mayhem-is-a-virtue - Hello Poetry

you're the reason i stepped on the gas in the first place symmetry demands you be the reason i pump the breaks now let's roll the dice baby needs a new pair of shoes be my nina from pasedena i'll be your snake eyes

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Nov 26, 2017

Nov 26, 2017 at 10:52 PM UTC

mayhem-is-a-virtue

lucky #9

you're the reason i stepped on the gas in the first place symmetry demands you be the reason i pump the breaks now let's roll the dice baby needs a new pair of shoes be my nina from pasedena i'll be your snake eyes

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- anyway i don't believe that feelings come from the heart, metaphorically speaking, because the heart is just a big blood sponge [squeeze in squeeze out] that just mixes up all your **** until you don’t even know what you really wanted in the first place but true emotions are half guts half ***** and a pinch of brains no heart involved - i want to get drunk and i want to drive into the desert where nobody can hear and scream my ******* head off until my throat feels like raw meat and then i want to sleep on the cold metal hood of my car and play punk songs from the ****** car stereo and wake up at dawn to smoke cigarettes (but daintily like a lady with a vintage cigarette holder) with you and pretend that the world has melted behind us and we’re all alone inside each other’s heads, your hand on my fishnetted knee, my face in your chest, with no need to speak or ruin the calm watercolor morning

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Nov 26, 2017

Nov 26, 2017 at 2:35 AM UTC

mayhem-is-a-virtue

found in an old journal

- anyway i don't believe that feelings come from the heart, metaphorically speaking, because the heart is just a big blood sponge [squeeze in squeeze out] that just mixes up all your **** until you don’t even know what you really wanted in the first place but true emotions are half guts half ***** and a pinch of brains no heart involved - i want to get drunk and i want to drive into the desert where nobody can hear and scream my ******* head off until my throat feels like raw meat and then i want to sleep on the cold metal hood of my car and play punk songs from the ****** car stereo and wake up at dawn to smoke cigarettes (but daintily like a lady with a vintage cigarette holder) with you and pretend that the world has melted behind us and we’re all alone inside each other’s heads, your hand on my fishnetted knee, my face in your chest, with no need to speak or ruin the calm watercolor morning

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well anyway the thing about punk music that i really relate to is the need to express base emotions 8 minutes and the way that a lot of these artists try to change the world and make it a better place 7 minutes i think that creative people always need an outlet for raw emotions 7 minutes and i think that punk rock is a great way to express yourself and feel that there is absolutely no barrier between what you can do and what you shouldn't do 6 minutes that's why a lot of punk artists throughout the years have done things onstage like cut themselves, ********** take drugs, etc 5 minutes and i really envy that kind of artistic freedom and integrity yeah in a way 3 minutes i think that a lot of modern artists that are getting any attention are so plastic wrapped and over produced that they barely stand for anything and it's kind of hurting our society in the long run because people aren't being challenged to think for themselves 2 minutes you have to go out of your way to find something that challenges your viewpoint artistically speaking now ...

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Nov 26, 2017

Nov 26, 2017 at 2:13 AM UTC

mayhem-is-a-virtue

chatroom

well anyway the thing about punk music that i really relate to is the need to express base emotions 8 minutes and the way that a lot of these artists try to change the world and make it a better place 7 minutes i think that creative people always need an outlet for raw emotions 7 minutes and i think that punk rock is a great way to express yourself and feel that there is absolutely no barrier between what you can do and what you shouldn't do 6 minutes that's why a lot of punk artists throughout the years have done things onstage like cut themselves, ********** take drugs, etc 5 minutes and i really envy that kind of artistic freedom and integrity yeah in a way 3 minutes i think that a lot of modern artists that are getting any attention are so plastic wrapped and over produced that they barely stand for anything and it's kind of hurting our society in the long run because people aren't being challenged to think for themselves 2 minutes you have to go out of your way to find something that challenges your viewpoint artistically speaking now ...

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my whole life i've been waiting for you i'm not psychic but i used to dream about you before we met i've missed you for as long i can remember there's a myth that says humans once had 4 legs, 4 arms, & a head with 2 faces they were torn apart & scattered some people are lucky & they find their other half i think you're mine i think it's Fate that we found each other you always come back to me i always come back to you like magnets, we're stronger the closer we get

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Nov 26, 2017

Nov 26, 2017 at 2:06 AM UTC

mayhem-is-a-virtue

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my whole life i've been waiting for you i'm not psychic but i used to dream about you before we met i've missed you for as long i can remember there's a myth that says humans once had 4 legs, 4 arms, & a head with 2 faces they were torn apart & scattered some people are lucky & they find their other half i think you're mine i think it's Fate that we found each other you always come back to me i always come back to you like magnets, we're stronger the closer we get

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i miss you so hard i feel it heavy in my guts my thoughts of you drip down my thighs like syrup i need you to come here & lick them off me stop letting me miss you like this red hot

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Nov 26, 2017

Nov 26, 2017 at 1:50 AM UTC

mayhem-is-a-virtue

Untitled

i miss you so hard i feel it heavy in my guts my thoughts of you drip down my thighs like syrup i need you to come here & lick them off me stop letting me miss you like this red hot

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i have two options: 1. i can go & wish i'd stayed 2. i can stay & wish i went

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Nov 26, 2017

Nov 26, 2017 at 1:43 AM UTC

mayhem-is-a-virtue

Illinois

i have two options: 1. i can go & wish i'd stayed 2. i can stay & wish i went

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It’s nighttime, the crickets are chirping. The faucet is dripping. There’s light coming in from the street through the cheap vertical blinds that came with my apartment. My bed is uncomfortable, my back is itchy, my neck is stiff. My bones hurt and my mind is running through everything I did wrong today. I forgot to eat breakfast, I stepped on a beetle and I sweated through my shirt during my walk to work, I forgot to print out the form I was supposed to, I made a joke and my co-worker didn’t laugh, I came home and I ate a dinner with too many calories and picked a movie that my roommate didn’t like, then I went to bed without doing the dishes or washing my face. I shift my body under the covers, but it doesn’t make me more comfortable. I’m still itchy. I see bugs on the ceiling but I know they aren’t really there so I just watch them crawl over each other, squirming and clicking as their exoskeletons brush against each other. They writhe, defying gravity. They drip like water down the wall and puddle on the floor, and the fear I experience isn’t real but it feels real because my body doesn’t know the difference.

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Nov 26, 2017

Nov 26, 2017 at 12:51 AM UTC

mayhem-is-a-virtue

Anxiety

It’s nighttime, the crickets are chirping. The faucet is dripping. There’s light coming in from the street through the cheap vertical blinds that came with my apartment. My bed is uncomfortable, my back is itchy, my neck is stiff. My bones hurt and my mind is running through everything I did wrong today. I forgot to eat breakfast, I stepped on a beetle and I sweated through my shirt during my walk to work, I forgot to print out the form I was supposed to, I made a joke and my co-worker didn’t laugh, I came home and I ate a dinner with too many calories and picked a movie that my roommate didn’t like, then I went to bed without doing the dishes or washing my face. I shift my body under the covers, but it doesn’t make me more comfortable. I’m still itchy. I see bugs on the ceiling but I know they aren’t really there so I just watch them crawl over each other, squirming and clicking as their exoskeletons brush against each other. They writhe, defying gravity. They drip like water down the wall and puddle on the floor, and the fear I experience isn’t real but it feels real because my body doesn’t know the difference.

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my biggest turn-on is severe emotional problems (apparently) yes daddy put the fear of God into me make me wonder if you might snap & **** me one day make me lay in bed alone with an anxiety bellyache wondering if you even love me or am i just here to stroke your ego when everyone else is busy yes papi you do know how i like it don't you don't worry baby, of course you're a good man how could i tell you otherwise when i love you so much?

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Aug 20, 2017

Aug 20, 2017 at 3:48 PM UTC

mayhem-is-a-virtue

i did it again... & again & again

my biggest turn-on is severe emotional problems (apparently) yes daddy put the fear of God into me make me wonder if you might snap & **** me one day make me lay in bed alone with an anxiety bellyache wondering if you even love me or am i just here to stroke your ego when everyone else is busy yes papi you do know how i like it don't you don't worry baby, of course you're a good man how could i tell you otherwise when i love you so much?

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