All theses thoughts in my head,theses racing thoughts that wont give me a min of peace.
The voices always telling me im worthless,ugly,trash,a lying ***** that'll never amount to anything or every have anything out of life if i.
Thoses same voices telling me im better off dead everyone would be better if i wasnt in existence anymore,then i look at my family and wish every day to be normal for them.
Normal is all ive wanted my whole life instead of crazy **** going on and constantly around me that makes me look bad and that im ******* every one in the world.
Is it really that hard for him to love me and want me for the rest of ourlives.
Will he every forgive me for the five mistakes i made when we were first brought together and that i hid it from him cause i feared losing my eternal love im sorry mylove for lying so long but even now i show you proof and tell you exactly whats on my mind and never lie to you again.
May 21, 2017
May 21, 2017 at 2:38 AM UTC
It's like you can feel it..
all the bad seeping in
destroying every little good aspect
you've built up in your life
there's just this huge darkness
taking over everything
you cant breathe
and theres nothing you can do about it
it's like you're drowning in your own mind
and you're pushing yourself under the water
everything used to be bright and happy
but at some point in your life
it all turned upside down
you bleed and burn
trying to crawl back to what was
even though you know
there's no going back.
we've all grown up
and it *****
~a.t.w
May 13, 2017
May 13, 2017 at 12:08 AM UTC