You've been stuck waiting,
For what seems a million years.
I'm praying for dulled silence,
But the words are choked by tears.
You've overwhelmed me this time,
Are you happy to know?
Do you like to see me stuttering?
Like to see me sink below?
It's really not your fault,
That you've got me frozen here.
Your perfection leaves me clueless,
So much I want to disappear.
How do I follow your words?
I need to block the sound...
With a guitar I strum,
And a base drums I pound.
There's lyrics in my head,
A chorus in my mind.
The voices of a thousand,
Rising from behind.
Singing, shouting, screaming,
The words I want to speak.
The deaf and the blind,
The strong and the weak.
A rebellion of thoughts,
I'm too afraid to say aloud.
I might myself be fearful,
But here they're shouted high and proud.
My arguments have faltered,
My hands are shaking too.
So I turn on my mind music,
To stop me singing this to you.
I want to tell you so much,
Perhaps give you a slight clue.
But I just turn on my mind music,
To stop me singing this to you.
Jul 1, 2014
Jul 1, 2014 at 12:11 AM UTC
Death where is it?
When will it come?
How fast will it happen?
Please do tell me.
I am not scared of it but curious
of it because I do not know
what comes after it.
Jul 1, 2014
Jul 1, 2014 at 12:08 AM UTC
This is all so hard.
I'm still hurting,
but you're happy.
Will you still be happy tomorrow?
What about a month from now?
A year?
When you finally miss me beside you,
don't call me,
don't bother asking for me,
don't visit my home.
You won't find me there anymore.
But in my new home.
My grave.
Jun 30, 2014
Jun 30, 2014 at 3:24 AM UTC
Mother, I did my best
I won the prize
Do you love me now?
Mother, I studied my hardest
I got an A
Do you love me now?
Mother, I behaved
I was nice to my brother and sister
Do you love me now?
Mother, I did what you asked
And more
Do you love me now?
Mother, I ran out of ideas
I don’t know if there is anything I can do
What can I do to make you love me?
Jun 26, 2014
Jun 26, 2014 at 11:05 PM UTC
I've never felt so safe,
as your lips touched my face.
My love surrounds you,
like the power of an invisible cape.
I can still hear your pleads,
as you wish to lay next to me.
But don't try to find me.
You'll only feel me bleed.
Jun 26, 2014
Jun 26, 2014 at 11:00 PM UTC
The talks we have
that could last for hours,
if we had the time.
The hysterical laughter
at one another's jokes,
even when they fail
to be humorous.
Being by each others side
through the good and bad.
Picking up broken pieces,
and bringing smiles
to one another
when everything hurts.
Throughout those moments,
I knew you'd be more to me
than my friend.
You became
my best friend,
my sister,
my other half,
but most importantly,
My happiness.
Jun 26, 2014
Jun 26, 2014 at 10:59 PM UTC
"What if I can't feel?"
You whispered in confusion as you cried.
"Then you're simply not living"
Then the touch of your hands became cold,
your skin turned pale,
but the vibrant glow in your eyes remained
as your gaze stayed upon me.
Your voice so low,
you said to me, "This is living"
Placing my hand on your chest,
you trembled simultaneously
to the rapid beating of your heart,
and I understood what you meant.
Jun 26, 2014
Jun 26, 2014 at 10:59 PM UTC
I had this thought,
that you were what kept me alive.
But little did I know,
every
little
thing
you
said
was
slowly
killing
me.
Jun 26, 2014
Jun 26, 2014 at 10:59 PM UTC
It isn't written on billboards but I miss you.
**And I always will,
Because these endings,
have no end.**
Jun 26, 2014
Jun 26, 2014 at 10:58 PM UTC
You're my love song.
Your name is the title,
& all I hear,
is the sound of your voice.
Jun 26, 2014
Jun 26, 2014 at 10:58 PM UTC