Every time I turn they hit me again
and it hurts because
I can't breathe
or sleep
or think
or smirk
or frown
or talk
or cry,
without thinking
about those
vacuous memories
we made
that have woven
their way
into my
godforsaken
heart.
May 3, 2017
May 3, 2017 at 11:34 PM UTC
*i wrote a lot of great poetry when i was in love
i wrote even better poetry when i was in pain
i wrote the best poetry when i realized that the two emotions were actually the same.*
May 3, 2017
May 3, 2017 at 11:30 PM UTC
I was not supposed to get this far;
I should not breathe this air.
I'm riding a wave of borrowed time
I don't believe is fair.
I'm older and wiser
and fatter and poorer
and I'm burning my fuse
at both ends
But tomorrow I'll wake up
and put on my make up
And try not to let down my friends.
May 3, 2017
May 3, 2017 at 11:24 PM UTC
I can't explain the thrill I get
When he sweetly holds my hand,
After a morning of wrapping those same
Fingers around my throat.
Nov 16, 2015
Nov 16, 2015 at 2:18 AM UTC
"No!" she shouted,
Pushing herself as far into her bed as she could.
Pressing her hands over her ears,
blocking out everything
but the music
blasting in from her ear buds.
She dissolved into the sound,
Forcing her mind
To let go
Of feelings such as touch and smell
Until she was weightless,
Floating into a void
Rather than sitting in the smog
Of cigarette smoke and alcohol
That was omnipresent in her house.
Just relax, she thought.
Letting the guitars and voices
Of her saviors wash over her,
She fell into a half sleep,
Where the only thing
Other than the music
Was the longing to live here,
Endlessly,
In a void of nothing.
Because if there's one thing she'd learned,
It was better to feel nothing at all
Than nothing but pain.
Nov 11, 2015
Nov 11, 2015 at 5:34 AM UTC
School
Seven
******
Hours
Of
Our
Lives,
Feels like we're tied
Up in a world
Full of people trying to
bring us down.
In four years I've watched
My best friends' smiles
Turn to frowns
Only to be replaced by
Red lines on skin,
Straight like the coke she snorts
Just to get high
And FEEL something
For a little while.
Nov 11, 2015
Nov 11, 2015 at 5:23 AM UTC
You cut me open with words of hate
You filled my gut with lies
You made me think the worst of thoughts
You made me hate my life
But I would do it all again
So your bullets wouldn't hit her
You ******* drunk just stay away
Don't touch my little sister
Daddy you're the devil
Without the trace of an angle's grin
So finish off that bottle because
Your heart is lost in sin
I'm all grown up and far away
I'm sure you miss your punching bag
Can't you see how beautiful she is?
Please, don't ******* hurt her, Dad
Nov 11, 2015
Nov 11, 2015 at 5:15 AM UTC
I just want you
to be happy
but sometimes
and selfishly
I want to be
your happiness
But
'happiness is a choice'
you say
and you didn't choose me
I clung onto the idea
since you made me happy
it would be the same for you
What is happiness now?
where has it gone to?
In time, society has robbed us
the real meaning of happiness
Go on your own way
and pursue your happiness
for your smile, is my smile
your laugh, is my laugh
and I'll be happy
when you find your happiness
because I love you
always have, always will
Oct 27, 2015
Oct 27, 2015 at 12:07 AM UTC
Same song, different tune
Cuts so fresh, but they're not new
Weeping softly, think of you
And open up the veins so blue.
I'm sorry.
Oct 26, 2015
Oct 26, 2015 at 7:41 PM UTC
Oh, I have been released.
My river had dried.
I was dying of thirst.
But now words flood my mind.
I want to make,
To create.
To BE.
Oh, I have been released,
And nothing could feel
So good.
Feb 20, 2013
Feb 20, 2013 at 12:36 AM UTC