I find myself telling you things
I don't even like to admit to myself
Oct 28, 2016
Oct 28, 2016 at 9:00 PM UTC
thank you for your advice
I knew it was forever when I laid on that table
but I've learned in my short years
that permanence is something
I need to get comfortable with
Because yes, this was a choice
But we don't always have a say
in those things that mark us for life
Oct 28, 2016
Oct 28, 2016 at 8:56 PM UTC
the winds are battering the soft side of my chest
and my skin is in conflict
for thats where the storms and sun meet
so much has changed
since when i was with you
and the warmth of your skin
made my heart beat just faster
and stopped any cold from sneaking in
but then I was vulnerable
and the storms found the cracks
found the ways to get in
found that they could take over
so now I'm left here
with the sun on my face
and with chaos inside
Oct 12, 2016
Oct 12, 2016 at 3:26 PM UTC
listening to your playlists
realizing its impossible to forget you
Jun 29, 2016
Jun 29, 2016 at 2:44 PM UTC
My religion changes by the week.
Ive believed in that man unseen,
who appeared in the songs I'd sing as a girl in church camp.
Ive scoured the stars and the planets,
hoping each light through the window would spell out my purpose.
Other times my belief comes out when I'm singing along to that old cd.
The one I know every word to
as if the lyrics were somewhere inside me.
But recently my passion lies in the way his eyes change when the sky goes dark,
and the tension in his muscles when he pulls me close.
I wonder if they know,
those who have upturned my worlds,
just how drastically different I am now,
how changed I was then,
and how all thats coming is further transformation.
May 18, 2016
May 18, 2016 at 8:35 PM UTC
looking at the facts
I dont understand myself
but looking at the feeling
I couldnt imagine another way
Apr 2, 2016
Apr 2, 2016 at 10:51 PM UTC
nobody tells you what to do
when you've made the mistake of falling,
you've ended up on the bottom
and your bones have fallen outside your reach
when you feel the watch ticking
on the hand that you've been holding
and it pulls you with each moment
theres nothing I can do
about the hours bound to unbind us
or the distance that will pull us apart
and nobody
nobody has told me what to do
Mar 8, 2016
Mar 8, 2016 at 10:10 PM UTC
can a feeling cause physical pain?
this fear, this tension
it starts in my back
up my neck and invading my skull
no longer a nagging thought
but a constant discomfort
distractions dont exist
what I need is a painkiller
but something stronger than drugs
strong enough to get me out of my head
Feb 27, 2016
Feb 27, 2016 at 8:00 PM UTC
he lives as if he knows the secret
that everyone else spends their lives
trying to discover
Jan 17, 2016
Jan 17, 2016 at 2:59 PM UTC