most likely bleeding
bitten to below the nail bed
luckily they grow back fast
just to be depleted again
scabbed over fingers
i wonder if he still wants to hold my hand?
even my fingers are messed up
ill just wear gloves
Jan 23, 2021
Jan 23, 2021 at 8:46 PM UTC
are we in the glory days?
or cant we just say were in high school
are the glory days really living with 10,000 pounds of pressure on our shoulders?
Jan 23, 2021
Jan 23, 2021 at 8:43 PM UTC
when that car door closed
on december 12th
the day we had all been dreading
i have never felt more alive
then i did from september 16th to december 12th
more like myself
more happy
than ever
everything reverted
back to normal
why cant i be with them again
and run on lower field
and laughing and skiping and talking
forever
for three months
now its only me
a run through my mind
and crying and cutting and thinking
everything is worse
december 12th
ever since
i hate it here
this isnt home
not anymore
i want to go home
i will never be home again
im not at home with myself
puffy eyes hiding behind big framed glasses
and scarred arms hiding behind sweatshirts
you were three months clean
and the minute you came "home"
real home is gone
and who i was there too
Jan 23, 2021
Jan 23, 2021 at 8:40 PM UTC
everyones on my side
so why cant i stop
addicted to it
everyone is here for me
so let me stop
it hurts to stop
but its hurting the people i love
so why wont
i let myself stop
stop it
stop right now
maybe just one more
time
Jun 15, 2020
Jun 15, 2020 at 10:28 PM UTC
37 minutes
more like a lifetime
never stop
or end
or change
stay exactly as it is
and yet somehow everything but nothing has
changed
May 21, 2020
May 21, 2020 at 10:18 PM UTC
miles of wonders
overdose or underdose
lacking love and life
May 21, 2020
May 21, 2020 at 10:17 PM UTC
when 6
turned to 3
to 2
is it us
or is it me
how do i balance
you both
equally
yet to find out
we learned the
hardships
to 3?
or 6?
May 21, 2020
May 21, 2020 at 10:16 PM UTC
tell me everything
your songs
your dreams
if you open
ill catch you
strength
in trust
we will grow
and fly
all we need
is
conversation
May 21, 2020
May 21, 2020 at 10:14 PM UTC
stars in his eyes
stars in his hair
stars in his smile
stars in my eyes
stars in our love
stars in his eyes
stars in my eyes
stars not in
the sky
May 21, 2020
May 21, 2020 at 10:08 PM UTC
facing you
blinded by ur beauty
always there but sometimes
hidden
working to push those clouds away
soaking in ur perfection
melting in my amazement
May 21, 2020
May 21, 2020 at 10:06 PM UTC