There has been no days that I have not been surprised, delighted, and unfortunately, disappointed by human beings. So I ask this question: is it due to age that selfishness surfaces at its peak or plateau, or is it an affliction that is borne from an innate personality trait. The inability to see beyond their minimal parameter and impose their will upon those who has a much wider horizon is perhaps one of the most difficult obstacle to overcome. Let's just say I wish to beat the ************* **** out of a couple who are about 12-years old in mental maturity, pour black tar on them and light a ******* match
Sep 23, 2014
Sep 23, 2014 at 9:09 PM UTC
Ah summer! How you touch me! Your morning dew that kisses each blade of grass, so brilliant, a blanket of diamonds as the sun begins its rise from the east.
And as that golden orb climbs to reach its peak midday, casting your warmth among the smiling and grateful faces of the daisies and pansies that dot the landscape. Chasing away the earthworms that sought the fresh air during the cooler hours of the morn.
And there is me.
Your sun burns the dark demons that haunt me before I slumber, and removes the curses from my dreams.
Your warmth enfolds me with the sensation of a true love's embrace.
Your brilliance shines light upon my mind's shaded path.
Your existence is what keeps me alive.
Shine on me.
Fill me enough to withstand the coming months of blacker days.
And keep your promise that you will come again and be my light.
Aug 23, 2014
Aug 23, 2014 at 3:51 PM UTC
More and more I see each day
Reflect upon all life and way
How dawn is beginning
Sundown the end
This is our life,
Believe me, my friend.
Ah! What has made me think this thought?
Clarity, meaning, truth I've sought
As all good things come to conclusion
Pragmatic reason, without confusion
I say goodbye to one I've known
With whom I spent my life and grown
Goodbye dear man, I've loved you too
But now I seek my life, what's true
Feb 24, 2014
Feb 24, 2014 at 10:03 PM UTC
Not feeling it right now
Like driving at night on a highway
Lights broken, totally black
Confidence, knowing…gone
Why? I was feeling so good!
So sure….perhaps not.
My mind, my enemy
Make it stop. These thoughts.
Sabotage!
Go away, I beg you.
The fear, the pain
Failure ensue
Not now, no rain
The promise of good
I’ll change just see
If only I would
I am, you see
Just someone who fears
That setting sun
Hold back my tears
As I come undone
Tragedy I own
Tis joy not mine
The sins I’ve sown
In death I shall find
The peace I seek
For I cannot live
In this world so bleak
My heart, I would give
To free the bond
For I, a slave
Until I’m gone
Never to brave
I am weak
Don’t mock
I tried, oh have I tried
Just leave me be
This world is hard
Jan 21, 2014
Jan 21, 2014 at 8:56 PM UTC
Hey you! Can you see me?
Of course you do not
Hello! Hello! Can you hear me?
No, I know you cannot
Wait! Grab my hand, can you feel me?
Oh no, that is not my hand you have
I am here. Beside you. Always. One day you will notice, and when you do, alas, I am gone.
Jun 20, 2013
Jun 20, 2013 at 8:33 PM UTC
If it is important, one will find a way
If it is not, one will seek an excuse
Clarity is sobering
Especially when it is one's self that has been defined
The fear has yet to release its hold
Although I fight against its grip
And hope to one day take that deep breath of freedom
You have inspired that hope to heights never reached
The miracle is just beyond
With love, there is patience
And joy knowing that it is right there, so close
Lend your hand, for the length of its reach is more than mine
This I ask. My attempt to find a way.
You are important to me.
So very much.
Jan 23, 2013
Jan 23, 2013 at 6:41 PM UTC
My fingers raw from scrubbing pounds of clams, mussels, peeling prawns.
My back aches in preparation for a meal that I wish to share with you.
Christmas music in the background.
A cocktail in hand
Now I sit for a moment and wonder
Where are you?
I hope you smile
Know I think of you
Waiting for our time together
Sitting here. Lost in thought.
Lost in you.
Kiss my love
Dec 23, 2012
Dec 23, 2012 at 4:39 PM UTC
Ok
Ok...not so good today
Two steps forward
One step back
Sometimes three
And when I do
Alas, the difficulty
So what. Who cares?
Do you?
This is me. I don't care
At times I stumble
At times I detonate
At least I do....
And not just marinate
You judge me?
You're no one
That matters to me
Ahhhh! That is the key!
No care for you
I am to be free
No one shall tell
How I will rule
MY life, we'll have no duel
You live yours
And I'll live mine
We will see
Who, in the end, will shine
You cannot touch
What you have not known
Don't dare to know me
I will be alone
And love that I am
Strong without you
No more I shall I need
No more I shall rue
How I love that I have no more
The chains that had choked me
Restraint I abhor
Leave me! I scream
My heart full of glee
Begone! Stay away!
How I love to be me
Nov 23, 2012
Nov 23, 2012 at 5:38 PM UTC
One day, it was of one so bland
No note I took that was so grand
A lazy moment, I looked upon
Some random words, soon to be gone
Without thought I answered thee
And never thought that I would be
Captured by prose that came from you
I doubt, I knew you were not true
Yet with what you gave in return
A spark for what has yet to burn
Drawn like a moth upon a flame
In time lost focus within your game
And allowed your scrutiny
The secret buried deep in me
With test and trial you rose above
Yet with resistance I would not love
For feeling was not what I knew
And I could not allow from you
To gain the power and take from me
What held me up above the sea
Of misery, I have only known
No love, no joy, what has not grown
Yet with each word that came from you
The crack upon my wall broke through
The rush, emotion within a flash
That wondrous moment soon came a crash
Into my soul and shaken me
Stripped from my armor and set me free
With wonder I have walked anew
This path, in hand I take with you
But wait, this cannot be real
My heart, my soul, this love I feel
Each day, I wake hope to believe
That we’ve made stronger this wondrous weave
From chaos, turmoil to spirit free
Someone I thought I’d never be
Today I look back to when
And hope to see you once again
Short time has passed yet I do know
God no!!! Let not my doubt to grow!
Perhaps I have been so deceived
Autre persona has no reprieve!
Begone, leave me, I cannot bear
Too long your presence born its wear
Leave me, allow myself retreat
To where I do not claim defeat
This inner world no one I share
Where I am safe, my soul to bare
Forgive me, for I do not trust
What I thought love, perhaps just lust
How I wish that I am wrong
To be with one whom I so long
But fear has always taken hold
Allow me not to be so bold
I fail, I see, I cannot be
The girl I thought was true to me
Nov 17, 2012
Nov 17, 2012 at 9:17 AM UTC
I know I’ll never know your pain
My only wish that it shall wane
I long to see what’s in your eyes
The depth of soul that so arise
Your heart is strong as well your fire
You’ll never break nor bend, lest dire
There never will be someone like you
With valor, strength and all that’s true
The moment I have laid my eyes
On you there never once was lies
Only your care and understanding
You held me close tucked in your wing
I hope someday you’ll be aware
How precious all the things you share
I never shall forget your love
For you have brought me up above
The darkness that enveloped me
Opened my eyes so I can see
Yet here I sit, and think of you
How now I wish that I can do
What you have done to soothe my pain
To be your shelter in dark and rain
But I know this, you stand alone
That only you know must be done
So next to you, I always stand
I hope one day you’ll take my hand
To lend you warmth when you are cold
And give you love as I have told
In words and action that you will witness
My heart I give you and nothing less
What does that mean, my love for you?
Respect, admiration, and all I do
With you, I say, I found my way
To live each moment, each hour, each day
I tell you this, my strength, my champion
You’ll rise so high, when all is done
One day I hope you’ll take my hand
As we sit or walk, or as we stand
My heart will glow, no other I’ll see
For this is what was meant to be
To feel your smile, your eyes alight
To know that life shall finally be bright
Nov 16, 2012
Nov 16, 2012 at 12:37 PM UTC