It arrives,
Unnoticed, unannounced.
Quiet,
At first.
Slow,
Seeping, dripping.
I put it down to a few stressful weeks.
I carry on.
It unpacks,
Worries, anxieties.
Gently,
For now,
Tiptoes,
Whispers, creaks.
‘It will leave soon’ I think ‘It always does.’
I keep going.
It settles in,
Getting comfortable.
Getting louder,
And louder.
Banging thoughts,
Insomnia.
‘Please don’t be happening again’.
I shuffle along my daily routine.
Claws in,
Insidious.
Screaming,
24/7.
Shame, worthlessness,
Hurt.
‘Please go away’.
I’m barely coping.
Growing roots,
Into my brain and heart.
Blossoming pain,
With every beat.
Emptiness, loneliness,
Abandonment.
Silence, Stillness,
‘I can’t move, I can’t cope.’
Nov 6, 2018
Nov 6, 2018 at 10:33 AM UTC
*she wants float off
into the blue sky
and leave behind
all the familiar faces
she wants to disappear
into thin air
and avoid
all the complications
she wants to walk away
into the darkness
and shut out
the world*
Oct 23, 2017
Oct 23, 2017 at 1:41 PM UTC
thank you
for the air we breathe, water to drink
for the strength to go against the current
and get lost in a sea of fish
for parents who love selflessly
for friends who became family
for someone who filled the gap
of a heart missing a piece
for mistakes that make us grow
for lessons that we now know
for all the questions and tears
in the meaning of things
for doubts and failures
for still moving forward
for laughter
a good enough reason to live
thank you
for it may not be the best year
but it still paves way for another year
Dec 31, 2016
Dec 31, 2016 at 1:38 PM UTC
*is Prince Charming really out there
or am I waiting for no one
am I a damsel in distress
or just looking for reasons
not to save myself*
Nov 4, 2016
Nov 4, 2016 at 3:15 PM UTC
it seems so nice
how very few people
just get you
the way you talk
the way you think
the way you feel
no filters
no walls up
they just get you
Oct 22, 2016
Oct 22, 2016 at 2:19 PM UTC
*the hardest
part of
letting someone
you love
go is
making yourself
stay away*
Oct 10, 2016
Oct 10, 2016 at 10:28 AM UTC
Please
I just badly
need to know
Was it enough?
Oct 10, 2016
Oct 10, 2016 at 6:59 AM UTC
*amazing how a
fifteen minute phone call
can change your mood
from rock bottom
to over the moon*
Oct 10, 2016
Oct 10, 2016 at 6:51 AM UTC
Always find a way to make yourself better
Believe that you can do it
Take on a new challenge
Build up your inner spirit
Be that light that shines
When the scenery is dark
Uplift yourself greatly
And provide that spark
Sep 30, 2016
Sep 30, 2016 at 9:00 PM UTC