madge-garcia - Hello Poetry

When I close my eyes I only see you I can still hear your voice Say "I love you too" In the midst of the night I reach to the side Hoping you'll be there For me to confide But you're not there You're too far away Why are you gone? You promised you'd stay It was my fault I should have been stronger I should have been there I should have stayed longer Cause now I miss you And I'm alone, crying I just want to kiss you Please, my love, I'm dying A razor to my skin Will always help the pain It makes me feel better The blood is like rain Down a couple pills And put on a smile All for the people Who won't stay awhile They'll all just leave Just like you Then I'll be here again Missing them too So what's the point of living If I'm living in regret? Can my life be done? Can I die yet? I fill up with sadness And cry before I sleep All for a guy Who I couldn't even keep I fill the empty void With people and drugs But by the end of the day I'm missing YOUR hugs So if you come back I'll be here with you Just please say you love me And I'll say "you too"

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Jan 24, 2015

Jan 24, 2015 at 5:53 PM UTC

madge-garcia

You..

When I close my eyes I only see you I can still hear your voice Say "I love you too" In the midst of the night I reach to the side Hoping you'll be there For me to confide But you're not there You're too far away Why are you gone? You promised you'd stay It was my fault I should have been stronger I should have been there I should have stayed longer Cause now I miss you And I'm alone, crying I just want to kiss you Please, my love, I'm dying A razor to my skin Will always help the pain It makes me feel better The blood is like rain Down a couple pills And put on a smile All for the people Who won't stay awhile They'll all just leave Just like you Then I'll be here again Missing them too So what's the point of living If I'm living in regret? Can my life be done? Can I die yet? I fill up with sadness And cry before I sleep All for a guy Who I couldn't even keep I fill the empty void With people and drugs But by the end of the day I'm missing YOUR hugs So if you come back I'll be here with you Just please say you love me And I'll say "you too"

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It was rather beautiful; the way he put her insecurities to sleep. The way he dove into her eyes and starved all the fears and tasted all the dreams she kept coiled beneath her bones. And in the end, we were all just humans, drunk on the idea that love, only love, could heal our brokenness.

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Feb 2, 2014

Feb 2, 2014 at 12:57 AM UTC

madge-garcia

Beautiful lies

It was rather beautiful; the way he put her insecurities to sleep. The way he dove into her eyes and starved all the fears and tasted all the dreams she kept coiled beneath her bones. And in the end, we were all just humans, drunk on the idea that love, only love, could heal our brokenness.

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Depression isn't a feeling and it isn't sadness. You don't just "feel depressed" and you can't make it go away. Being depressed is a numb feeling that never goes away. Some people deal with it by self-harming. Some people deal with it by committing suicide. And others don't deal with it at all.. Crazy, huh? Getting up, just wanting to go back to sleep.. Smiling and laughing, pretending you're great when you KNOW deep down inside you, you want to die. Depression is like drowning, but no one tries to save you. You see all of these people swimming and having a great time, while you're slowly running out of breath, trying to swim up, but you can't. You just.. Can't. The funny thing is.. People use it to get attention.. What's so great about depression? It's so great that you have to PRETEND. Why can't you just talk to people instead of using a REAL sickness to get attention? Depression isn't a feeling or an emotion. It's a mental illness.. I HATE it, but yet.. I wouldn't make it go away. You're probably wondering why.. Why wouldn't I want to be always happy? Why wouldn't I want to be alive instead of just existing? Because it's a part of me. Without it, who would I be? Think about it..

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Jan 27, 2014

Jan 27, 2014 at 12:59 AM UTC

madge-garcia

Think about it

Depression isn't a feeling and it isn't sadness. You don't just "feel depressed" and you can't make it go away. Being depressed is a numb feeling that never goes away. Some people deal with it by self-harming. Some people deal with it by committing suicide. And others don't deal with it at all.. Crazy, huh? Getting up, just wanting to go back to sleep.. Smiling and laughing, pretending you're great when you KNOW deep down inside you, you want to die. Depression is like drowning, but no one tries to save you. You see all of these people swimming and having a great time, while you're slowly running out of breath, trying to swim up, but you can't. You just.. Can't. The funny thing is.. People use it to get attention.. What's so great about depression? It's so great that you have to PRETEND. Why can't you just talk to people instead of using a REAL sickness to get attention? Depression isn't a feeling or an emotion. It's a mental illness.. I HATE it, but yet.. I wouldn't make it go away. You're probably wondering why.. Why wouldn't I want to be always happy? Why wouldn't I want to be alive instead of just existing? Because it's a part of me. Without it, who would I be? Think about it..

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When I'm talking No one's hearing When I'm silent They're all fearing I'm screaming and aching Can't you hear? I'm crying and breaking Don't you care? Why, of course you don't You never do You never cared Of me, only you Cause now I'm standing In what feels like rain The blood is spilling I only feel pain I'm crying and breaking Don't you care? I'm screaming and aching Can't you hear..?

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Jan 27, 2014

Jan 27, 2014 at 12:42 AM UTC

madge-garcia

Can't you hear?

When I'm talking No one's hearing When I'm silent They're all fearing I'm screaming and aching Can't you hear? I'm crying and breaking Don't you care? Why, of course you don't You never do You never cared Of me, only you Cause now I'm standing In what feels like rain The blood is spilling I only feel pain I'm crying and breaking Don't you care? I'm screaming and aching Can't you hear..?

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I am filled with things and I battle feelings I never wanted to exist inside me. I lack too much confidence and I carry too much sadness and my body is full of stars that never learned their name. I wear my insecurities like pockets and I fill them with my fears and my hands are growing tired from reaching down into them to hold the feeling of being afraid. I am afraid. Always afraid. Afraid like chimes when the wind lips are sealed afraid like your eyes when the stars fall asleep in the black. Afraid like dreams when they realize they are just dreams and that reality is that one scar that will never fade away. I am terrified. Terrified that things inside me are the things that will keep me from ever finding a home inside someone else.

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Jan 27, 2014

Jan 27, 2014 at 12:35 AM UTC

madge-garcia

Feelings inside

I am filled with things and I battle feelings I never wanted to exist inside me. I lack too much confidence and I carry too much sadness and my body is full of stars that never learned their name. I wear my insecurities like pockets and I fill them with my fears and my hands are growing tired from reaching down into them to hold the feeling of being afraid. I am afraid. Always afraid. Afraid like chimes when the wind lips are sealed afraid like your eyes when the stars fall asleep in the black. Afraid like dreams when they realize they are just dreams and that reality is that one scar that will never fade away. I am terrified. Terrified that things inside me are the things that will keep me from ever finding a home inside someone else.

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As I lay Up in this bed Thoughts of us Run through my head I wish my dreams Would only come true Reality ***** And so do you I thought I'd be happy If you were mine I thought I'd be glad And I'd be fine But you broke my heart And left me crying So I just layed there And stopped trying Several months past And I was glad Cause I moved on Then you got mad You figured out That I was done So you came back And said I was the one So my feelings grew again And depression came back All because You were like crack You were my addiction Something I couldn't get over You were my luck Like a four leaf clover But then you did the same And left me in the dark Thought it was different? And that there was a spark? So I cried again And stopped trying But now I am done No more crying If you come back I will not buy it Because I know That you are just lyin You do not love me You do not care I will not fall again Because that is not fair So if you come back And say I love you I will only say **** you, too.

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Jan 23, 2014

Jan 23, 2014 at 11:40 PM UTC

madge-garcia

**** you too.

As I lay Up in this bed Thoughts of us Run through my head I wish my dreams Would only come true Reality ***** And so do you I thought I'd be happy If you were mine I thought I'd be glad And I'd be fine But you broke my heart And left me crying So I just layed there And stopped trying Several months past And I was glad Cause I moved on Then you got mad You figured out That I was done So you came back And said I was the one So my feelings grew again And depression came back All because You were like crack You were my addiction Something I couldn't get over You were my luck Like a four leaf clover But then you did the same And left me in the dark Thought it was different? And that there was a spark? So I cried again And stopped trying But now I am done No more crying If you come back I will not buy it Because I know That you are just lyin You do not love me You do not care I will not fall again Because that is not fair So if you come back And say I love you I will only say **** you, too.

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My razor is sharp My heart is beating I slit my wrist It won't stop bleeding The blood is spilling Drip, drop, splash Side to side Slash, slash, slash I can't stop now I've cut too deep Now I am dizzy And falling asleep Down some pills And fall to the ground All because I can't loose a pound You said I was big You said I was fat Are you laughing now? You stupid ******* brat I am dying Because of your jokes Oh, you're so cool. I hope you choke. I am now leaving. So long, fair well. I hope you **** yourself. See you in hell.

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Jan 23, 2014

Jan 23, 2014 at 11:38 PM UTC

madge-garcia

This is the end

My razor is sharp My heart is beating I slit my wrist It won't stop bleeding The blood is spilling Drip, drop, splash Side to side Slash, slash, slash I can't stop now I've cut too deep Now I am dizzy And falling asleep Down some pills And fall to the ground All because I can't loose a pound You said I was big You said I was fat Are you laughing now? You stupid ******* brat I am dying Because of your jokes Oh, you're so cool. I hope you choke. I am now leaving. So long, fair well. I hope you **** yourself. See you in hell.

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I'm screaming loudly But you can't hear The silence around me Is what I fear I can't help but cry Alone in my room Time has passed I'll be gone by noon The room is spinning And I'm finally happy I feel like I'm winning Is that too sappy? I am done with life And feeling this way I can't get it right No matter what I say I feel ugly and stupid And worthless, too I'll never get Cupid Or an 'I love you' I'm tired of depression So I am done trying I'm out of this condition And alone, I am dying.

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Jan 23, 2014

Jan 23, 2014 at 11:34 PM UTC

madge-garcia

Depression Wins

I'm screaming loudly But you can't hear The silence around me Is what I fear I can't help but cry Alone in my room Time has passed I'll be gone by noon The room is spinning And I'm finally happy I feel like I'm winning Is that too sappy? I am done with life And feeling this way I can't get it right No matter what I say I feel ugly and stupid And worthless, too I'll never get Cupid Or an 'I love you' I'm tired of depression So I am done trying I'm out of this condition And alone, I am dying.

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