I'm so tired all the time
of being cold
and being kind
My heart is heavy with doubt
innocent lies
and the fear of sound
Doomed with fragility and bitterness
a walking contradiction
a near perfect mess
I'm so tired all the time
of myself
and my bad rhymes
Cursed from the start
and the second I fell
carrying the wrong heart
I'm forever in hell
Jan 31, 2019
Jan 31, 2019 at 7:52 PM UTC
falling into the gaping rabbit hole that is your heart
time and time again
I'm beginning to think Alice was not that smart
or she wouldn't have let you win
Jan 31, 2019
Jan 31, 2019 at 7:29 PM UTC
In the nights I like to pretend you're all mine
you sing to me softly
as you skip over the rhymes
but in my dreams they are there
And all the lines in between
you are as soft as a bear
With no tears in your seams
Jan 31, 2019
Jan 31, 2019 at 10:55 AM UTC
I am lost in you
But I can't find you in me
deep in your blue
an unforgiving sea
Jan 31, 2019
Jan 31, 2019 at 10:50 AM UTC
Please don't tell him when I die
It will be too much to handle
We have had the same questions
But he won't get the answers
Please don't tell him when I die
He will think it's his fault
Like I'm his lone snail
And he is my salt
Though his actions were cruel
And rough to the touch
I care most for his wellbeing
I am not asking too much
Please don't tell him when I die
It is the secret to keep
You can take it to my grave
So I know he won't weep
Jan 31, 2019
Jan 31, 2019 at 10:09 AM UTC
Make me as close as your bones
Seep into my skin
And never let go
Attach yourself to me
As you make your way down
I won't let you fall
though you'd risk it to drown
Tear into me sweetly
And keep me up through the night
Don't you dare leave me waiting
Because you know that it's right
There are no sweeter moments
Than when we fade into one
Your lips belong to my skin
As if decided from above
Make me as close as your bones
Lose my mind,
My self,
And all I have known
Attach yourself to me
As you find your way back
Never loosening your grip
And never holding back
Jan 31, 2019
Jan 31, 2019 at 10:08 AM UTC
I watched unprepared
as my candle went out
The light is now gone
No more shadows or doubt
I am lost as the darkness sets in
It's nest is made quickly
As it moves from within
Maybe if I had bought more matches or a lighter that works
She wouldn't be here to linger
exposing my quirks.
I search for days but
find only a broken wick
and to light it with nothing-
The magician's best trick
The power lies somewhere within me I know
As I am no longer doubtful or missing
For even the dimmest of lights will surely lead to home
Jan 31, 2019
Jan 31, 2019 at 5:45 AM UTC
I weep to myself
And I hug my own shoulders
For nothing has changed
I have just gotten older
My attempts and my strides
To make something new
But I am the same tragic tide
Trapped in the same boring blue
But with me I'm in love
And for her I will do this
We’ll move up above
to that cosmic abyss
We’ve been dreaming so long
For that bright navy blue
It’s where we’ve belonged
So there’s one thing to do
If I should bruise my own skin
I will with no question
Display the stars from my eyes
My one godly obsession
Rest peacefully my love
And we’ll be up there soon
It’s smooth sailing from here
Forever asleep on the moon
Jan 30, 2019
Jan 30, 2019 at 4:29 PM UTC
I have robbed myself bare
With the belief that I am the exception
Taking everything I love
With no remorse
and no room for redemption
A destined ****** sinner
With the heart of a child
One step from a killer
plagued by her own selfish mind
Moving forward as if all-knowing
And guided from above
But led alone by the fear and the loathing
With the grace of a caged dove
My wicked ways still vile
As I age with the years
But the need for change is deafening
It rings cold through my ears
My heart craves absolution,
peace of mind,
a friend,
or some kind of resolution
But upon finding the love of creation
And the idea of what could be
I ache for the past no longer
For my dove is set free
Jan 30, 2019
Jan 30, 2019 at 4:23 PM UTC