the blink that releases the tear that all lovers fight,
the day that all lovers dread,
the words that all lovers despise,
the pain no lover ever wants to feel...
as a lover of all things,
it amazes me how that blink, that day, those words and that pain always finds a way back to me
like a firefly moving hurriedly through the night, I find myself back in this familiar darkness
I find myself alone and afraid, searching for the light, yet again
I find myself hopeful that you will be the one to come and provide that light
I find myself waiting patiently for your return
I find myself hoping endlessly that this is your idea of a cruel joke
The memories, they haunt me
Small moments of what used to be happiness turn into reminders that we are no more
The silence, it eats away at me
Being left alone with my thoughts turns into an earful of tears
The music, it speaks for me
Every song on the radio turns into the soundtrack of my life
The heartbreak, it controls me
Those butterflies that once occupied the pit of my stomach turned into bees that sting with every aching heartbeat
Who says time heals all?
From everything to nothing in the blink of an eye
I don't doubt that it will take an eternity of blinks to fill this void
This emptiness, this loneliness, this sadness...
Falling out of love is far too difficult..
Won't you catch me?
Your hands are the only ones that possess the power to unbreak my heart
From now until you're mine again, no one else will have the opportunity to get close enough to even try
What am I supposed to do with this heart of mine?
It belongs to you...it always has, it always will
This power you have over me...I call it love
I loved you then, I love you now and I will love you forever
One of these days, I'll blink and you'll be back
I'll be awaiting that day just as the moon waits for nightfall
Is that foolish? I don't care
In love and war, everything isn't fair
We have to grow alone in order to grow together
Nothing but sunlight can follow this stormy weather
So until next time my dear lover,
I will never love another...
Ex's & O's
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Jul 7, 2014
Jul 7, 2014 at 10:55 PM UTC
Spring is coming. Time is going.
New beginnings, old habits.
New opportunities, old temptations.
The time is now to take control of your life.
Know your worth.
Remember who you are.
Keep your eye on the prize.
When it seems like you've been broken, push through.
You've got this.
Don't Be April's Fool..
Apr 1, 2014
Apr 1, 2014 at 1:51 PM UTC
The joy in her voice,
She is happy.
The pep in her step,
She is free.
The glow of her skin,
She is beautiful.
The life in her eyes,
She is living.
The rhythm of her heart,
She is alive.
That feeling in her soul,
She is blessed.
Mar 12, 2014
Mar 12, 2014 at 9:02 PM UTC
Judge never.
Forgive always.
Give quickly.
Take slowly.
Laugh daily.
Love ferociously.
Live freely.
Mar 7, 2014
Mar 7, 2014 at 8:30 AM UTC
Old Milwaukee raised me.
Groomed me, shaped me.
Prepped me, made me.
I must have been born for the wild..
Bright lights, long nights.
Skyscrapers, paper chasers.
Yellow cabs, livin' fast.
Dream chasin', heart racin'.
Crowded trains, heat and rain.
Livin' right, rockstar life.
Heart breakers, money makers.
I was definitely born for the wild.
Baited me, hooked me.
Caught me, took me.
New York City has my heart.
Sep 2, 2013
Sep 2, 2013 at 3:26 PM UTC
I do not love very easily
But I do love very hard
So if you're the one I choose
Then you'll be getting my whole heart
As I prepare to fall this long way down
Not sure of where I'll land
I pray you're there to catch me
There to make my scared heart dance
But if you're not sure that you're ready
And if you feel you may back out
Then I only ask one thing of you
And that's don't let me hit the ground
Break my fall, and let me go
I can stand again on my own
A gentle kiss upon your cheek
And then it's back to being alone
It's so hard to find someone
Willing to give their entire heart
Which is why I refuse to love easily
But will always love so hard
Aug 1, 2013
Aug 1, 2013 at 4:20 PM UTC
"What's done in the dark will come to the light"
Those were your last words to me
Well I had a flashlight, the moon and the sun
But you never really wanted to see
Did you?
You are gone
Gone without a care for me
Gone without a thought of me
Gone without a trace of me
You are gone
And I've finally accepted that you will never return
You will never care
You will never lose sleep over thoughts of me, of us
You are gone
And your absence is now okay with me
Goodbye
Jul 29, 2013
Jul 29, 2013 at 10:38 AM UTC
You sure have a way with moisture.
Your ability to make me cry
From my eyes, from my lips
From my heart, from my hips
Never ceases to amaze me.
As the rain commences outside of my window,
You create a storm inside my bed.
And as you hold me tightly afterward,
You create a storm in my head.
Where the thunder triggers passion,
And the lightning strikes down doubt,
Where the hail inflicts pain,
And where no umbrella can help.
In a puddle somewhere near,
There’s a reflection of us two.
And with every sweet rain drop,
I lose a piece of you.
Jul 23, 2013
Jul 23, 2013 at 10:08 PM UTC
Caramel apple, lemon lime
As sweet as it was, we committed a crime
We were as one, but only in my mind
Beautiful sinner, with a love so divine
Vivid memories of our better times
Roam my every thought. By love I was blind
Guilt mixed with distance created the signs
Of our inevitable and painfully heartbreaking decline
You were the right person, just at the wrong time
Presented with a plank, we walked that straight line
We sank together slowly, your hand in mine
Yet as I drowned in sorrow, you made it out just fine
Jul 22, 2013
Jul 22, 2013 at 9:36 PM UTC
I see the brightness of your smile on my darkest day.
I smell the sweet scent of your memories from miles away.
And on my luckiest days, I can taste the air you breathe.
Not a day goes by where you fail to dominate my thoughts..
I rub your smooth skin in my sleep.
I kiss your soft lips in my dreams.
I indulge myself in you...all of you, in what seems to be my happy ending.
Not a night goes by where you fail to command my mind...
Every step I take and every move I make revolves around you.
Every moment that goes by, I'm reminded of your warm embrace.
Your delicate touch and your gentle kisses are missed more and more each day,
And with each sunrise and sunset, they become that much harder to wash away...
To you what we had seems to be faded, meaningless and rotten.
But the imprint you've left on my soul will never be forgotten..
Jul 17, 2013
Jul 17, 2013 at 1:22 PM UTC