I never thought waiting can be this painful.
It's like looking to the abyss,
ready to welcome the unknown.
How long will I wait?
Can I endure standing for a decade?
Can I just sit here under the moonlight and meet the next sunrise?
Can I swim for awhile and explore the depths of my thoughts?
I always thought I have been patient enough,
but my anxiety tells me that I am not.
So to live again, I need to breathe and endure the length of waiting.
Nov 21, 2019
Nov 21, 2019 at 11:42 AM UTC
Sunset,
beautiful and warm,
like how it burns my eyes.
Mesmerized by the yellow-orange hues of his charms. ☀️
May 23, 2019
May 23, 2019 at 8:54 AM UTC
I want to be like a sunset.
Hopeful and calm,
Brave and prayerful,
beautiful and positive for the next sunrise. ☀️
May 23, 2019
May 23, 2019 at 8:53 AM UTC
I have been suffering from sunburns.
Sunburns that I call "missing you" syndrome.
I have been feeling the scorching heat of the Sun
and the burning sensation on my skin.
It's not the kind of warmth that I miss.
I could not reach the Sun.
He is far. He is vibrant, fiery and hot.
I could not gaze at him on his blazing peak.
I looked down in tears.
I miss him, I am trying to say it,
but all I can do is to swallow my words and get burned with my own longing.
Sunburn, sometimes it's on my skin.
Most of the time, it's the Sun that I am missing. ☀️
May 23, 2019
May 23, 2019 at 8:31 AM UTC
A stop that my heart know.
Where I said goodbye, I have to go.
A stop that my mind could remember.
Where he held me gently and kissed my temple.
I am not drunk, I was sober.
He poured too much butterflies in me that made me tremble.
May 23, 2019
May 23, 2019 at 8:30 AM UTC
You are the sun rising on the first day of spring,
where flowers bloomed in me.
May 23, 2019
May 23, 2019 at 8:29 AM UTC
I am not so into you, but there is something about you that I can’t resist neither say no.
I am uncertain but my heart says, I love you.
Once in a while you are good for me,
and for tonight you are all mine.
Just let me be, just this time.
I am not so into you, I think I am, maybe I am not but you are the kind that I can tolerate.
May 23, 2019
May 23, 2019 at 8:18 AM UTC
You sat for awhile on the horizon,
but then you vanish without saying a word.
Your light was gone, it was darkness on my sight and inside my world.
The moon came and touched my blind eyes.
Along with her stars, I opened my heart and realize.
You knocked on to my chained doors like a sunrise that destroyed the dawn.
Yet you walk away and vanish on the horizon like a sunset that dives unto oblivion.
You showed me everything when you held me with your light and warmed me up with your touch.
Now you left me in the darkness waiting in vain with your uncertain hush.
You are my love but I can’t just bear the blindness in me and dwell in the dark with your uncertainties.
You are my madness and can be my sadness, but I’ll be over you soon all for my sanity. ♥️
May 23, 2019
May 23, 2019 at 8:17 AM UTC
I couldn’t stop this madness about you,
but for the sake of my sanity I’ll take this as temporary.
You and your memories with me will stay beautiful in my thoughts and in my writing.
You are my muse and you are my love.
You will always be the greatest “Sun” to me.☀️
Until we meet again.
May 23, 2019
May 23, 2019 at 8:16 AM UTC
You are the Sun, my only beautiful sunrise.
Your light pierced through my clouded heart.
You never fail to keep it warm, fragile yet still beating.
Every beat speaks about you and I feel alive.
Always, you take my breath away. ☀️
May 23, 2019
May 23, 2019 at 8:15 AM UTC