lh2012 - Hello Poetry

Your the ******* worst sometimes. If you want a family you shouldn't have started your career. You can't have both. ******* **** ***** ***** I wish I'd never met you Why am I still here. You don't care. All you do is lie to me. Get my hopes up and crush them. I wish you'd die. You're just like the others. All you do is hurt me Stop. Ignore. Remove the negative from those who can't see. You are beautiful. You are kind. Your love is deep and strong. You don't put up with **** Head up. Tears gone. You are the best you can be. Perfection

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Dec 8, 2016

Dec 8, 2016 at 2:42 AM UTC

lh2012

Perfection

Your the ******* worst sometimes. If you want a family you shouldn't have started your career. You can't have both. ******* **** ***** ***** I wish I'd never met you Why am I still here. You don't care. All you do is lie to me. Get my hopes up and crush them. I wish you'd die. You're just like the others. All you do is hurt me Stop. Ignore. Remove the negative from those who can't see. You are beautiful. You are kind. Your love is deep and strong. You don't put up with **** Head up. Tears gone. You are the best you can be. Perfection

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Why aren't you better. Why do you **** You said you were going to be a good wife. Yet here you are. Ruining the good. Flawed as you can be. He doesn't want you anymore But he's not going to say it. You share the same bed The house is both of yours Yet you never see each other When you do it's not sweet There's no cuddles There's no couple There's you And there's him Why do you do this Why do you **** It's not anything he did It's you. Bad luck.

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May 2, 2016

May 2, 2016 at 12:58 AM UTC

lh2012

You

Why aren't you better. Why do you **** You said you were going to be a good wife. Yet here you are. Ruining the good. Flawed as you can be. He doesn't want you anymore But he's not going to say it. You share the same bed The house is both of yours Yet you never see each other When you do it's not sweet There's no cuddles There's no couple There's you And there's him Why do you do this Why do you **** It's not anything he did It's you. Bad luck.

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The bruise you left upon my breast deep beneath my pallor skin, Always crawling deep within this living corpse of a body. The quick connect between the flesh. Crimson color fills the canvas each slam pooling it deeper. Windpipe restricted, held and released, gasping for air in a flush of pleasure. Pull you in deeper begging for more, I get propelled to the floor. Pressured down and turned around I get the brunt of your force. The aftermath is purple and blue yet I keep coming back for more. Its never enough just the once, I'm always aching for further abuse.

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Jul 16, 2015

Jul 16, 2015 at 12:32 AM UTC

lh2012

Cravings

The bruise you left upon my breast deep beneath my pallor skin, Always crawling deep within this living corpse of a body. The quick connect between the flesh. Crimson color fills the canvas each slam pooling it deeper. Windpipe restricted, held and released, gasping for air in a flush of pleasure. Pull you in deeper begging for more, I get propelled to the floor. Pressured down and turned around I get the brunt of your force. The aftermath is purple and blue yet I keep coming back for more. Its never enough just the once, I'm always aching for further abuse.

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****** it up. I’ve done it again I went against what I said I put myself first You don’t deserve this Nobody deserves this I feel nothing desirable You shouldn’t love me For some crazy reason You do still love me I can’t figure out why But I know that you do You show it in everything You give me pieces of you That no one else will ever see I was your wild card Your crazy out there jump You weren’t going to go for it And I pushed and you did Then I ****** it up I went behind you I didn’t think I put me out there first You had hurt me But I hurt you more It wasn’t intentional Now its remorse Why do I keep doing this I always fall back There’s no escape for me It’s always a **** up I’m good at those I ruin every good thing Like tornadoes in Oklahoma There’s nothing but destruction in my wake I feel sorry for the guys The ones that deal with this People I hurt People that trusted me I can’t keep doing this It pains you and I know it We’re never going to get back It will never be normal I ****** it all up It’s going to never go away. I’m sorry I loved you I’m sorry you trusted me Take a hint, it doesn’t get better It will only get worse It’s just how I am That’s all there is to it I’m good at ******** it up ******* people over I loathe that I do it But it’s just how I am Leave while you can Before I **** us over worse

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May 16, 2014

May 16, 2014 at 11:47 PM UTC

lh2012

Run.

****** it up. I’ve done it again I went against what I said I put myself first You don’t deserve this Nobody deserves this I feel nothing desirable You shouldn’t love me For some crazy reason You do still love me I can’t figure out why But I know that you do You show it in everything You give me pieces of you That no one else will ever see I was your wild card Your crazy out there jump You weren’t going to go for it And I pushed and you did Then I ****** it up I went behind you I didn’t think I put me out there first You had hurt me But I hurt you more It wasn’t intentional Now its remorse Why do I keep doing this I always fall back There’s no escape for me It’s always a **** up I’m good at those I ruin every good thing Like tornadoes in Oklahoma There’s nothing but destruction in my wake I feel sorry for the guys The ones that deal with this People I hurt People that trusted me I can’t keep doing this It pains you and I know it We’re never going to get back It will never be normal I ****** it all up It’s going to never go away. I’m sorry I loved you I’m sorry you trusted me Take a hint, it doesn’t get better It will only get worse It’s just how I am That’s all there is to it I’m good at ******** it up ******* people over I loathe that I do it But it’s just how I am Leave while you can Before I **** us over worse

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What am I to you? You go against everything you say to me. You say I’m perfect, You say you love me, You go back and I do all wrong. By all means, that’s fine. But your tact, you lack. You voice you want me to stay, Don’t want me to disappear But your actions and tone, The body says go. You push me away, Yet beg me to stay. I’m tied in knots trying to keep up This constant turmoil makes me sick. Over and under, around then back, The obstacle course is ridiculous, Near impossible to navigate. I need a map, an autopilot to get me home But that used to be you, You used to be there, catch me if I fall. Kept me from tears, being that safe haven I needed. And yet here we are, pure turmoil. We should have never argued. It would have been simple. All good things come to an end, Some clean, some a wreck. Stumbling into the wreck You claim you love me and will ne’er leave. Contrary you push me to go. So decide your stand. You don’t get both, choose It’s me… Or I’m gone.

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Mar 4, 2014

Mar 4, 2014 at 11:51 PM UTC

lh2012

Gone

What am I to you? You go against everything you say to me. You say I’m perfect, You say you love me, You go back and I do all wrong. By all means, that’s fine. But your tact, you lack. You voice you want me to stay, Don’t want me to disappear But your actions and tone, The body says go. You push me away, Yet beg me to stay. I’m tied in knots trying to keep up This constant turmoil makes me sick. Over and under, around then back, The obstacle course is ridiculous, Near impossible to navigate. I need a map, an autopilot to get me home But that used to be you, You used to be there, catch me if I fall. Kept me from tears, being that safe haven I needed. And yet here we are, pure turmoil. We should have never argued. It would have been simple. All good things come to an end, Some clean, some a wreck. Stumbling into the wreck You claim you love me and will ne’er leave. Contrary you push me to go. So decide your stand. You don’t get both, choose It’s me… Or I’m gone.

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How will I get home from here? Back to my sweet serenity I love so much Where does this stop Is there an end?? I feel like I’m falling down a spiraling shaft Plummeting to my death in the rocks below There’s no fix for this, at least it doesn’t feel like it… I need a hand, a strong place to be I need that glimmer of hope And out of nowhere…. I see it Tall, dark, and handsome just jumps in and saves me The spinning subsides; I can see walls and clear shapes He’s there and waiting- holding my hand till my head clears The dust settles, he pulls me in That warm embrace is all I feel A soft landing I’m looking for All the searching, all the heartache It can all stop now; I’ve got my safe haven My beach in a snowstorm, the moon in the dark night sky My strong tower that keeps me going Protecting me from the woes of evil Pushing me forward- urging me to continue I feel safe and happy I can relax, all is well, the spinning is over Forever more I can breathe

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Jan 24, 2014

Jan 24, 2014 at 12:18 AM UTC

lh2012

Safe Haven

How will I get home from here? Back to my sweet serenity I love so much Where does this stop Is there an end?? I feel like I’m falling down a spiraling shaft Plummeting to my death in the rocks below There’s no fix for this, at least it doesn’t feel like it… I need a hand, a strong place to be I need that glimmer of hope And out of nowhere…. I see it Tall, dark, and handsome just jumps in and saves me The spinning subsides; I can see walls and clear shapes He’s there and waiting- holding my hand till my head clears The dust settles, he pulls me in That warm embrace is all I feel A soft landing I’m looking for All the searching, all the heartache It can all stop now; I’ve got my safe haven My beach in a snowstorm, the moon in the dark night sky My strong tower that keeps me going Protecting me from the woes of evil Pushing me forward- urging me to continue I feel safe and happy I can relax, all is well, the spinning is over Forever more I can breathe

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It wasn’t long before I knew He wouldn’t stop and stare he would take your breath away His gaze would go through you Straight to your soul Like it was connected to you in a way that Nobody could control if they tried He wasn’t after anything in particular Just someone to hold Someone to love him He needed a hand, just an offer Say you’ll be there for him Actually follow through Don’t leave him there all alone You’ve been there, that’s been you in his shoes You know how it feels to be hurt Abandoned by all, hope and trust demolished You had no one to bring you back in So don’t shut down, open your arms Feel it with your soul Everything in you should be open to him He’s just like you on the inside Hurting, lost, abandoned… Be who you needed someone to be for you That one person you didn’t have Be his hope, his sun in the darkest of nights Don’t run. This isn’t about you. It’s about him Be selfless. He needs you to be there And God knows you need him too

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Jan 24, 2014

Jan 24, 2014 at 12:08 AM UTC

lh2012

Just Be

It wasn’t long before I knew He wouldn’t stop and stare he would take your breath away His gaze would go through you Straight to your soul Like it was connected to you in a way that Nobody could control if they tried He wasn’t after anything in particular Just someone to hold Someone to love him He needed a hand, just an offer Say you’ll be there for him Actually follow through Don’t leave him there all alone You’ve been there, that’s been you in his shoes You know how it feels to be hurt Abandoned by all, hope and trust demolished You had no one to bring you back in So don’t shut down, open your arms Feel it with your soul Everything in you should be open to him He’s just like you on the inside Hurting, lost, abandoned… Be who you needed someone to be for you That one person you didn’t have Be his hope, his sun in the darkest of nights Don’t run. This isn’t about you. It’s about him Be selfless. He needs you to be there And God knows you need him too

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It cuts like a knife Knowing you’re gone from me I hate the fact That we had to go thru like this It’s not fair to us Nor to anyone else We fit perfect Just like a glove All I wanted was to hold you close Just feel you breathe And before we got the chance We had to stop It pulls me in two The idea that the late nights Are gone for good I can’t stand that silence You’re gone from me… That’s all there is to it I have to accept it But I don’t want to It hurts you too Probably more than I know But I don’t want to go I want to stay here with you I put my music on repeat Just listening to you sing That same old cover Burning straight to my soul Ripping my heart Straight into pieces I feel it shatter Hear it hit the ground hard My entire body aches for you The void is where you were And won’t be any longer And I hate it I just want you back I want those calls I need that security I just don’t like it No I hate it I hate it all I miss you baby That’s never going to change I’m always going to love you That’s never going to leave

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Jan 15, 2014

Jan 15, 2014 at 10:40 PM UTC

lh2012

I Hate This

It cuts like a knife Knowing you’re gone from me I hate the fact That we had to go thru like this It’s not fair to us Nor to anyone else We fit perfect Just like a glove All I wanted was to hold you close Just feel you breathe And before we got the chance We had to stop It pulls me in two The idea that the late nights Are gone for good I can’t stand that silence You’re gone from me… That’s all there is to it I have to accept it But I don’t want to It hurts you too Probably more than I know But I don’t want to go I want to stay here with you I put my music on repeat Just listening to you sing That same old cover Burning straight to my soul Ripping my heart Straight into pieces I feel it shatter Hear it hit the ground hard My entire body aches for you The void is where you were And won’t be any longer And I hate it I just want you back I want those calls I need that security I just don’t like it No I hate it I hate it all I miss you baby That’s never going to change I’m always going to love you That’s never going to leave

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Water to ice Coals to fire It goes from one Straight to the other One gets colder The other hotter As soon as it hits The turning point. At first it’s real hot Then it turns icy No indication of when We get into fights We settle our squalls I always give in, You never relent. You’re like the ice Cold and unchanging I’m like the fire Always getting hotter Why we can’t compromise I’ll never understand We just keep fighting Never letting up There is no compromise For the soul of discontent The fighting continues Week after week I try not to let it Affect all other parts But it’s not just one thing It’s a whole with you I can’t figure it out It never stays the same It’s always something Not ever nothing So I have to decide I have to choose It’s you or myself Because this is a zoo

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Oct 21, 2013

Oct 21, 2013 at 10:54 PM UTC

lh2012

Hot to Cold

Water to ice Coals to fire It goes from one Straight to the other One gets colder The other hotter As soon as it hits The turning point. At first it’s real hot Then it turns icy No indication of when We get into fights We settle our squalls I always give in, You never relent. You’re like the ice Cold and unchanging I’m like the fire Always getting hotter Why we can’t compromise I’ll never understand We just keep fighting Never letting up There is no compromise For the soul of discontent The fighting continues Week after week I try not to let it Affect all other parts But it’s not just one thing It’s a whole with you I can’t figure it out It never stays the same It’s always something Not ever nothing So I have to decide I have to choose It’s you or myself Because this is a zoo

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It's a love hate Crazy kinda thing Love you like crazy Hate your decisions You are amazing Sharp as a tack Cuddly as a kitten And full of surprises But you choose so crazy Hunting on holidays Missing family events Disappearing mysteriously You run to Ozona Just for a buck You come home all mopey Cause you missed me alot Once and a while that's fine with me But give me a chance To get us in too Its love hate I love you I hate them They pull us apart From where we are They try to divide us So we fight a lot You pick them Over me I thought I was with you Not all of them They push me out And you don't care There's too many battles That rage in your head Me or them Choose? I wont make you Trust issues Even abandonment scar your insides So you constantly hurt I'm not her though I won't go I stay till you say To go far away You don't believe Trust is hard Keep me in mind See how it goes I back you up No matter what I don't question you Like you interrogate me So its still love hate I love you yes But I hats the way That everything else is first.

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May 27, 2012

May 27, 2012 at 11:06 PM UTC

lh2012

Love/Hate

It's a love hate Crazy kinda thing Love you like crazy Hate your decisions You are amazing Sharp as a tack Cuddly as a kitten And full of surprises But you choose so crazy Hunting on holidays Missing family events Disappearing mysteriously You run to Ozona Just for a buck You come home all mopey Cause you missed me alot Once and a while that's fine with me But give me a chance To get us in too Its love hate I love you I hate them They pull us apart From where we are They try to divide us So we fight a lot You pick them Over me I thought I was with you Not all of them They push me out And you don't care There's too many battles That rage in your head Me or them Choose? I wont make you Trust issues Even abandonment scar your insides So you constantly hurt I'm not her though I won't go I stay till you say To go far away You don't believe Trust is hard Keep me in mind See how it goes I back you up No matter what I don't question you Like you interrogate me So its still love hate I love you yes But I hats the way That everything else is first.

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