And i'm dying to hear you say the word,
but forever is a hoax and I'm trying to find my way back home
Do I look fine ?
Do I look ok?
raindrops falling down
My window
Everyday
And you wouldn't know
You can't see my face.
When it's facedown on the pillowcase
And I'm dying to hear your voice
But love is just a bittersweet word
They tell you when your dumb and young
Do I look fine ?
Do I look ok?
raindrops falling down
My window
Everyday
And you wouldn't know
You can't see my face.
When it's facedown on the pillowcase
And I'm dying to feel you here
But the distance is too great when your miles away and just don't feel the same
Forever is a hoax and love is just something they tell you when your young and dumb, young and dumb
Your don't feel the same.
Facedown on the pillowcase
My escape.
Feb 6, 2014
Feb 6, 2014 at 5:07 PM UTC
To fall in love,
To fall into motion,
To put aside time,
With pure devotion,
You've done this before.
You've seen it before,
Its Deja Vu,
Do you see her,
When I look at you?
Do you wish I were her?
Do you wish I were her?
In this game you put me in,
Sometimes I play the wrong card,
Jealousy taking over me,
Why does love have to be so hard?
I'm alone,
Looking for the place that I can call home,
Cause home is where the heart is,
She'll keep you in her locket.
Baby, I love you.
I'll always be right beside you.
Could it be true?
I'm not the only one you've said that to
She had you first,
I came next,
Do you love me,
I am I second best?
I can't get you off my mind,
I can't get you off my mind.
In this game you put me in,
Sometimes I play the wrong card,
Jealousy taking over me,
Why does love have to be so hard?
I'm alone,
Looking for the place that I can call home,
Cause home is where the heart is,
She'll keep you in her locket.
I can't take it,
You're all I think about,
I want you mne,
Not for anyone else,
If something's wrong,
I will make it right,
Those bittersweet words,
Who did you dream about last night?
Jealousy,
Sweet jealousy.
Jealousy,
Sweet Jealousy.
I'm alone,
Looking for the place that I can call home,
Cause home is where the heart is,
She'll keep you in her locket.
She'll keep you in her locket.
She'll keep you in her locket.
Feb 6, 2014
Feb 6, 2014 at 5:06 PM UTC
Since I can't have you with me,
My heart begins to cry.
The lone room echos to me
A lonesome lullabye
Since I can't have you with me,
The table bears an empty chair
The space only occupied
By the surrounding air.
Since I can't have you with me,
I'll wish upon a star
That you're wishing for me too
Where ever you are.
Since I can't have you with me
I've been lonely to the core.
Looking and remembering.
Our pictures out on the floor.
Since I can't have you with me,
I'll slide through all the days
And think about you all the time
So that your image stays.
Since I can't have you with me,
I'll fight back the tears.
And answer the door
In hopes you might be here.
Since I can't have you with me
I'll keep you in my locket
I'll just fold you up
And put you in my pocket
Since I can't have you with me,
I guess I'll have to wait.
Even though being away from you
Is the one thing I hate
Since I can't have you with me,
I'll cry these tears alone,
And I'll wait until the day
You can come back home.
Feb 6, 2014
Feb 6, 2014 at 5:05 PM UTC
Who's that in the mirror
I'm not who I used to be
I can feel my ribs
Bear the bones
For all to see
I don't feel alive
I don't feel okay.
I've sat here counting silence
For all the words I couldn't say
Everything I am
Comes back up
Spills outta me
My dignity.
My dignity.
I don't want to be me
I want to be pretty.
Who's that in the mirror
I don't know anymore
I look in disgust
Run the water
And close the door.
I don't feel wanted
I don't have a care
I've spent all my time trying to find
A hope that isn't there
Everything I am
Comes back up
Spills outta me
My dignity.
My dignity.
I don't want to be me
I want to be pretty.
I hope they won't see me
Like I seem to see me
I hope they see me
The way I want me to be.
I don't want to be me
I want to be pretty.
Feb 6, 2014
Feb 6, 2014 at 5:03 PM UTC
Cuddled up by the fireside,
Just to see the sparkle in your eyes.
Ohh ohh ohh what a nice surprise.
And ohh I know,
It's a little past Christmas,
But I know,
Just what my wish is.
Fa la la la la
Fa la la la la la la
Lover, lover,
Take my hand.
It's almost dark,
Our midnight dance.
Lover, lover,
The winter wind,
Can't even freeze,
Our romance.
Waiting for the new year,
And I hope I've made things very clear.
Ohh ohh ohh I wanna be here.
And ohh I know,
It's a little past Christmas.
But I know,
Just what my wish is.
Fa la la la la
Fa la la la la la la
Lover, lover,
Take my hand.
It's almost dark,
Our midnight dance.
Lover, lover,
The winter wind,
Can't even freeze,
Our romance.
Fa la la la la
Fa la la la la la la
One thing is true,
I'd be lost without you.
One thing is true,
I'm so happy I've met you.
Fa la la la la
Fa la la la la la la
Feb 6, 2014
Feb 6, 2014 at 5:02 PM UTC
"When I was Growing Up"
Cocky boy, fresh of nineteen,
Kept his sense of power keen.
Muscular arms, sureful smile,
Every girl on his phone's speed dial.
"Hey Big Bro," his brother said,
"Come tuck me in, it's time for bed."
The boy just shrugged, saying "Do it yourself,
When I grew up, I didn't have help"
So he went to bed peacefully that night,
Without putting up much of a fight,
Pillow touching his bearded face,
Thoughts as far away as outer space.
"Wake up, wake up, it's time for school."
"Mom, I drive, you think I'm THAT uncool?"
"Get up now, you know you can't drive,
Only fifteen years you've been alive!"
He looked into the mirror, and then he saw,
He looked so young, and wasn't very tall.
His muscles gone, you could see his bones.
A Gameboy took the place of his phone.
As he began to get ready, his mom was still home.
"Son, you're too young to be here alone."
She packed up the lunch he normally fixed,
He looked in the mirror and now he was six.
Why is this happening? What's going on?
All the things he once had were now gone.
He tried to look in the mirror, but he was too short,
Now he sat in the living room, in a blanket fort.
His brother laughed, he was much older.
The boy was tiny, not even up to his shoulder.
Mom was outside getting into her Viper,
And he just realized, he'd wet his diaper.
An uncomfortable feeling, he begged to his brother,
"Please change my diaper, I don't see mother."
His brother replied, "Hey kid, tough luck,
I didn't have anyone help me when I grew up."
The boy was so helpless, in embarrassed dismay,
If his friends saw him now, what would they say?
He woke up, saw his brother, gave the mirror a stare,
Stroked the beard on his face and decided to care.
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"Color Me In"
My life was a dull gray,
A soft monotone.
Till you came into my life,
And gave part of your own.
The colors appeared to me,
One by One.
As you showed me their meaning,
My life had begun.
Color me red,
Of passion, of blood.
Show me the intensity,
Your love like a flood.
Color me orange,
Electric and fire.
To be with you truly,
Is the one thing I desire.
Color me yellow
Of sunshine so bright.
Keep me so warm,
And hide away the night.
Color me green,
Of natural beauty.
The forest could never match,
What you do to me.
Color me blue,
Of the ocean's high tide.
It's not as great as my love,
And not nearly as wide.
Color me purple,
Like flowers in the field.
This isn't a dream,
This time it's real.
In a world of black and grey,
Color seems so unreal.
It's like fantasy to me,
How you make me feel.
I'll paint you a picture,
To show what you've done.
No more black and white,
You gave me the sun.
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Dressed head to toe in army gear
He'd cut his hair and shaved his beard
He brushed the brown hair out of her face
For one more time, he'd get her taste
He looked at her for one last time
Neither wanted to say goodbye
So he held her there as long as he could
Saying baby i'll be alright
It felt as if she couldn't let go
But how would she know
If her baby was safe and if he was okay.
So that night she got on her knees and prayed
God, up in heaven.
Keep him safe and let him know
I'll be here waiting wherever he goes.
Help me grow and stay strong
Help these years not seem so long
I'll be okay here all alone
Until time for him to come back home.
He wrote to her from different places
Saying after seeing all these faces
I wish one could be yours.
I'm holding out over here,
But one things sure, I miss you dear,
My arms feel empty cause
This gun can't replace you.
She wrote to him
Scribbled out in pen
The words I love you
Please come back home.
And she prayed,
God, up in heaven.
Keep him safe and let him know
I'll be here waiting wherever he goes.
Help me grow and stay strong
Help these years not seem so long
I'll be okay here all alone
Until time for him to come back home
Three years passed, living in letters,
She was all grown up and changed for the better
About to check the mail when a car pulled in
A roughed up boy in army green
She couldn't believe what she'd seen
After all these years, he'd come home.
She wrapped her arms around that man
Saying I'll never let you leave again
He said, doll, don't worry,
He smiled, pulled a ring out
Said, baby this is what love is about,
Will you be my wife?
She didn't even have to think
Eyes filled up with tears and her cheeks turned pink
Like out of a book,
Her dream came true.
She didn't ever know what to do
But she kissed his lips and yes
And as she walked down the aisle in her dress,
She knew that he was home to stay
But she still remembered those nights she'd prayed
God, up in heaven.
Keep him safe and let him know
I'll be here waiting wherever he goes.
Help me grow and stay strong
Help these years not seem so long
I'll be okay here all alone
Until time for him to come back home
My baby's come back home
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"Daddy Why?"
Daddy, why'd you have to go.I sure would like to know Why you left mommy and me here alone.
Daddy why? Why'd you leave? Mommys on the floor crying And all I can do is grieve.
Daddy where'd you go?Won't you please tell me?Because that I don't know
Mommy wanted the pain to stop,Daddys racing time on the clock. Mommy wanted to be a better wife Now, Daddys fighting for his life.It makes me wonder where I stand,I just wish I could bring you home again.
Daddy, whats this I feel?I'm always sad, The pain is unreal.
Daddy, I know you hate it when I cry,But what do I do now?There's no one to wipe the tears from my eyes.
Daddy where are you?To find out I'd search the whole world through.
Mommy wanted the pain to stop,Daddys racing time on the clock. Mommy wanted to be a better wife Now, Daddys fighting for his life.It makes me wonder where I stand,I just wish I could bring you home again.
Daddy why? Eight years later I remember The day as I cry.
Daddy, is it true? Will you remember me?Cause I'll always remember you.
Mommy wanted the pain to stop,Daddys racing time on the clock. Mommy wanted to be a better wife Now, Daddys fighting for his life.It makes me wonder where I stand,I just wish I could bring you home again.
Feb 6, 2014
Feb 6, 2014 at 4:52 PM UTC
Storyline/Meaning: Marina is a beautiful young maiden in a town by the sea. Many suitors came from near and afar to win her heart, but she fell in love with a local sailor. Time came for him to once again voyage to sea, but he promised to return to her. Marina waited and waited but her sailor never came back. Finally, she heard the dreadful news that the ship had sunk in a severe storm. Unable to deal with the grief of her love's death, Marina threw herself into the waves, to join him once more. This is her haunting ballad.
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Little girl, don't cry tonight.
The oceans waves will hold you tight.
You've got a horizon ahead of you
You've got the sunshine in your view.
And if your off the beaten path,
Just leave behind your past.
And if you can't make it on your own,
Just Follow the stars,
they'll lead you back home
Little girl, just show your smile.
The sun will light this dreary isle.
The sailboats drifted here and apart.
As a sailor succeeds to win your heart.
And if your off the beaten path,
Just leave behind your past.
And if you can't make it on your own,
Just Follow the stars,
they'll lead you back home
Little girl, he'll come back.
His ship will keep him on track.
Months passed by with much to lose,
And then they brought the dreadful news
And if your off the beaten path,
Just leave behind your past.
And if you can't make it on your own,
Just Follow the stars,
they'll lead you back home
Little girl, gone so soon.
Lost in the tide, under the moon.
Love remains, it always stays.
Constant as the oceans waves
And if your off the beaten path,
Just leave behind your past.
And if you can't make it on your own,
Just Follow the stars,
they'll lead you back home
Feb 6, 2014
Feb 6, 2014 at 4:42 PM UTC