Tomorrow is bring your parents to school day Momma.
Dad says you can't come Momma.
Why Momma?
Why can't you come Momma?
Everyone is telling me they are sorry Momma.
Why are they saying they are sorry Momma?
Why haven't you come back since the party Momma?
You know,
the one where we had to dress in all black.
Why did we have to dress in all black Momma?
It's getting lonely Momma.
Why won't you come up Momma?
You have been sleeping for forever Momma.
Huh...
What a weird bed you chose for the party Momma.
Is it comfortable Momma?
Maybe I should try it someday,
what do you think Momma?
I miss you Momma.
Please wake up.
Momma?
Nov 3, 2020
Nov 3, 2020 at 10:24 AM UTC
We argue all day, my brain and I
These thoughts scream in my head
I want to die
“No you want to die”
Wait, who said that, get out
Get.
Out.
Why can’t I escape this prison
My mind traps me, tortures me
I need to make it out of here
But how do I escape my own mind?
“You’re worthless”
No, stop please. I know.
I.
Know.
I claw and scream, but only I can hear myself.
Why am I laughing?
“You deserve this”
No, no I don’t I want to leave. But maybe I deserve it…
I.
Do.
Maybe it’s best to be trapped in my brain
It keeps everyone safe right? I deserve it, right?
“Yes”
Okay I can’t stay, wait no what am I saying.
I’ll.
Stay.
Sep 23, 2020
Sep 23, 2020 at 10:23 AM UTC
I shut my eyes.
Will they open again?
I go to sleep.
Will I wake up again?
I stand in the shower.
Will the water be harmless again?
I drive home.
Will I arrive safely again?
I inhale.
Will I breath again?
I look into a fire.
Will my skin be unscathed again?
I look down the stairs.
Will I make it again?
I take my medication.
Will I be okay again?
May 5, 2020
May 5, 2020 at 8:12 PM UTC
Mom nudged me to the side.
We are a happy family,
But for some reason, we always have to hide.
I’m a rhinoceros so is my mom,
We roam the plains,
And eat the grass,
But when the men come we hide and pretend to be glass.
As mom nudged I resisted,
She stumbled,
I laughed.
Then I heard the sound,
It was the men,
They drove around,
And scouted our makeshift den.
They raised the stick,
Pointed it towards mom,
What fun they were finally playing,
I was completely calm
But mom wasn’t,
I didn’t understand,
They raised their hand,
And a loud noise sounded.
I looked towards Mom to see her,
But she was now surrounded.
They took her away,
And left me alone.
I’m still a rhinoceros,
But I now roam the plains on my own.
Feb 18, 2020
Feb 18, 2020 at 9:38 AM UTC
Why is it that when I speak
everyone hears
but no one listens
Jan 31, 2020
Jan 31, 2020 at 2:39 PM UTC
I thought you loved me
why did you break my heart?
with you I was free,
now I am chained
by my silent plea
please come back
everything you say I'll agree
this time I won't fight
I'll have no sense of irony
just please come back
everyone disagrees with me
but I still love you
Jan 31, 2020
Jan 31, 2020 at 2:22 PM UTC
silent tears shed the memories
she made
with each individual soul
that lied to her
Jan 31, 2020
Jan 31, 2020 at 12:00 PM UTC
Hey,
It's me
I'm that girl that you used to see.
hey,
It's me.
I'm different and you must agree,
Hey,
Do you remember?
Because I do.
Do you remember the calls, those fights, those real late nights?
Because I do.
Hey,
Do you miss me?
I'm not the girl I used to be.
Hey,
Remember when you said you loved me?
Because I do.
Hey,
Do still you love me?
Because I still love you,
Even after every hurtful thing you put me through.
Jan 23, 2020
Jan 23, 2020 at 3:17 PM UTC
Full of hate,
Full of love,
Showed one,
Hid the other,
Life was fake,
So was her façade,
She was someone one way,
Different the other,
People saw happiness,
She saw shadows,
Her eyes saw gray,
But she radiated life,
She smiled,
inside she cried,
Home was stable,
Home was fragile,
Courageous was she,
Inside she cowered in fear,
Steady heart,
Shattered dreams,
Broken spirit,
Here you see,
She was always different then what she seemed.
Jan 21, 2020
Jan 21, 2020 at 3:00 PM UTC
I sat on my roof,
Stared at the sky,
As that comforting voice filled my small mind,
He wanted the best for me,
Hated when I cried,
Said it broke his heart when I looked and I lied,
Said my eyes gave it away,
As they were always so sad,
so he pulled me close like a long lost comrade,
He said he wouldn’t let go,
He told me his love,
And I’m still standing with him,
Staring at the stars above.
Jan 15, 2020
Jan 15, 2020 at 2:13 PM UTC