My sister says I like to dwell
In my sad heart broken place ...it’s true....love singing Beyoncé I build sandcastles and cry 😭 while I wash the dishes and drive everyone insane around me singing and crying and crying and singing....wanting everyone to feel my pain as their ears 👂 bleed listening to me and the same song on repeat for a whole year mourning a relationship that was never a relationship to begin with
May 26, 2021
May 26, 2021 at 2:46 PM UTC
I wish you knew
How much I miss you
And wish I could call
But do not wanna be called the girl
Who didn't have a clue
So I quietly wish you knew
How much I miss you
And wish you would call
I pinch myself telling myself you don't care at all
Helps me cope trying to move forward
But I wish you knew it wasn't or isn't easy for me
Because I wish you knew how hard I try to hold on to you
Didn't realize till it was too late that I was acting crazy
but the whole time you were mine
But I pushed you away
And I wish you knew
I only wanted you to stay
To hold me
And tell me how much you care
Just wanted a minute of your day
Even wish for a second to be in your presences
because that is how much I miss you
A glimpse of your face would change my world
But I guess you will never know how much I truly care
But i won't say and I only say I wish you knew
May 25, 2017
May 25, 2017 at 3:27 AM UTC
I wish you could see me right now
Laying with my eyes wide open
Proud of the small things I have done
But I smile like I ve won
Something worth talking about
But really it was just me on overdrive
To get job done
Only hoping to pass the test to all this hard work could pay off for the rest
Holding my breath till the inspection done
Than and only than can I close my eyes and put myself to rest
For the week has been long
My hands are tired
And my mind has been tangled in too many thoughts
Just would like to step away from it all
And stress a little less
May 25, 2017
May 25, 2017 at 3:18 AM UTC
I wish you could see me right now
Laying with my eyes wide open
Proud of the small things I have done
But I smile like I ve won
Something worth talking about
But really it was just me on overdrive
To get job done
Only hoping to pass the test to all this hard work could pay off for the rest
Holding my breath till the inspection done
Than and only than can I close my eyes and put myself to rest
For the week has been long
My hands are tired
And my mind has been tangled in too many thoughts
Just would like to step away from it all
And stress a little less
May 25, 2017
May 25, 2017 at 3:18 AM UTC
I listen to sad music
It eases this pain deep with in me
One is the longing to be held
Loved adored
Needing to feel more
I tell no one exactly how I feel
Except God
because his the only one
who keeps it real
Plus my words will not be taken out of context
Nor used against me
I hurt a different type of hurt
I hide it in this poem
Hoping someone feels me
Or wont feel me at all
But its a remedy that eases me
May 21, 2017
May 21, 2017 at 2:58 PM UTC
Mind is full
With a constant reminder of you
Forever alone
Wondering why
I could never get this right
Passion shot me in the back
Forever traumatized me
And don't know
if I could get my face off the ground
And I blame my overthinking ***
For driving you away
And yet I think about you everyday
And I reap what sow
And hurt like no body will ever know
But I am quiet
and trying to keep my composure
And accept things as they are
So I can move forward
And not repeat the same mistakes
And May I learn to love again
May 21, 2017
May 21, 2017 at 4:50 AM UTC
LORD DO YOU HEAR ME??
I'VE BEEN LOST IN THE DARKNESS
BEEN FEARFUL AND CONSTANTLY AFRAID BECAUSE
MY FAITH HAS BEEN LOW
AND I HAVE BEEN HIDING IN SHAME
BECAUSE I FORGOT TO CALL UPON YOUR NAME
NOW I LiE AWAKE THINKIN OF ALL MY CRAZY MISTAKES
JUST HAVEN'T BEEN MYSELF LATELY
LORD CHANGE ME
BECAUSE YOUR THE ONLY ONE I KNOW WHO COULD
CHANGE MY BAD HABITS AND HELP ME FROM REPEATING THE SAME MISTAKES
MAKE Me Better
Thank you in the name of Jesus Christ AMEN
Sep 7, 2015
Sep 7, 2015 at 3:58 AM UTC
Usually takes me all my life to get a couple words out of me
but today it's like I have been awaken from a long sleep
Ready to express everything inside of me
Let every word be written down
May you say my poetry out loud
let nothing hold me back now
Like emotions are throwing up out of my mouth
Such a weird way to put it
But I'm saying it
In the unique way it comes out
I won't stop
Makes me feel alive
To let it all out
Aug 18, 2015
Aug 18, 2015 at 12:44 AM UTC
It's a place where no one knows
A place where I miss my parents
And pretend that it doesn't **** me not to have them around
And wish my soul could rest where they are now
A search for who iam
Lost and confused
Blinded on where should I go now
Pushing away from everyone
Hating to be surrounded
And told what to do
Depressed and self pity has a place in my darkness
Joy in my sleep
Because no one can bother me
nor stress me out
Though happy does not exist in this darkness
Overeating and talking down to myself before anyone could put me down
A INSECURE CHILD TRYING TO GROW UP AND ACT HER AGE
Too old to be playing around.
BUT I Hide myself in my shame
Try hard not to lie to those who love me
Guess I get Ashamed of the truth I get myself in
No one would approve so my negative thoughts tell me now
Aug 18, 2015
Aug 18, 2015 at 12:31 AM UTC
Why do I stop writing when I know I'm going mantally insane
Not saying what I want to say
Dealing with life everyday
If you haven't figure it out now
I'm venting my feelings
In the only way I know how
My poetry is my therapist
And my words and thoughts are
The things that calm me down
Because I'm bossed around on the daily
And expected to do the unexpected
Feeling so stretched thin
Can almost scream
because the stress it brings
Aug 17, 2015
Aug 17, 2015 at 11:37 PM UTC