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Blue, Is my heart and soul. / Talent, Is in my blood. / Leopard, Is my skin. / Unique, Is my wear. / My blonde hair, Is my crown. / Sadness, Is my past. / Humor, Is my mask and language. / Kindness, Is my weakness. / Being cold-hearted, Is my strength. / Contradiction, Is my confusion. / Anime, Is my life style. / Music, Is the weight off my shoulders. / Being a lone wolf, Has been given to me in this life. / And for all that.............I take it to my Grave.
When a woman sees her man,
Being self indulged with his confidence and pride.
(Look I can do this and I can do that! See how great I am!)
She'll put her foot down,
Make the sacrifice to lower his esteem.
For all what's known that one should never out shine the other,
But to unite and shine as one!
Being the most unstoppable force.
Sharing the equal amount of power and pride.
Like the iconic dynamic duo.
When a woman finds her man enraged,
Overly frustrated, exhausted and in fumes.
***** all of them! I hate everything! This day just can't get any worse!)
Just like a bottle that has burst,
Of toxic fuels that's impossible to cease.
But with his woman's touche,
The impossible can be broken with just a simple song sanged,
Or a silly joke to break the pain.
Even if he fights back, she'll find a way to end the flames.
It just takes a simple caress of presence.
As she wraps her arms around him,
He can feel her spirit letting him know that he isn't alone with a burden.
When a woman discovers her man,
Feeling insecure, saddened and broken.
(I don't think I'm the best looking guy. I don't think I'm good enough for you. I'm to depressed to speak or do anything...)
Like a porcelain doll being smashed to the ground.
He thinks he's as hideous as the hunch back of notre dame,
Her eyes sees beyond as her mind sculpts him as the handsomely amazing Apollo.
Sadden of the pain he has carried in his heavy heart,
Having doubts that he's not the one for her.
Like a mirror, seeing him broke,
Makes her feel as much broken than he is.
She'll recite of all his accomplishments,
surpassing far from the previous ones whom failed her.
A woman's smile shines endless rays of hope,
Overthrows the darkness as it evaporates the despair in his heart.
Nothing but left a brighter future amongst them.
He'll always remember that they're each other's halves,
Making the two as their whole....world goes around.
She engraved it into his beautiful mind.
When a woman and man looks into each other's eyes,
They see trust and comfort for one another.
As well being lost into their souls,
A gateway to their own worlds.
Of one that has stars and a moon that shines brightly,
While the other has the endless field of which the grass is greener.
When a woman is in the arms,
Of her loving man of which she feels he works hard to provide.
His providing hands and arms, brings comfort and security between them.
She feels safe and sound,
Knowing that he'll never let her go.
Still has that touch to sweep her off her feet.
No matter the cost he'll always capture her heart,
With his big warm hands.
When a woman has her kiss,
From her loving man whom gives her unconditional love.
She feels the soft gentle,
Yet powerful push from his lips.
He leaves her feeling as if time has stopped,
as if her well being has floated high above.
Her own darkness and pain has suddenly disappeared.
Just a burst of smile.
Even if it lasted for a moment.
That's why she tells him,
"Please. Don't stop."
When a woman loves her man,
She loves him, she loves him, she loves him,
Far past eternal life.
When a man loves his woman,
He loves her, He loves her, He loves her,
Beyond the universal time.
Oct 4, 2017
Oct 4, 2017 at 12:15 AM UTC
Can I be that drug that can make you laugh,
make you smile,
make you be silly as if no ones around?
Can I be that drug that can take away your pain,
your misery,
your suffering,
the weight off your shoulders?
Can I be that drug that can relief your stress,
your anxiety,
your bad memories?
Can I be that drug that can make you feel free,
make you feel wild,
make you feel as if nothing ever happened,
just you feeling lifted, like you can fly?
Can I be that drug that makes you feel like you can get away with stupid things,
give you that adrenaline for something crazy,
for something ridiculously memorable?
Can I be that drug,
that makes you feel youth once more?
Feb 14, 2015
Feb 14, 2015 at 11:50 AM UTC
You know you over stayed your 'welcome',
when people no longer acknowledge you.
They just simply WALK THROUGH you.
When people don't acknowledge or even realize the actions you do.
They just simply CAN'T SEE you.
When you walk,
no one can hear you or even when you try to SPEAK OUT!
They just simply CAN'T HEAR you.
When teachers gave up long ago on you.
They just simply LOOSE INTEREST in caring.
When the only place is best for you is a corner.
Just simply NO ONE will ever bother you.
Only on their needs.
When you go up to present,
NO ONE cares to have respect to even pay attention.
They just simply don't GIVE A ****
When you perform on stage or even showing your true talent!
NO ONE would ever remember you did that!
They just simply acknowledge the OTHER PERSON you were with
and give them credit.
Especially at Prom.
Even then, no matter how OUTSTANDING you look, you're just FORGETTABLE.
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Over time I've been nothing but a failure through high school,
which is why I stayed there too long.
Aging, seeing younger kids come in and being more full of themselves and their social groups. NO longer appreciating values. Simply having no morals.
Anyways,
through time I just simply fade.....
not even my bleach blonde hair can make me stand out.
I'll forever be the GHOST of high school.
No one will ever remember me from that place.
Chances not in any other places.
I'll forever be a GHOST.
Dec 18, 2014
Dec 18, 2014 at 11:46 PM UTC
I love it when I'm asleep~
Like I get 'drifted' into my own world and feels like nothing can stop me.
I can somewhat control my dreams the way I want to.
Mostly I feel relaxed and forget all the events that happened in my life......
then when I wake up....
everything(reality) ******* hits me hard and I'm all like ****
And just wishing I can be in my slumber forever.
Then I tell myself "It'll happen once you're dead~"
Nov 25, 2014
Nov 25, 2014 at 2:49 AM UTC
I'm glad Free Bubble Tea Day happened and you let me got you one~
I keep telling myself that 'I hope it'd be mostly you in that apartment'.
So it was, also your sister. It's fine~
I was so happy to see you smile!
That smile that melt away my heart from when we were together~
When I was giving your drink and heated up the leftover pork bun for you, you kept saying
"Why are you being so strange?"
"Because I want to~"
"Yeah, but it's still strange.."
"And that strangeness use to rock your world one time~"
You smiled more~
After giving your heated pork bun I asked for a hug, because I missed your embrasses.
And that you did~ With no complain. Willing, even.
I felt warm again. My heart went from ice cold,
to melting warm~
We talked abit more, and you smiled more as soon as I mentioned getting a new phone soon.
Your smiles grew bigger~ Because I know how much you wanted me to get one, because you hated my old one.
But that smile, that smile kept melting my heart.
I'm glad it was just us for the moment.
I had a little piece of the 'You' whom I knew.
No influences around.
Just you~
I wanted to stay more, but I couldn't.
Until this very day.....
I'D **** TO SEE YOU SMILE!~
Nov 2, 2014
Nov 2, 2014 at 8:24 PM UTC
Just let me be where I am now.
Especially at THIS POINT of life.
Let me sink in to my own illusions
and just go along with it and support me.
It's not like it's hurting anyone really.
Just let me fantasies about other people who I like a lot in life.
Let me be full of myself to a certain extent.
JUST LET ME BE.
I just want to be in my own drug.
The part time warmness that comes and goes.
The silly jokes I make of 'how it'd be like' with that other person.
Just let me have SOME SORT of fun with people.
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Because, if you were to take that 'drug illusion' away from me,
I'll be reminded ONCE MORE BY REALITY;
That I don't have a loving heart to give.
My hollowness.
My "Ice Queen" title.
My longing for HIM.
The memories.
Depression and self-harm will come eat me up again.
Oct 21, 2014
Oct 21, 2014 at 12:56 AM UTC
Your fur is a silent shadow.
Yet soft as silk.
Your eyes of emerald crescent moons,
hold so many stories.
Stories of lives you've encounter and lives you had before.
And it's the biggest expressions you have to show.
When you walk,
no one hears you.
Just only the bell you wear around your neck.
You sneaky shadow.
Your meows tries to be as clear as our language.
Your purrs are endless.
Your spirit never dies.
It feels like you'll live for all eternity.
You chose the ONE person that you'd like to belong too.
And ONLY that person you obey.
Like a dog; you might have in you.
You hunt 'gifts' for your owner.
In show of your love and appreciation.
You made sure that when people look at you,
they look at you as a human being.
Sometimes you know what's best.
You can read the characters in people.
whether they're bad or good.
You're just a simply unique cat.
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I'm glad I have you in my life.
After all the years we had eachother, I ask myself at times:
"What am I without you?"
Oct 21, 2014
Oct 21, 2014 at 12:36 AM UTC
I know I'm capable to do any type of dances, if I try.
But when the music plays, I dance freestyle.
It's not just 'any' freestyle,
it's the type that you know it's missing affection.
It's missing a partner to love.
As soon as I feel the rhythm going through me,
my body flows with it.
When the rhythm is crazy fast:
It makes me a wild cat,
seeing of how feisty and powerful my body can move.
But when it's a slow rhythm:
My body moves slowly and elegantly, yet tempting to go near it.
Either way,
It'll call out for you to TOUCH IT.
I'm known to be ONE of the GREATEST TEASERS in my groups of friends.
Because my deadliest weapons,
are my hips.
When the rhythm plays, it works up from my knees; which is the key to how my hips can move SSOOoo SMOOTHly, then it works up to my curved belly, then to my chest and arms.
The DEADLY body wave.
But what can REALLY GET ME GOING,
is when that guitar solo, the riffs
breaths heavy, then bites finger
OH GAWD THE SOLOS just makes me
LOOSE IT COMPLETELY!!!
Especially, the ones from 70s-80s,
it's a turn on for me.
My body will want MORE to feel it's melody,
for it to keep on playing!
OVER AND OVER AGAIN UNTIL I JUST drop on the floor from SATISFACTION.
With my face all red and my eyes all seduced.
My body burning up.
biting my bottom lip
mhmhm-heehee~
Sometimes when I dance on the pole or even using a chair I can imagine a person,
who's dancing with me.
One of the things that can win my full body's attention,
is when another body resist the temptations from falling into their wrong desires from me.
OR if that other body moves fluently with mine, without going any further, like under my clothes.
Simply just respect.
I may be a performer, but my mind says it differently.
So does others.
Our bodies want temptation and our minds wants to have trust and comfort.
You know what I'm saying.
Just because I'm a TEASER, doesn't mean I want YOU in BED.
That's why I'm deadly.
I torment people, by simply moving a piece of my body, then not letting them fulfill their DESIRES from me.
Sorry if you guys can't keep control of yourselves. Just work HARDER on THAT~
The only people who can HAVE ALL THAT from me, are the ones if in a relationship with or the ones I just REALLY LIKE ALOT~ ;)
I got a list of songs that can REALLY move me:
(Most of them are in the 70s-80s era,which ever has a nice guitar riffs)
Aerosmith- Rag Doll
Alannah Myles- Black Velvet
Nazareth- Goin' Loco, Hair Of The Dog
Warrant- Cherry Pie
Def Leopard- Pour Some Sugar On Me
Gary Wright- Dream Weaver(the mellow melody is what moves me)
Foreigner- Jukebox Hero
AC/DC- Honey Roll, Thunderstruck, Back In Black
Also there's more, but it's all I can think of right now.
Even some songs from today:
Pussycat Dolls- Buttons, Sway
Britney Spears(ver)- I love Rock 'n' Roll
****** XL ft. DATAROCK- Gloria
Lady Gaga- Do What You Want With My Body
Girlicious- Stupid ****
One Republic- Everybody Loves Me
Down With Webster- Woe Is Me
There's also others, but again, it's all I can think of~
Oct 15, 2014
Oct 15, 2014 at 12:08 AM UTC
They say
to follow your dreams
and achieve it.
That's when I started to follow
and achieved you~
Oct 14, 2014
Oct 14, 2014 at 12:29 AM UTC
Look at where you are now,
look at what's become of you.
I'm so sorry that you have turned to pieces and dust.
All from letting your protective coat down,
from people who mistreated you.
The sad truth is,
that you're just the image of me,
how I feel inside.
Broken porcelain doll,
Broken porcelain doll,
who once was so beautiful,
but has fallen into so many wrong hands.
Hands that keep on breaking promises,
and those broken promises is what destroyed you.
Now that you're broken into pieces and dust,
we play a game,
a game that gambles this so called 'fate'.
Let it decide, for you to be thrown away,
or for you to be created into a new.
It's so unfortunate,
how many cruel people exist.
Due to their own experiences and choices they make;
from hurt, loss of values, corruptions and influences.
Yet, knowing the way they are,
they have the nerve to 'keep a promise'.
They think they can keep one,
though of eventually, it's forgotten.
Those are one of the things that made you fell apart.
These broken promises breaks you into pieces.
Sadly those people still exist.
They fend on the fragile creatures like you,
on the moment it's in their sight,
to keep breaking them all apart.
That's what makes them satisfied.
Sorry I went blind for a while,
poor you.
Maybe it wasn't meant to be.
For you to be created in this world,
that's filled with heartless souls.
So rest now,
you warn out, faded broken doll,
and just gamble with 'fate'.
Just waiting what'll decide.
I'm sorry,
I couldn't make you solid, no more.
For now, I'll gently caress whatever's left from you.
Broken pieces of porcelain, dust, and materials from your clothes.
The least we can do
is wish for the best to happen to you;
To be created into a new.
You never deserve this my inner-self.
Oct 12, 2014
Oct 12, 2014 at 1:55 AM UTC