watching you pack your things and move
all i can do is watch anymore
not see, not feel, not even just be
you hold me and sit
while i cry on the bathroom floor
but i am not there
Aug 17, 2013
Aug 17, 2013 at 3:54 AM UTC
Drinking a stale beer
that I snuck out of the fridge
I feel so grown up
I am here alone
struggling to open this
was a bad idea.
Jul 4, 2013
Jul 4, 2013 at 10:41 PM UTC
Love takes form in many ways;
more than just watching a sunset.
It can appear as a stray cat
clawing at your doorstep,
or listening to the heartbeat
of someone close to you.
Even in the undying wind,
there is love.
You need only to look
and you will see it.
Jun 30, 2013
Jun 30, 2013 at 2:20 AM UTC
today i
asked myself
what am i still
living for?
is there even anything
i would die for?
and this upset me more than it should,
for i had no answer to either question
Jun 17, 2013
Jun 17, 2013 at 12:26 AM UTC
Suicide notes are things I often write
as an apology I will never send
to make me feel like I made it right
I will never truly end my life
nor will you ever see these essays
of my distraught despair and strife
Jun 15, 2013
Jun 15, 2013 at 12:38 AM UTC
I am sad
I am hollow
I am always around
I cannot sleep
I am silent
I am the moon
Jun 11, 2013
Jun 11, 2013 at 1:40 PM UTC
I haven't eaten anything all day
except half an apple
and my ego.
And I am so very apathetic
to my growing problems-
escalating.
I am scared that this is all just a lie
you will wake up and feel
shame and regret.
I am so drugged, so very very drugged
and forever lonely
no matter what.
Jun 11, 2013
Jun 11, 2013 at 12:49 AM UTC
there's a party going upstairs
and thus i locked myself
in the cool base
ment to
cry about
how much i miss
you and how much you
help me feel like a child again
Jun 9, 2013
Jun 9, 2013 at 5:52 PM UTC
i want to go to the hospital
i miss the pale sterility;
human care on command
i want to stop being illogical
i miss childlike passivity;
you just don't understand
my existence is infinitesmal
i'm a waste of human life
but i want you to stay with me
oh, please, at least for the night
help me forget about this would-be
i refuse to meet him in montauk
or anywhere, for that matter
the memory of him hurts me
nothing he said, did, or could ****
made me feel like i was better
my existence is infinitesmal
i'm a waste of human life
but i want you to stay with me
oh, please, at least for the night
forget about the women
that i say that i am really into
i could change my sexuality
you don't even have to listen
to me, that's too much to put you through
i lack the correct mentality
my existence is infinitesmal
i'm a waste of human life
but i want you to stay with me
oh, please, at least for the night
Jun 5, 2013
Jun 5, 2013 at 9:45 AM UTC
punch me in the face/ tell me i’m pretty
shoot both my legs/ please just cuddle with me
slice off my hands/ would you hold both?
go burn my ears/ sing me to sleep
figurative cryspeak/ what words do you know?
are they the right ones/ or are they too weak?
stab me in the throat/ ask me how i feel
scratch my two arms/ it’s cool, that’ll probably heal
gouge my eyes out/ i will never see
lock the door shut/ what’s out there for me?
figurative cryspeak/ what words do you know?
they can be scary/ but they will save you
Jun 4, 2013
Jun 4, 2013 at 3:51 PM UTC