Late afternoon, the darkness is about to steal the light
We are about to head back down the mountains of Mindoro
A fire and smokes all over the trees, a "Kaingin"
we encounter a family of three camouflaging the forest
Looks like "Mangangahoy" making charcoal for a living
A heart-crushing-afternoon scenario
There is a man, who looks like the father
An old woman seems to be the grandmother with a little kid,
small and as cute as a button
We barely see them as they're covered with dark smokes from woodfire
Our truck stopped, offering them a ride
The father loaded the sacks of wood
The little boy trying to lift it with his bare little hands
so small but he seems can carried heavy loads
It's almost dark
we sat at the back of the truck cargo bracing ourselves
praying not to fall on a bumpy mountain road
This little boy is beside me
Indifferent
I look at his adorable-plumpy-little face covered with dirt
Eyes glistening with innocence
A little jungle boy
An angel of the forest
he reminds me of Mowgli
This bambino inhaling wood smokes daily
working at a young age is a definition of a heartbreak
something made me tear up inside
it comes to a point where you don't know what to feel at the moment
Reality is hurtful
and the hardest part is handling your emotions
This kid deserves better
every kid in the world deserves better
Circa 2019
Jun 6, 2021
Jun 6, 2021 at 2:59 PM UTC
All night shivering
can't breath
no idea why
And it seems that these are the signs
so this is how it feels like
It's happening
I am too late
I am so selfish
Never got a chance to
make you feel loved
I focused on finding myself but
I ignored the fact that
you are looking for me too
Today, I hold you into my arms
My last chance
I breakdown
You told me not to let
anyone break my heart
but it turns out
you're the reason behind my first heartbreak
Hurts for real
I am holding onto this pain
because it's all I have left
I love you with all my heart
Forever and always 😢💔
March 16, 2017
Mar 15, 2020
Mar 15, 2020 at 1:05 PM UTC
Ice-cold Orange juice
with a teaspoon of
Brown sugar
sipped with my
Red-matte lips
under the
Yellowish-tuscan sun
Thinking of those
Little White lies
tossed with
a Grey stone
sunken deepdown
the Blue lagoon
lost in a
Blackhole
Purple thoughts
Pink-positive thinking
with a Green tea
on the side
Hoping for a slight chance
of Rainbow after
this storm
Feb 24, 2019
Feb 24, 2019 at 7:12 PM UTC
Wind blowing through tree branches
I was running way too fast
following the light from the horizon
I can hear the twigs cracking
on every step I made
Nearly dark, tree shadows covering the sun
Lots of bright mini holes
from leaves as I look up
My heart beats so fast
I can't breathe
My pace so fast
I can't stop
I was being chased
by a big dark shadow
trying to get me
Trying to get away
but it was following me
Suddenly I opened my eyes
but I can't move, I'm sweating
Teardrops on my eyes
I was scared
needed more oxygen
panicking
It was all a dream
a nightmare indeed
confusing
why?
Anxiety?
and the stress
that comes with it?
but
why?
xo, Lougene
Dec 19, 2018
Dec 19, 2018 at 10:12 PM UTC
I wish I could tell you
that it goes away
but it actually gonna get
bigger and bigger
Bigger than my unbruised ego
and you'll gonna start feeling
smaller and smaller
Smaller as a piece of junk
feeling nonsense
breaking heartbeats
and smiles
Smiles, a defense
used to disguise
covering faces
hiding these cries
Nov 3, 2018
Nov 3, 2018 at 11:50 PM UTC
I never really get tired
of long walks nor mountain hikes
But I needed to stop
every once in a while
to catch my breath
and eat pies
When I stop
it doesn't mean I'm done
this is when I get ready
to pack and run
stroll up by myself anywhere
looking for a mystery
wandering to find
a hidden gem
wondering if you'll follow me
Oct 28, 2018
Oct 28, 2018 at 4:34 PM UTC
I lost control,
mischief can't manage
Am I bleeding?
put on a bandage
and this dull ache
must be locked in a cage.
No worries,
your insurance
will cover the damage
Roll of your sleeves
and fry a sausage
Fix yourself,
get on the stage
Brows up,
wear some courage
Turn the next page
and try not to become savage
xo, L
Aug 25, 2018
Aug 25, 2018 at 11:09 PM UTC
As the thin wheels keep on rolling clockwise
there is a scratching noise that annoys me
"There's nothing wrong, it's not broken"
I told myself and choose to ignore
Placed my feet back on the pedal
I kept going
Sunny side up straight gawking at me
I looked back and stare
I must be seeing blind and lured into oblivion
It was an awesome sun-shiny day!
Suddenly, I stumble upon this momentum
while "Tickets to Ride by the Beatles" playing on the background
I hit the ground and rolled
Almost passed out, invisible bruises all over me
I feel pained
Pain all over me like I was going to be forgotten
lost in space, eaten by a black hole
then spit out by it
Everything in slow motion
like in a matrix action film
My consciousness is beginning to
regain little by little..
Little did I knew that little things can hurt you
Split-second imposing wonder turned into chaos
but it comes to my mind that
it's so awesome to be hurt in order for me to grow stronger
Yesss, positivity at its best
I get back up again
and chose to keep going
What a ride.
Aug 7, 2018
Aug 7, 2018 at 5:04 AM UTC