melodie-foley - Hello Poetry

if you should ever be so lucky to experience a heartbreak you should know the feeling is excruciating it is two pieces of velcro ripping apart it is sinking and shredding it is screaming at the top of your lungs and sobbing in the same sentence it is brutal and you will not come unchanged you will cry for 100 hours when he leaves you you will feel reborn every 4 days for the rest of time, but on the 3rd day it will always be rock bottom it will always be shaking on the bathroom floor and voicemails and nausea youll learn to let the feelings pass

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Nov 21, 2019

Nov 21, 2019 at 12:34 AM UTC

melodie-foley

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if you should ever be so lucky to experience a heartbreak you should know the feeling is excruciating it is two pieces of velcro ripping apart it is sinking and shredding it is screaming at the top of your lungs and sobbing in the same sentence it is brutal and you will not come unchanged you will cry for 100 hours when he leaves you you will feel reborn every 4 days for the rest of time, but on the 3rd day it will always be rock bottom it will always be shaking on the bathroom floor and voicemails and nausea youll learn to let the feelings pass

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For 5 years you fed me With a silver spoon At least 3 times a day I didn’t know how good I had it Until I was hungry again When I was 19 with seven dollars to my name You brought me grilled cheese And donuts with sprinkles And other sweet little nothings For me to digest You filled my plate You left space at the table I was nourished I was was never full I was greedy I wanted every last bite When I was 24 and full enough You fed me your dreams You said eat it up baby And I did I swallowed them whole I felt them slide down my throat They’ve been sitting at the pit of my stomach ever since When you swallow bubble gum It doesn’t leave your gut for years I still feel the heaviness inside me The cotton candy artificial flavoring Bright pink and nostalgic But really just an accumulation Of all the parts that had gone to waste The remnants of a carcass I still full Still thankful to have had this meal When I try to feed you A returning of all the favors I crush up my favorite parts of me Hoping to sit inside you for years to come But you take the spoon into your mouth and wince Your face turns red I can see you’re not breathing Not reaching for help either I try to give you the Hielmlic To get back what I had given way Maybe had I presented it better Red and shiny and sweet Maybe then we wouldn’t be here Choking Empty Alone

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Jul 24, 2019

Jul 24, 2019 at 1:41 AM UTC

melodie-foley

What has fed you?

For 5 years you fed me With a silver spoon At least 3 times a day I didn’t know how good I had it Until I was hungry again When I was 19 with seven dollars to my name You brought me grilled cheese And donuts with sprinkles And other sweet little nothings For me to digest You filled my plate You left space at the table I was nourished I was was never full I was greedy I wanted every last bite When I was 24 and full enough You fed me your dreams You said eat it up baby And I did I swallowed them whole I felt them slide down my throat They’ve been sitting at the pit of my stomach ever since When you swallow bubble gum It doesn’t leave your gut for years I still feel the heaviness inside me The cotton candy artificial flavoring Bright pink and nostalgic But really just an accumulation Of all the parts that had gone to waste The remnants of a carcass I still full Still thankful to have had this meal When I try to feed you A returning of all the favors I crush up my favorite parts of me Hoping to sit inside you for years to come But you take the spoon into your mouth and wince Your face turns red I can see you’re not breathing Not reaching for help either I try to give you the Hielmlic To get back what I had given way Maybe had I presented it better Red and shiny and sweet Maybe then we wouldn’t be here Choking Empty Alone

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We had been at sea for what felt like decades In a tiny boat the size of a life raft we sat for weeks on end in silence just staring hoping to see land before insanity the incessant picking has always been a problem my thumbs, his downfalls and now, this boat almost unconsciously I began to pick at the lining until tiny little holes started to let water in I tried to avoid it sit on the holes fill them with fabric I took the shirt off my back to try to save the ship he looked at me as if to say, good luck with that instead, he said he had to get to work he stood up in the boat like getting off the train and walked straight into the water I've lost track of how long ago that was But I'm still here, clinging to what was once mine to what is drowning me slowly

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Jul 9, 2019

Jul 9, 2019 at 4:46 AM UTC

melodie-foley

the boat

We had been at sea for what felt like decades In a tiny boat the size of a life raft we sat for weeks on end in silence just staring hoping to see land before insanity the incessant picking has always been a problem my thumbs, his downfalls and now, this boat almost unconsciously I began to pick at the lining until tiny little holes started to let water in I tried to avoid it sit on the holes fill them with fabric I took the shirt off my back to try to save the ship he looked at me as if to say, good luck with that instead, he said he had to get to work he stood up in the boat like getting off the train and walked straight into the water I've lost track of how long ago that was But I'm still here, clinging to what was once mine to what is drowning me slowly

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In the event that you don’t leave me I will always make the bed I will wash the dishes, hang the t-shirts, match the socks I will throw out my receipts I will memorize all your freckles I swear by my ability to remember the lyrics that I will always give it my all Which is to say that sometimes I forget the lyrics - And while, yes, I am chronically lazy I vow to never waste another moment in your sunshine - A morning at your side Or a midnight half asleep retainer kiss I will save the episode And the last cookie I will always be saving your place. I will celebrate you I will look at the photo next to my bed as I have for the last half decade And say “thank you Thank you I’m sorry Forgive me I can do better Don’t leave “ A mantra

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Jun 14, 2019

Jun 14, 2019 at 3:23 AM UTC

melodie-foley

a mantra

In the event that you don’t leave me I will always make the bed I will wash the dishes, hang the t-shirts, match the socks I will throw out my receipts I will memorize all your freckles I swear by my ability to remember the lyrics that I will always give it my all Which is to say that sometimes I forget the lyrics - And while, yes, I am chronically lazy I vow to never waste another moment in your sunshine - A morning at your side Or a midnight half asleep retainer kiss I will save the episode And the last cookie I will always be saving your place. I will celebrate you I will look at the photo next to my bed as I have for the last half decade And say “thank you Thank you I’m sorry Forgive me I can do better Don’t leave “ A mantra

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no one has ever seen me like this before actually seen me not just looking and just thinking you see me like i can only barely see myself you know and i see you and I'm no longer afraid

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Oct 13, 2015

Oct 13, 2015 at 3:17 AM UTC

melodie-foley

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no one has ever seen me like this before actually seen me not just looking and just thinking you see me like i can only barely see myself you know and i see you and I'm no longer afraid

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i stripped myself down i stood there naked and cold you looked at me and smiled but then you turned around

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May 11, 2015

May 11, 2015 at 12:26 AM UTC