I love you
With all of my heart
You mean more to me
Than I could ever explain
It hurts me to know
That you can't see it
There is no one else.
Not a single person
Could make me feel
The way that you do.
I love you
With every fiber of my being
Why can't you see that,
Why?
I only want you.
From now until forever.
I just wish you could see that.
Oct 24, 2015
Oct 24, 2015 at 5:20 PM UTC
Some days, I miss my family. I wish that I could just go knock on their door and say, "Hey, I miss you. How have you been? I'm finally getting my life together and I hope you're proud of me because that's all I want."
I miss my cat. I've grown up with him since the age of four and I've never spent this long away from him. All I get to see is pictures every couple of weeks. I don't get to hold him or hear him and I just don't want him to forget me.
I miss my sister. The one who raised me. She taught me right from wrong, how to make sure that I was safe, how to cook, how to smoke without coughing my lungs out. Sure, I'll always have a tattoo to remember her by, but it would be nice to see her every once in a while too.
I miss my boyfriend. I feel so much better when he's near. I'll see him sooner than the others but I still appreciate everything he does for me. I can't wait for him to come home.
I miss myself. Sometimes I lose myself in the chaos of life and I forget the things most important to me. I have a new family that treats me as if I were their own child. I have friends and even old family that love me and care about me even with little contact.
Although I miss parts of my past, I still would not have it any other way. I have grown from what has packed me into the ground and I am blooming into something great.
Aug 14, 2015
Aug 14, 2015 at 12:04 AM UTC
I'm just trying to figure out how its gonna be after we die and I'm terrified. I don't wanna lose my memories of this life. Is there anything after? Am I just gonna wake up as someone else and not remember anything else from the past? Does everything just go dark? Is there a place after death? Do we just relive our lives over and over? Have we already died in some other form? I don't want to know but I do so badly. I don't want to lose all of this and not remember what happened before. I dont want to keep reliving the same thing over and over, but I dont want to forget either. I'm just scared.
Jul 20, 2015
Jul 20, 2015 at 11:42 PM UTC
If you asked me to tell
where the ceiling ends and
the walls begin,
I wouldn’t be able to tell you.
When I think about you
everything blurs into black
like an unkindness of ravens.
And I—
You are
the only thing that ever
crosses my mind as soon as
dusk turns into night,
and I could never tell you why.
I like to think that
just as birds know when to fly
and time knows when to die,
I was meant to love you.
Jul 20, 2015
Jul 20, 2015 at 7:43 PM UTC
My words
Don't come out like they used to
I think too much
And I'm always too late
I can't seem to find the words to say
Is this right?
Will this make you angry?
I was always taught
To only say
What makes people happy
Lately, I've gone against that
It's never right
I'ts never right
I'ts never right
I try so hard to be perfect
*Why can't I just say the right ******* thing for once*
Maybe if I don't try so hard
The right things
Will just come to me
Jul 12, 2015
Jul 12, 2015 at 1:58 AM UTC
I believe
That we become stars
Part of constellations
We watch as everyone goes on
And they have no idea that we're watching
Beautiful
But lonely
Planets thrive around us
Full of life and new adventures
From death
We create new life
And it isnt so lonely anymore
Jun 27, 2015
Jun 27, 2015 at 4:36 AM UTC
I get drunk on you
You fill me with warmth
And make me forget
I've become an alcoholic
But i havent picked up a drink
I'm addicted to this euphoria
And it never goes away
Jun 27, 2015
Jun 27, 2015 at 1:10 AM UTC
Well, it turns out the prince was a huge ********* Our happily ever after was short-ended by Prince Charming dumping me and leaving me on the streets. You’ve all heard the story with our “happily ever after,” but it wasn’t forever. This not-so-happy ending just proves that you shouldn’t marry someone you just met. Our “forever” was for like a month. The story everyone has heard is true, they just left out the ending. Here is the real ending.
“Listen here Cindy, you’re great and all, but I don’t love you. You’re not as beautiful as the night we met and I don’t think I can handle that betrayal.”
“Are you ******* kidding me?!” I’m so angry right now I can’t even wrap my mind around what happened. He looks at me with stern, serious eyes and a smirk that makes me want to punch him into another dimension. How can he do this to me? Everything was going perfectly, until this moment. I’m appalled at the sight of him.
“Also, I’m leaving you for your step sister, Drizella.” What the hell? He had to choose the ugliest one too. I cant even to respond to that. I take all the money I can find and walk out the door without even looking back.
I probably should have thought this through, since I have nowhere to go. I have no friends, no family, and my fairy godmother left me as soon as I married Prince ******* I did take most of his money, but I’m not sure what to do with it. I’ve never been on my own. As I’m walking far, far away from the prince’s castle, I find a park that is calling for me to rest. I lost track of how many days I’ve been walking and I feel like how my stepsisters look. I got some much needed sleep on an unnecessarily hard bench and woke up ready to carry on with my journey. I woke with a fright when I saw two stunningly dashing eyes peering over me. Those eyes belonged to a beautiful man who dressed like a prince, but smelled oddly like the sea. I did not want to break his gaze.
After a few seconds of slightly awkward eye contact, the man finally spoke,”Excuse me miss, you looked cold and uncomfortable so I wanted to offer you a place to stay. You look very smart so I’m sure you’re very reluctant and confused. My name is Eric. My wife and I have a huuuuuge house with more rooms than we need and we’d love to have you, Cinderella.”
“H-how do you know my name?”
“Um, everyone in every realm knows who you are and what you look like.” Oh yeah, I forgot that I didn’t exist to anybody until I married a prince and I was somebody to everybody. I hesitantly agreed and we rode on his horse to his castle which overlooked the sea. That must be why he smelled like it. This man has to be a prince. There is no way that even the richest people in this kingdom together could afford this castle. The inside was more magnificent than the outside. It had huge, open rooms with intricate windows so that you could see almost completely around the castle. I wouldn’t mind spending the rest of my life here. My thought is interrupted by Eric’s wife walking in and internally murdering me as soon as she lays her eyes on me.
“So I tell you I’m leaving you and not even a day later, you already have another girl here? What is wrong with you?”
“What’s wrong with me?! You’re the one with *****
She begins to shout “His name is Sebastian and he’s more of a man than you’ll ever be!” She storms out of the castle, leaving only an echoing boom from the slammed door.
This is almost my exact situation except reversed. I see him try to shrug it off, but I can see the hurt in his eyes. As he gives me a tour, the hurt in his eyes slowly begins to fade.
“Hey, I’m sorry that you had to see that earlier.”
“You don’t have to be sorry, Eric. It wasn’t your fault. My husband just left me so I understand how bad it hurts.” He just nods his head and continues showing me around. The tour ends at Erics bedroom. I don’t know what comes over me, but I kiss him. It was awkward, but then it didn’t stop and it became very heated. This was a passion I never got to experience with Charming. I woke up with the cool blanket clinging to my naked body. I felt something warm behind me and slowly rolled over to see Eric. I screamed and stumbled off the bed. I thought yesterday was just a dream! My scream woke Eric and his eyes widened as they found me.
“Can we uhhh… pretend like nothing happened?” he hesitantly asked. I nod my head and rush to the guest bedroom to wash away the memories from last night’s rendezvous.
Things were awkward for a long time, but we tried to pretend as if nothing happened. Eventually we started to build a friendship! We’ve actually even been on a couple dates. I can’t believe I didn’t do this with Charming. No wonder our marriage fell apart. I practically know everything about Eric, and he knows almost everything about me. This is the happiest I’ve been in a looong time. We’re only about a month into the relationship and we’re already talking about marriage. I know it is very soon but it’s a step up from only knowing him a day. It only took an unexpected encounter to bring us together. This may or may not be my real happily ever after but I’ll just have to wait and hope and see. For now, I am just happy.
Jun 27, 2015
Jun 27, 2015 at 12:04 AM UTC
Dear Sun, you are untouchable
And so am I
We build up shields so no one can reach us
And they never will.
We are who we are
Not a thing can change that
Everyone has their own ideas
Of who we are meant to be
Oh how they try
And try
And try
They can not control who we are inside
We are all souls
Roaming along as we compete to exist
Judging one another
Being judged ourselves
We are one in the same
At least this way
The faces
The emotions
The glares
The ridicule
The words
The hurt
All of this
Makes us the same
With you up in the sky
And with us both on the ground
We hear the same
Which makes us one in the same
Jun 26, 2015
Jun 26, 2015 at 3:20 PM UTC
Love is indefinable
I have always been asked
"What is love? "
Love is not just two people
Its watching someone
Passionately talking about their favorite thing
Its the kindness in the world
Its a song on the radio
The sun and the stars in the sky
The way someone runs their fingers
Through their hair
If you love something
Don't set it free
Cherish it
Let it fill you with indescribable joy
It is your love
Jun 26, 2015
Jun 26, 2015 at 2:35 PM UTC