yes, it is without question The rose is the lucky one III Rain drops glimmer on the leaves As the sun is pulled down beyond the trees The stars come out And not a noise can be heard throughout Will the rose ever shine as bright As they who twinkle throughout the night Its marvelous beauty is diminished As the day is finished The darkness whispers good night, a silent farewell Silence ringing much like a bell Upon the night falling, Without a single warning, The rose falls into an endless slumber With the rise of the sun, it will no longer Grow stronger Death takes yet another toll And as I go for my evening stroll In my mind, there is but a lone question: Is the rose the lucky one?

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Apr 17, 2014

Apr 17, 2014 at 10:56 PM UTC

mikayla-shaw

The Lucky One

I Brilliant red encased in morning dew Effulgent in the dull bayou All is silent in the tranquil air So different from the hellish nightmare Of the hussle and bussle of city life Out here among the wildlife A single spark of beauty Absolutely beyond reality The first rays of sunlight peeking over the horizon Breathless glamour, set to enliven Yes, it is without question The rose is the lucky one II The peace is but yet a guise As thunder clouds form in the skies For under those verdant covers Lies several sneaky lovers Oh what deceiving beauty to Fool the mind in this dreary venue For nothing is ever as it seems Except, of course, in dreams It draws in love mercilessly So people simply say blankly Yes, it is without question The rose is the lucky one III Rain drops glimmer on the leaves As the sun is pulled down beyond the trees The stars come out And not a noise can be heard throughout Will the rose ever shine as bright As they who twinkle throughout the night Its marvelous beauty is diminished As the day is finished The darkness whispers good night, a silent farewell Silence ringing much like a bell Upon the night falling, Without a single warning, The rose falls into an endless slumber With the rise of the sun, it will no longer Grow stronger Death takes yet another toll And as I go for my evening stroll In my mind, there is but a lone question: Is the rose the lucky one?

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This will be The end of me This kind of love burns too bright, leaving me lying with blisters But my mind’s spinning out of control, like I’m trapped in a twister Yeah, I know it’ll never last I fell too hard and much too fast It’s like all of a sudden, I can’t catch my breath And it’s a little risky, like I’m flirting with death It’s the falling so hard, I know I will regret Being lovestruck, the butterflies, and feeling so content But you make this feel so sweet And gravity’s already pulled me off my feet And you stared just a little too long Your voice is my favorite song You’ve got starlight dancing in your eyes A glint that reminds me of the heavenly skies Embers burst into sparks and we might crumble to ashes But we’ll shine brighter than the fire of a million matches Blind the whole world, take it over by storm Take this rain and turn it into a hailstorm I’d love death to be this kind No, I wouldn’t mind If this would be The end of me

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Apr 17, 2014

Apr 17, 2014 at 10:55 PM UTC

mikayla-shaw

Starlight

This will be The end of me This kind of love burns too bright, leaving me lying with blisters But my mind’s spinning out of control, like I’m trapped in a twister Yeah, I know it’ll never last I fell too hard and much too fast It’s like all of a sudden, I can’t catch my breath And it’s a little risky, like I’m flirting with death It’s the falling so hard, I know I will regret Being lovestruck, the butterflies, and feeling so content But you make this feel so sweet And gravity’s already pulled me off my feet And you stared just a little too long Your voice is my favorite song You’ve got starlight dancing in your eyes A glint that reminds me of the heavenly skies Embers burst into sparks and we might crumble to ashes But we’ll shine brighter than the fire of a million matches Blind the whole world, take it over by storm Take this rain and turn it into a hailstorm I’d love death to be this kind No, I wouldn’t mind If this would be The end of me

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As I perch by my window at night Bathing in the moon’s soft silver light I think of you And wonder if you think of me too Do I ever cross your mind The one who left you behind I wonder if you’re doing fine I left you broken, desperate, and scared Every minute, every second I wonder how you’ve faired Sailing alone on a tumultuous sea But think also of what you did to me Hours to days, days to years How often did I hold back my tears You deserted me first, shattered, alone, and defeated Without you there, my strength became depleted Still unsure if you even cared I, too, was beyond scared I had no choice I had to raise my voice I held on tight And gave one hell of a fight But I offered you, too, salvation If you only accepted my invitation So forget the pain you feel this night To stop and wonder who’s wrong and who’s right

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Apr 17, 2014

Apr 17, 2014 at 10:54 PM UTC

mikayla-shaw

Shattered

As I perch by my window at night Bathing in the moon’s soft silver light I think of you And wonder if you think of me too Do I ever cross your mind The one who left you behind I wonder if you’re doing fine I left you broken, desperate, and scared Every minute, every second I wonder how you’ve faired Sailing alone on a tumultuous sea But think also of what you did to me Hours to days, days to years How often did I hold back my tears You deserted me first, shattered, alone, and defeated Without you there, my strength became depleted Still unsure if you even cared I, too, was beyond scared I had no choice I had to raise my voice I held on tight And gave one hell of a fight But I offered you, too, salvation If you only accepted my invitation So forget the pain you feel this night To stop and wonder who’s wrong and who’s right

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She lacks the light in her eyes, the hint of a smile that I’ve come to know There is only so much joy a body can hold I miss her You don’t know what it’s like up here She seems peaceful now, at rest More than that, love, I am overjoyed Life was unfair to her So it was, but that pain has died with me She always tried to life live to its fullest I’m more alive now than I’ve ever been I can almost sense her here beside me Yes, I am here; I will always be here Almost hear her laugh, see her beautiful curls bounce as she runs I remember that hot August day Her temper grew until it boiled over as I chased her with the hose I wanted it to last forevermore She’s not the same anymore You’re right, I am so much more She’s not animated There’s so much you cannot see Upon her departure, I am lost Upon death’s arrival, I am found

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Apr 17, 2014

Apr 17, 2014 at 10:53 PM UTC

mikayla-shaw

A Conversation

She lacks the light in her eyes, the hint of a smile that I’ve come to know There is only so much joy a body can hold I miss her You don’t know what it’s like up here She seems peaceful now, at rest More than that, love, I am overjoyed Life was unfair to her So it was, but that pain has died with me She always tried to life live to its fullest I’m more alive now than I’ve ever been I can almost sense her here beside me Yes, I am here; I will always be here Almost hear her laugh, see her beautiful curls bounce as she runs I remember that hot August day Her temper grew until it boiled over as I chased her with the hose I wanted it to last forevermore She’s not the same anymore You’re right, I am so much more She’s not animated There’s so much you cannot see Upon her departure, I am lost Upon death’s arrival, I am found

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