I'm angry.
I loved you, so consumingly
Yet, I wasn't enough for you.
You didn't believe that you deserved to be loved,
I don't blame you.
I know I am so much better without you
Yet, you still hold piece of me.
I'm angry that I can't fully release you.
I let you go in pieces and each time it hurts the same.
I want to hate you
How do you hate someone you loved so wholeheartedly?
I know you're not meant to be part of my life
So why does it still feel like you're missing from it?
I have never know your true feeling and that hurts worse,
Did I ever really know you?
Or did I love a version of you that never existed?
Maybe I never knew you.
Maybe the weight was too much for you.
Maybe you never loved me.
Maybe you loved me so much you had to walk away.
Maybe I should walk away.
Or maybe goodbye isn't final, and I'm still waiting for you to say hello.
Apr 19
Apr 19, 2026 at 12:59 PM UTC
My life changed the second I saw it.
5:30 am barely awake,
Routine check up "just to be safe"
No expectations.. it took a minute,
When those lines popped up
It didn't click.
What the ****
Is this even real?
No this can't be real, right?
Oh my God... My life is about to change.
Sadness, numbness. What the ****
Back in bed, he's still asleep.
Do I wake him?
No he needs to rest.
Okay wait, he's waking up.
Do I tell him right away?
My mind is spinning.
How am I pregnant?
We are so careful.
He's up, what do I do?
He notices my mind spiraling without me saying a word..
Can I tell you something?
I don't know if I should.
I just took the test.
And.....?
Dead silence.
You're pregnant?
What... the.... ****
You sure it's accurate?
Nah, that can't be accurate.
It's a fake positive. Must be.
Jokes on us, it's was real.
I've never experienced such confused emotions.
We are going to be parents....
Apr 19
Apr 19, 2026 at 12:58 PM UTC
Lily white,
regal dress,
floating down the aisle.
Suit and tie,
standing there,
waiting
to be mine.
In this moment,
I take thee
to be mine.
Our fates
sealed,
a faithful kiss.
Your body
and mine,
electric
and divine,
waiting,
anticipating
the dark of the night.
Locked eyes,
sly lips,
the tease—
an inevitable dance.
Breaths deepen,
Fingers linger.
In this crowded room,
it all just
disappears,
awaiting release.
Every vow
collides in a sacred dance,
leaving no space
between your breath
and mine—
as temples rise
to sing and worship
the love God shaped,
when two
become one.
Dec 11, 2025
Dec 11, 2025 at 9:54 PM UTC
I wish to never know a touch that isn’t yours,
or a presence not shaped by God for me.
May the warmth of your breath
tracing the back of my neck
haunt me all my days.
And in that longing,
let me kneel in the softness of devotion.
Let me wash your feet
and quiet the storms inside you.
May you find safety
in the home we build together.
And from that safety,
let our eyes meet in eternity.
Let your lips crave only mine.
Then commit your body and soul to mine.
Let us be undone,
lost in the bliss we’ve vowed to share.
Even in bliss,
I pray that distance never finds us,
and shadows never plague us.
For God knows
my heart will always be yours.
So if I surrender to love,
I surrender wholly
to the touch that steadies me.
I kneel in spirit
before the one
my soul calls home.
Nov 21, 2025
Nov 21, 2025 at 2:40 PM UTC