livia-savage-reign
For as long as I could remember... Words were my strength, It gives one the capability to feel. / Poetry can never be any deeper than this. I have been writing ever since I was able to hold a pen lol ... Where actions were failed, words became my strength. An aspiring author, that of which I am. #Scorpio_babe / / "ALL POEMS ARE COPYWRITE AND A WORD FROM THE WISE "ALWAYS HAVE A BACK-UP PLAN. MY DREAM IS TO SHARE MY WORK TO THE WORLD ONE DAY. I HOPE YOU ENJOY." / / Instagram: Livia-savage reign
I can't believe all this time, I thought I brought joy to you.
It is at our darkest hour we spill out how we truly feel, and how you truly feel pains my heart.
I love you, and I love you so much...why do you think I think the worst of you. How can you say all I do is belittle you.
I can't believe this is how you truly feel.
If i bring you so much agony, so much pain then why do you force yourself to stay? Why do you laugh with me? Make love to me?
If this is how you truly feel.
Your words tore through my skin like a depressed child slitting knives through sheets, I yell I scream just by the things you thought of me.
I'm trapped in my thoughts, drowning in disbelief. How can you say those things about me.
I don't believe we deserve an us of this is how you truly feels.
May 8, 2019
May 8, 2019 at 10:05 PM UTC
**I'm grown, so very grown, way too grown, for all of this.
I'd love to believe I'm smart, maybe a bit too smart for my own good, how pathetic.
Why am I still burdening myself, why am I so stubborn. I wish I could send for a space ship and share my thoughts with aliens, because I get so tired of humans.
He said I'm too emotional, maybe way too emotional indeed, because right now I'm way too numb to feel. But here it comes again.
I don't know what am I. Born to let them fall in love and then shurgs... I chase them away.
I am so very tired, tired of the same old LIES, same old CRYS, same old ROUTINE, same old LOVE, same old BETRAYAL and the same old PAIN.
Nobody knows it but me and that's what scares me, I might die in my sleep tonight of anxiety or heart attack.
Alone with the mysteries of why and what went wrong.
...but if I should never wake up, it's ok. I wont have to worry about feeling again, crying again, hurting again...well, maybe. Maybe I'll be lurking in the shadows of you, sleeplessly with no peace.
When it's all said and done...I'm just too numb to feel**
May 7, 2019
May 7, 2019 at 9:38 PM UTC
...And here I am in disbelief, how can something so damaged meant to be?
Your dark eyes intrigues me, I'd wait by my phone just to see your name reflects on the screen, the sound of that beautiful song you sent to me.
I get this carried away every time...every time, only with you.
My nights becomes lighter and future with great promises, I'd hold on to you tighter with lips that yearned to kiss. I just don't know when, when I will ever stop missing you. Watching you sleep, so beautiful my soul was delighted.
I get this carried away every time...every time, only with you.
S.B
Jun 26, 2018
Jun 26, 2018 at 11:23 PM UTC
Just an ordinary little girl in the puddle of mess
a heart so big and a soul so deep, I was never afraid to give.
I will listen to stories of love, but yet I saw drafts of pain
What do you know about love, huh?
What do you know about happy endings?
I grew bitter and dark in a home that drove me mad, a place where there are no lights at the end of the tunnel, a place where I bled myself dry, a place where I'd rather be dead.
Each day after traumas my life was seen as perfect, after hell had broken loose, the world saw me smiling. She had it all...they thought. Maybe I am a good actress, after all, they didn't see the desperation, they couldn't see within me, I had nothing left.
See, this is the scary thought of not knowing, there I was lying on the floor bleeding, through a thin glass I saw myself dying but the world saw me smiling.
Now here I am, not afraid to leap, not afraid to love deep, scared of not knowing but always walking with my heart on my sleeve.
So, if you are going to talk about love, is it really just me or does it strike a nerve of not knowing.
Not knowing if you will be loved in return, not knowing if it will bloom or will it all crash and you watch yourself burn?
does it even scare you a bit? the last words are yours
S.B
Jan 15, 2018
Jan 15, 2018 at 11:56 PM UTC
The day I found out my purpose, was the day I found out about you.
The day life gave a total new meaning was the day I felt you, my love, my life, my all.
Nothing nor no one could ever take away this feeling, the feeling of joy, the feeling of love. Imagine a love so untouchable, is all that you will receive, because you are now the love that is within me.
Your love is now my love and I can promise you this, I will love you relentlessly, passionately, endlessly...you are me. The world will know about it, the world will feel it and this universe will help to embrace it, my love for you is timelessly.
One day I know I will be able to tell you how much you've saved my life, to give you a life that I always dream about, Its not such a bad one but I'd love for you to have a great one...you just don't understand.
You are the love within me, I felt you from the day you have conceived.
Jan 15, 2018
Jan 15, 2018 at 11:31 PM UTC
** He's the one, my heart told me.
Here I am, once broken..why? no one could ever tell me.
This being has entered my life I once thought was a living lie, but sweet possession he had shown me.
Am I fooling myself, I don't think I am...the way he kissed my lips, his warm touches against my skin.
Here I am, ready to become a slave for him, dazed as he clutches my hand.
You drifted in and out of dreams, the rush that took over me, the timing of his love could not of come a better time.
These are the things love can do?
Is this me being really happy?
...because I felt it, in his kisses...I have missed him so much.
This feeling is so seldom, and I am scared, not of love but how much I am able to give, yet for the first time it is shared equally.
He, in his own right, is a gem that will for ever dazzle in my eyes, the way he looks at me and tells me he loves me...how much I truly do. This is what love can do**
Shantel Broderick
Jan 15, 2018
Jan 15, 2018 at 11:16 PM UTC
**My ally, where thou heart had laid on broken glass?
To thee I gave precious memories, blissfulness and unforgiving pleasures.
O' how I begged, I have surrendered to thee for the sparks of beautiful fruits I yearned for to be embedded in me.
With magic in your eyes, you've enchanted me.
My sorcerer, you came with dusty face, torn cloth wrapped around sharpen waist, you defended me.
To you I brought forth my love, placed demented soul in thy hands for thee to heal.
Ravishing, I walked boldly towards you, because my backbone you are. Thou stood firmly as a prayer to my needs in which thou, my ally fulfilled.
The apple of my eyes, the seed planted in my soul, fire that fought within me that only I know of. We were flesh within flesh, the blood that flows through my veins, the crick in my bones where sweet Juices had flown.
You were that aura that gave me peace, breaking me down like a deadly desease. "Ashtor" abondon... But you appeared spiritually directing me.
My sweet ally, where thou heart had laid on broken glasses?
I'll be there, stained on you like a scar.
-Shantel Broderick
Sep 5, 2017
Sep 5, 2017 at 1:16 AM UTC
we still suffocate in our atmosphere, I saw you but were you really there?
We tore ourselves inside out, just to become invisible. A faded shadow in the background is what I was.
Our silence cuts like a knife, razor blades and salted eyes...I grew numbed, I could not cry.
It had to be the loudest silence I've ever heard...hurt without words.
...and so, that was where we were, stuck, total strangers curled up in bed at nights with each other.
Rocked mentally by the fool I am...I was in your presence for a minute each day until I fade.
It had to be the loudest silence I've ever heard.
S.B
May 6, 2017
May 6, 2017 at 2:40 PM UTC
I watched you sleep, unsound but your presence screamed so loud. I watched you sleep, I hoped to god you were having the sweetest dreams of me.
Where is the love of your life?
Could she be awake, tormented and faded, crying her heart out?
I bet she misses you...I wonder if she too, watches you sleep.
As I watched you sleep, warm bodies collided in harmony, In peace. I wrapped my arms around you and wondered if she touched you like me.
I provided arms that refuses to let you go through the night...but I guess we will never see eye to eye, because this is more than me.
You made yourself so known, and I hope I will forever be a mystery lurking in the back of your mind...I wanted you to be mine.
...but that I know will never be, because you broke me down to almost nothing and this void will forever be in me.
S.B
Apr 12, 2017
Apr 12, 2017 at 11:24 PM UTC
Wild eyes...like the ocean, filled with unforgiving mysteries. I could watch your body's vibration all day.
Your words are few and your stares are faded, there was just something about you that took my breath away.
I heard, you traveled a long way... You fell in my path and swept my feet away.
Here I am driving myself crazy and I don't even know your name. Mixed with wickedness yet there was this softness in your eyes.
I wondered, what could be hidden beneath the surface...sparked with curiosity. All I've ever been since the first day I saw this being who became the fruit of my eye.
S.B
Mar 26, 2017
Mar 26, 2017 at 8:56 PM UTC