The new boy
He makes my heart flutter
When I hear the chime of a new message
I hope that it is him
And when it is, I smile so big
His words make me feel giddy
I smirk when he winks at me
When he first held my hand
My body felt chills
Crossing my finger its the start of something wonderful
Being safe in his arms
With a peck on my forehead
Nothing else matters at that moment
To love I am led
Dec 1, 2015
Dec 1, 2015 at 6:58 AM UTC
My body is freezing
I'm shivering so bad my head hurts
I have so many layers on its weighing me down
Falling asleep is the only reasonable way to not think about how cold I am, how cold and frozen over my life is
I am stuck in time
Cannot crack or begin to melt the ice that I keep allowing to freeze
The heartache, the pain, my disappointing ways lead me to hold my arms up and allow myself to drown
Should I just give up on beginning to melt my past?
Just fall asleep and forget about it all together?
Doesn't seem reasonable, because eventuly time will pass and the glaciers will melt away
But for now, I'll just keep adding layers
Nov 30, 2015
Nov 30, 2015 at 2:16 PM UTC
I've been played by you
Once again
After you begged for my love
I let you back into my heart
I thought that you loved me
You said it so much
When I was in your arms again
I remembered your gentle touch
We said that we loved eachother
A thousand times a day
Then out of the blue
You pushed me away
Was it vengeance you were seeking
Because I resisted your love
I feel like a a fool
Its like I've been shoved
You put bullet holes in my heart
It will never stop bleeding
It will forever be scarred
Your love is so deceiving
I feel like destroying the world
You act like the Joker always grinning with evil
I sit here as my heart aches
I just need my soul to take a break
Nov 27, 2015
Nov 27, 2015 at 5:20 AM UTC
I know how Kevin McCalister felt
When he realized he was alone
No family or friends by his side
My heart is crying inside
The memories of eating a big dinner
The food coma waiting to come
Football, laughter, and pumkin pie
After the turkeys all gone
My dad, mom, brother
Sister, her hub and my baby neice
Around around the table smiling
And 2500 miles away the though of that, I'm dying
No love to share the day with
My friends are at home with their fam
Maybe next year I will partake in a *****
Instead of chinese food from Sam's
So with Netflix and take out
Sweatpants and slippers I lay
I hope the next year I'll be happy and able to enjoy this day
Nov 26, 2015
Nov 26, 2015 at 9:05 PM UTC
After awhile of you begging
I was willing to give us a chance
But now I feel like a fool
You haven't even given me a simple glance.
Thanksgiving alone
I feel like I don't matter to you
Do you really care?
Are you wanting this to work, too?
I feel like an idiot
I feel like a fool
To give my love to you
You make me feel so blue
As I lay on my bed with the TV on
I'm not even paying attention to it
I feel sick to my stomach, my heart hurts so bad
Your slowly leaving a red thick scar
And no longer makes me mad, just sad
I'll assume you have no ******* interest
To me or my love
The tears weld up and my frown gets deeper
I feel like I've been shoved
So take your heart back, cuz it has no love
And when you call back to make amends
I will just say that is it the end.
Nov 26, 2015
Nov 26, 2015 at 5:57 PM UTC
Friends
They are like a rare flower that blooms silently, even in the dark.
They are founds spontaneously sometimes
Or sometimes right from your start
A friend
Is with you forever
But in some cases
The friendship has an end
A friend
Is there to hear every word
From new love and breakups
From accomplishment and fails
A friend
Doesn't turn on you
Isn't shady or judgemental
A friend
Is always next to you
To the end of time
And when the two are you and together
There are nothing but smiles
Nov 26, 2015
Nov 26, 2015 at 7:50 AM UTC
**** this ****
Annoying as hell
Is disrupts my life often
Even my sense of smell
Im scared to walk
I don't want to step on a curb
I'm seeing double
Everything's a blur
Its making me late
And I feel so bad
My coworkers are annoyed
It always makes them mad
It constrics me from walking
Seeing and steping
Every one looks at me weird
I'm dizzy and frowning
Just go away please
So I can get on with my life
You making my life hell
I see the light rail coming
Should I chance it?
If I fall to the ground
All I wanna shout will vengeance is **** THIS ****
Nov 25, 2015
Nov 25, 2015 at 6:23 PM UTC
My day hasn't even started
Even thought its two pm
The suns been shining awhile
But my mind is in denial
I lay my head down
On the smelly old tablecloth
Waiting to start work
Wanting to just close my eyes
And dream in a peaceful slumber with a smile
My eyes are heavy
My breathes are deep and slow
All I want is to snuggle up
With blankets over me and fuzzy socks on my toes
Waiting till the moon let's the sun sleep
Until darkness takes over
The stars start to sing
When the owls start to speak
A peaceful slumber the night will bring
Nov 24, 2015
Nov 24, 2015 at 5:29 PM UTC
Your problems are your fault
She always says with a roll of her eyes
I want do jump at her
For making my soul cry
Is my fault my husband left me
For another woman?
Its my fault I have hardly any hours at work?
Is it my fault sometimes people just wanna be jerks?
I'm broke all the time because I have lots of bills
My epilepsy keeps me sometimes very ill
I'm not trying to make you feel sorry for me
But don't be a ******* ***** I plea
You live with your mother
So you have NO bills
So if I want to cry sometimes
When I just feel defeated
And think its worthless to try
Just listen to me vent
About barely making rent
And that I look at my bank account
As see my moneys all spent
Sorry if it sounds whiny
Or that I feel sorry for myself
But sometimes my problems
Just aren't my fault
Nov 24, 2015
Nov 24, 2015 at 4:45 PM UTC
A goddess of ****** desire
Transfixed by her image of perfection
A lady of lust
Slick with sensuality
She stands bold, and bare, and brazen
Long lucious hair
Skin dripping with promise
The absolute embodiment of arousal
Her fair skin is like silk
Soft and perfect
The curves of her body attract angels
Her *** pure and innocent
She is an angel
A warrior
Perfection
A woman
Nov 24, 2015
Nov 24, 2015 at 3:06 AM UTC