It was the last drop to glissade down my cheek
The hazy delusions I saw through the creeks
And despite my efforts of simplicity
I'm drawn to an array of complexity
So as I sat and fought those demons
I cut the ties despite the screaming
Of Hope
Of Change
Of Love...
Because none of it was true
As it lie in my mind
The search for ME has been hard to find
Jun 30, 2021
Jun 30, 2021 at 10:41 PM UTC
Toxins enter deep inside me
Gasping from the poison
My world begins to fade
Why do I exist?
This heart stone cold
Shutting everyone out
I want to be alone
Feeling ****** in
Losing the fight, within myself
Tears drop to the ground
As time has passed, remembering the lies
I believed you
No answers to these emotions
Gradually I’ve noticed a change
I’m not the same exuberant soul, perceived as a child
Memories drown me
My temper explodes into unexplainable pieces
Fed up with bewilderment
I tense as spiteful words are spit upon me
Of sound kind or mania
Craving acceptance
This is the bare minimum throughout my existence.
Mar 9, 2021
Mar 9, 2021 at 1:00 AM UTC
Invisible,
I stare into a crowded room with laughter and fleet.
Invisible,
I stand inside a multitude of jollity and upbeat.
A balancing act
Where frequently I fumble
Between intense feelings of overwhelming deceit and hostile repeat
I buried my purpose
And here I watch each layer reveal an unsteady influence of hardship
Through adapting to danger and reckless behavior
Impulsively I rise and overheat...
Slowing uncovering patterns of promising demise and retreat.
Invisible,
I walk through shadows to subconsciously compete
Invisible,
I dream I was you and not me.
Mar 7, 2021
Mar 7, 2021 at 11:33 PM UTC
That Day you walked away there was so much I could say...
You've twisted my mind with crippled emotions
A manipulative liar I must say.
Leaving my side and this unborn child
For fun and laughs, a good.time and beer.
You had so much potential but threw it away.
With the flick of a bic you lost all control
Hoping you have envisioned this path you've chosen
Of dark nights and blurry lights.
But by that time, I'll be long gone.
No more spiraling into a delusional fantasy
You've lost my heart, my hope, and my soul
To an addiction of self infatuation.
Megan James 9/24/14
Sep 25, 2014
Sep 25, 2014 at 12:38 AM UTC
Shaking like a train down its tracks
Contemplating two sides...
One a fantasy
One a reality.
Breaking down the barriers of fear
Lonliness through the crowds
Insecurities followed by depression
My unemotional mindset spiraling into a disaster.
Flipping the script to a sunlit view
...where the clouds drift smoothly...
...when I feel my pulse beat through my skins blush...
...when the stars gleam through my eyes...
Without an alternative.
Going back to sanity
Home, where I belong...
May 20, 2014
May 20, 2014 at 4:56 AM UTC
Like a spider crawling against my veins
Poisoning my body
Shattering the cells beneath my skin
Into shadows of dust
A sewn heart cracks open
Flooding me in puddles of scarlet silk
Dripping as I fall like pixels of a broken image
Disappearing into a dark infinity
The flames between our souls extinguish into oblivion.
Mar 1, 2014
Mar 1, 2014 at 1:47 AM UTC
Waking up from this nightmare
Of your useless lies
That led me down the path of destruction.
This is it
I can feel my bones shake through my skin
As I break through the dead end
You've brought me to.
Let me sift through your mind
And plant the venomous words spit at me
Through your gruesome lips.
I'll walk you into the darkness of my soul
That leads to death.
Feb 11, 2014
Feb 11, 2014 at 1:27 AM UTC
Pondering on the thoughts of fantasies you've planted
Like a ray blasted between roasted tips
Of sunlight on my lips.
Dreaming about the day you'd be the one,
To take me away.
From smokey flames and dusty trains.
Floating above the unknown feelings
Of fearless thrusting between my hips.
Can you feel it baby?
In your mind
You've ****** me twice.
Sensations of a rush run through my skins
Flawless blush.
Deeper my mind drifts
Into the abyss of
Everlasting pleasures
Drip... Drip...Drip...
Did you feel that baby?
Feb 5, 2014
Feb 5, 2014 at 2:06 AM UTC
Misty sreams break through broken dreams
Replenishing the garden of eden as though it seems
A fresh intake of complete serentity
Escaping the rigid bridge collapsing into a soiled specter
Through spirals of entangled branches taken down by a faithful soul
An escape from the deceitful downfall of eternal suffering.
Feb 4, 2014
Feb 4, 2014 at 2:35 AM UTC
As I lay pacing through the walls of insanity balanced between reality
My mind unwinds bringing down sequences intertwined
Twisted secrets of poisenous emotions while i glide along euphoric passions
Drastic oceans embedded between those luscious lashes, grasping my last breath with shades of ashes
Unraveling silk layers of her anatomy, the dark shades
within history abandoned upon a sweet mystery.
Feb 3, 2014
Feb 3, 2014 at 2:19 AM UTC