i guess i'll just drown in the sea,
feeling the salty water seep into me,
taking my last breath,
my lungs full for the first and last time,
i close my eyes, and..
i let myself go.
because when there is nothing to hold onto,
then I can't hold on, that i know.
i know how to drown,
because I used to suffocate,
but now I don't even need to breathe.
what a releif, I feel so free,
all that is left of me are air bubbles
that will float and die too.
i can't wait, so i just go.
sinking down.
my body sinks,
i'm watching it do so,
from somewhere on the other side,
what did I do?
oh no.
and now the fish will eat my skin,
and eat my flesh,
and slowly they'll get to my heart,
and all they will taste is the sentence;
"i love living again"
Mar 13
Mar 13, 2026 at 6:09 AM UTC
and here you are, praying
to a god that never learned mercy.
whispering hymns,
to the hollowness in your ribs
like the emptiness is holy.
here you are, kneeling
at the altar of a god that doesn't exist,
or maybe it does,
but it has a death wish.
of you, or of anyone who it kissed.
here you are, thinking
that the god that wants you dead,
will get out of your head
if you follow the rules
that will slowly bind you to a hospital bed.
and here you are, wishing that it will,
cause maybe then it'll leave.
but it won't, not unless you bleed,
and the cuts will spread like a ****
and suddenly.. suddenly you're kneeling again.
here you are again.
same altar, same candles.
i'm watching you light them one by one
hoping that your god will be gone,
but it's not.. it never is.
so here you are again,
the same place i used to be,
and i'm still standing in the doorway,
hoping you'll join me today,
but your god calls so you leave once again.
and here am I again, begging you,
like I used to beg the same god
you kneel before now.
please just come with me,
i know the way out now.
Mar 13
Mar 13, 2026 at 6:04 AM UTC