The coffee gurgles
The oven fan hums
It's 2:12
In the afternoon
and we're getting ready to eat breakfast
You're sitting
right
next
to
me
PERFECTLY FINE
You're keeping it together?
You are keeping it together.
And I'm falling apart at the seams.
Keep laughing
Keep that smile on your face
iknowthatshowyoudeal
But it pains me
to see you this way
I don't want to be hurting alone...
...it makes this all so much worse
.
.
.
.
.
.... I did this........ to ................ both
....of us.
I KNOW
iguessimlivingwiththeconsequencesnow
I'm STRONG
I don't need you.......
......but i do
I'm not sure you'll ever see how much.
i miss you
and
you're right next to me
Mar 21, 2015
Mar 21, 2015 at 4:20 PM UTC
You
are
here, while
I
am here
my head is s c a t t e r e d
and s p i n i n g
I. Don't. Know.
What to expect.....
Tell me.
P.L.E.A.S.E.
it's driving me crazy
i
didn't want to
ruin whatever
it is
we had
I'll be here
waiting
when you're ready
Mar 17, 2015
Mar 17, 2015 at 2:02 AM UTC
Comfort
An embrace
A kiss
A touch of the hand
Comfort
Can be given yet unwanted
Can be wanted yet unfulfilled
Can be received yet misconstrued
Can be the foundation of a lasting bond
Comfort
That's what I am to you
Comfort
I am relief
I am soft
I am strong
I am warm
Comfort Woman
Is this all I am to you?
Comfort
I am here when you need
Arms to hold you
Lips to graze over your skin
Fingers to explore your anatomy
You enthrall me
You amaze me
You touch my soul and tear it apart
Comfort
What happens when you don't need it anymore?
Do you disappear?
Or do I?
While I'm lying here comforting you
you don't realize that
at the same time
you're a comfort to me
but there's an ache in my chest
that knows I'm not the only one
I can be replaced for you
You can find comfort in many
That's great
That's fantastic
That's healthy
I. Can't. Do. The. Same.
I don't find comfort in many
but I find it in you
In ten years, I'll remember you
and how it feels to
lay on your chest
have your breath on my neck
your head on my shoulder
All I can do is hope
that you'll remember
just a piece of me:
that I was your best kept comfort
Mar 13, 2015
Mar 13, 2015 at 4:00 PM UTC
The nerves.
Oh my, the nerves.
On call every fraction of a second.
Being fiercely independent and overthinking
combine in a toxic way during a transition.
You are the best and worst person for yourself.
They trade places in an instant.
What is a total release one moment
becomes the largest source of stress without warning.
You constantly have to remind yourself that this IS what you wanted.
This is what I wanted.
This is what I needed.
You can plan the hell out of them
but never will they go as you imagined.
But that's life, yes?
Something will always happen
whether or not you foresaw it.
Feb 28, 2015
Feb 28, 2015 at 10:57 PM UTC
When you lose some one to death
That's one thing.
When something is taken away from you and is gone forever it's easier.
When something dies but it's still alive,
When you **** something but its heart is still beating.
That is a far worse pain to endure.
It was for the right reasons,
those I have yet to explain.
I hope you'll give me the chance
to do at least that.
Until we meet again.
Feb 25, 2015
Feb 25, 2015 at 3:10 PM UTC
when your laughs turn into sobs
they go back and forth really
you can see the line
are you overjoyed or hysterical?
it's a vicious cycle
to realize your emotions.
as I laugh into sadness i remember all I've done
I let you down
when all you did was raise me up
I promised you things that I have had to go back on
Your trust in me may never be the same
but believe me when I say that you will always be in my fame
hold yourself dear
as i do now
it may not seem like it
but please don't fight it.
We will each move on
cause that's how how things work
but you will always remain
my closest domain.
I consider that I may have just ruined
the best thing to have entered my life
But when the time isn't right
it really ***** things up.
And I wish so much that I had met you twenty years from now
because my heart would want the the things you do.
But right now
it's not the same
it'll work itself out
the way it's supposed to
you'll find yourself a girl who deserves and appreciates every second of you.
I'm sorry that I couldn't do that.
You have no idea how much I wish I could
You mean so much to me.
I love you.
It's that simple and that complicated.
Be happy
Forgive
Don't forget
We had amazing moments together.
Please never forget me.
Because I will never forget you.
I will cherish those moments forever.
I know that you will need to grieve
But
Please don't think badly of me
I needed to do this
and I hope that one day I'll be be able to explain
I hope that one day we can be as close as we used to
I will will always regret not telling you how important you are to me
You are millions of times more amazing than you think you are
You'll find her
I truly believe that
your one girl who can give you everything that you desire.
I'm sorry I couldn't be her for you
but I promise to be supportive of you always
in anything
no matter what
we'll probably always agree to disagree
but that's what makes us you and me
I promise that when I reach the point
If I ever meet Miss Kesha Rose
I will make sure
you have your tea, just tea, with her.
Feb 25, 2015
Feb 25, 2015 at 3:54 AM UTC