"It's now that I've found something astonishing,
That I'll have to tarnish it,
Eradicate, obliterate, and terminate it.
But, only after we've defiled their hearts,
And slandered their souls,
And destroyed their every waking moment of hope.
Because this is what we crave for, what our human design lust, and, aches for."
This is what he told me,
As he mauled out my own,
And I cried out in torment,
In the rummage of my broken hopes.
Mar 23, 2014
Mar 23, 2014 at 11:33 AM UTC
You have me twisted in your mirage of happy endings and love struck thoughts,
In this desert of woes and ruts.
The dust cradles my lips and the sun burns my eyes,
And the dunes devour the lies I tell myself at night when I cry.
I say I'm happy through my teeth,
Because even I don't believe me.
At night the stars are scattered like my brain patterns when I try to put us together.
Maybe it was too soon.
And maybe we moved too fast.
Maybe we hadn't forgotten our pasts,
and we tried to make ourselves forget our lasts.
Or maybe it's the distance ******* with my head, because my lips feel dead,
And my blood was red before it hit the surface,
When I used the blade to try and forget my pain.
Sep 3, 2013
Sep 3, 2013 at 11:42 PM UTC
In a world of lavish dialect
Filled with idiosyncrasy and conspiracy
Delicately I make my own beat
My eyes blue and amite
Laughing with my medal of valor
Painting what your eyes can't see
And writing words your mind will never read
My artful life.
Jul 16, 2013
Jul 16, 2013 at 8:57 PM UTC
Keep your hands behind your back
And keep your lies bound tight..
Before you release me...into them
Releasing me into twisted arms and crooked intentions
Of my souls redemption
Your snide words pour slowly out of your yet divine eyes
You're merciless and ruthless
Ferocious, and devious
Cut me in half; and paint me black
To match your heart and your soul
Dead and lifeless
Perished and Cold
Jul 14, 2013
Jul 14, 2013 at 8:48 PM UTC
Ana is my friend,
when she whisper I'm thin.
She clings onto me, she's everywhere I go
I've tried to escape, but she won't let me go.
I smile when I see my bones.
And I cry when I see my soul
And my spine hits the back of my chair when I sit
And I feel accomplished, at my stomachs empty pit
Ana says she cares
She says she'll help me, she says she help me see
Help me see that I don't need food
So I can be content with myself ****
But when I don't listen to her she gets mad
She tells me I'm fat and sends chills of hatred down my back
She's my demon, and she wont stop possessing me, until I die, nothing left but skin and bones.
Jul 1, 2013
Jul 1, 2013 at 9:08 PM UTC
Why I don't eat.
Mostly because of you.
Also because I want to be thin.
Only because you ruined my once well image.
My own disgust weighs me down.
It's fat and hatred stuck to my bones.
So watch me take my diet pills.
And watch me get high off of my own sins.
And when my face hits that "porcelain throne"
I regurgitate my memories of you.
Jul 1, 2013
Jul 1, 2013 at 8:38 PM UTC
I wash my hands till your smell no longer clings to me
And I keep my head held high to redeem everything you took from me
And I hum MY anthem
Of sweet revenge
To avenge what I couldn't see
My thumbs twiddle and body fidgets
As a glare at my newly twisted image
My bones stick out, and my mouth remembers no taste
You did this to me, you made me this way
It's not that my heart has died, it's just learned not to cry
And it's not that I don't miss you
It's that you never cared, and you'd never dare to
Jul 1, 2013
Jul 1, 2013 at 8:25 PM UTC
I was rowing a two person boat
I struggled in pain as your eyes would gloat
The water felt cold and black as it inched up my body
Where your fingers used to trace
The pace of my heart is fast as I would drown in my own sorrow
I told myself to just think of tomorrow, and try to keep my chin above water
I find myself content
Feeling the cool waves crash against my sides
The waves are like a ride that carries me soundlessly on my back
And as I drift, my mind throws fits of thoughts
They weigh me down into the black water
Slowly pulling me under
To the beat of thunder
I wake up on the ocean floor
Sand between my toes, stinging my cuts filled with woe
My air is gone, my breaths have stopped
I sink in the sand of forgotten thoughts.
Where my corpse will rot
Jul 1, 2013
Jul 1, 2013 at 8:00 PM UTC
It's in the dark, where our secrets lay
Where we hide betrayal, and dismay
The corners of my mouth twists to form a smile
To us poor misunderstood creatures, living in denial
We live off of others misfortune
We devour their happiness until it has nurtured us
We sip their tears, and consume their light
Slowly killing in the night
Their sadness, their chaos, it thrills us
To us poor misunderstood creatures
To the leeches who won't leave us
And the dreams that haunt us
You've now become apart of us
Mar 16, 2013
Mar 16, 2013 at 1:38 PM UTC
My skeletons hang on rusted hangers
Their deteriorated bones rattle my walls
They whisper the secrets of my pervious dangers
As they snicker and snare and gnaw on my soul
The smell of abandonment seeps between their bones
Betrayal reeks in their marrow that is now turned to petrified stone
They thrive off making new friends,
adding to my collection of my former afflictions of misfortune
Mar 16, 2013
Mar 16, 2013 at 1:02 PM UTC