i can't remember anymore,
my mind doesn't want to bother.
it's all a waste of time,
waste of space
waste of air.
my mind is trying to run off.
help my eyes close,
seal them shut.
my vice has got me by the throat,
there's so many i've lost count.
hidden agendas between my selves.
the ones that i would never tell.
there's no need for help,
it was never meant to end well.
Sep 4, 2014
Sep 4, 2014 at 11:16 PM UTC
dreams with unavoidable deaths
when all i can do is wait for the moment i wake up,
hoping i don’t feel the feeling of being mutilated to bits.
children eating the rotting corpses of good for nothing adults,
good for nothing in this post apocalyptic world.
climbing the highest towers,
searching for signs, maybe we’ll be the lucky ones left alive.
but no sorrow, we can’t unsee the unavoidable fate.
viruses, man made ruins, things we alter within ourselves.
humanity has died off.
nothing left.
no time left to spend.
unless you’re crouching, hiding for dear life.
but what’s life when you know it’s all gone?
nothing left to hold on to.
no one left to talk to.
just waiting for the moment you get noticed,
dragged, soon to be corpse.
telling myself, it will only be a second more.
reminded, ‘somewhere else i am already gone.
this is just another dream i will soon wake up from.’
continuing into another dimension.
this breath is just another temporary momentum.
Sep 4, 2014
Sep 4, 2014 at 9:59 PM UTC
half dead, half alive. i don’t even know what’s left inside anymore..
sick of being told i look nice, everything comes with a price.
no trust, no one wants to get to know you deep inside.
temporary strangers and flakes that i will never look at.
no one wants to find the real me, only the smile that hides the hatred inside.
no love for those who run away, no love for people like me who hide.
happier alone, i don’t need this from anyone.
too many strangers makes me want to cut, makes me want to slit them up
and eventually i’ll end up in court.
no means no is apparently not an answer a girl with a pretty face can give.
but no is the ************* answer you’re going to learn to take.
smash your **** up and stuff it down your throat.
you’re going to learn what it means when a ***** says NO!!!
Sep 4, 2014
Sep 4, 2014 at 9:58 PM UTC
4 months to get over it.
but today the strings are gone.
we can never talk or be friends.
act like nothing was and nothing will be.
i will always care for you, you meant so much.
but it finally died off.
so just let it rot off.
let it stay shut and don’t open pandora’s box again.
i have returned.
hopeless romantic in love with no one but the universe, death, and herself.
back to me without you.
back to what always was in front of my eyes.
back to where i love to hide on my own.
just another story to tell, another soul i have stolen and left.
another stranger in the sea. another one that was never meant for me.
Sep 4, 2014
Sep 4, 2014 at 9:57 PM UTC
my brainnnnnnnnnnnnnn.
i want to smush you
i want a whole carton of cigarettes to myself.
i want an 1/8th to get incredibly high,
i want a bottle of whiskey with a side of sleeping pills.
i just want to know i have it.
i want to know i can die forgetting what i can’t forget.
i want to go away.
i want to fade away.
away away away..
alone alone alone.
nothing nothing nothing
is going to change….
Sep 4, 2014
Sep 4, 2014 at 9:51 PM UTC
not digging this nausea. let’s just get to the high part.
loose my body. it does not even exist.
all in my mind, it’s only a matter of time.
til these moments come to pass.
left my mind drift away, let it float on to space.
continuum into another dimension, another one where i am nothing at all.
voidless disaster, turning light into darkness.
continuing the circle, letting you find your clues.
it all ties together.
i am here and nowhere.
here and nothing.
everything and madness.
***** pure stench of melted memories that aren’t real anymore.
Sep 1, 2014
Sep 1, 2014 at 6:14 PM UTC
centuries have waited for you,
centuries to tell you one thing.
times i've have the chance to say I love you
and to tell you how much you mean to me.
a beautiful addition to the world is what you are,
a beautiful puzzle piece within the universe to find.
Apr 8, 2014
Apr 8, 2014 at 1:34 PM UTC
I can send you a signal,
help you knock down the walls one step at a time.
A single place to rest your head,
many ways to soothe the aches away.
Star-crossed lovers always find a way to meet again.
Hidden pasts we can't remember,
Hidden treasures we find within ourselves.
I can't remember the last time I told you I loved you,
But soon enough you will know very well.
Mar 4, 2014
Mar 4, 2014 at 2:09 AM UTC
"No one is worthy of my love"
These random "out of nowhere" statements, that make me fall apart.
You speak to me and my eyes can't drift away,
The long gaze that calls for an embrace.
Soul wanderer, do you want me?
Soul wanderer, why can this never be?
Watch my eyes drown away,
Follow them until there is nothing left.
My heart rate gets slower,
My tone dulls out.
Hear me sigh as I look at you while I crawl,
and you don't hesitate to remind me of our wall.
I don't know what to do about it now,
& I don't know why this grows..
All that is left now,
is to watch it overflow.
Mar 3, 2014
Mar 3, 2014 at 5:38 PM UTC
how the lady fell in love with the ***** i don't know
how she got over him, i don't know
how she started getting depressed and suicidal again, i don't know
how she ran into him after he tried to **** himself, i don't know
how she got stuck in a warp for him, i don't know
how he can keep on talking to her about his love for someone else, i don't know
how he can remind her they are nothing more and will never be, i don't know
how he can bring his romance for someone else, into her dreams, her only escape from this place, i don't know
how he doesn't understand he is this lady's ghost, i don't know
how he can ask her if she knows how it feels to be used and she thinks of the guy right next to her while he thinks about someone further away, i don't know
how he can use this lady again, i don't know
how this lady lets herself get used i don't know
how she hasn't killed him yet i don't know
it's been about four days, and we haven't been apart,
talking and talking, about how all things come apart.
i'm going to hurt you, if it's the last thing i do,
it's going to **** me, the way you killed you.
Mar 3, 2014
Mar 3, 2014 at 12:38 PM UTC