In the beginning it was beautiful, Every day so romantic, Thanking God for sending me such an amazing human being. But seasons change and people forget what they proclaimed.
Waiting for your phone call even though it never came. I can't make you love me the way you did before. Your love is confusing yet tantalizing. Like a drug I keep going and screaming your name.
To stay with you is a pattern but for some It's a pattern of disbelief. I don't even blame them because I struggle to plan even the simplest of things. Let alone thinking I'm in love with the commander in chief.
Make up your mind. I want you. I hate you. I don't love you. This is a danger zone. I'm crazy over you but despise everything about you. You're down for the ride but we both are not ready for a lifetime.
Who cares right? Rollercoasters have their highs and lows and still are lots of fun. Love is not set by definition but the way you make me feel. So I guess if I'm happy for a short time It's better than being sad till the end of time.
Jan 19, 2018
Jan 19, 2018 at 8:59 AM UTC
Hold me in your arms and just whisper
No sound just the sound of the candle flicker
It feels different this time
I don't feel like you're really mine
'I Love You' is just a big lie
You just want to see me beg and cry
I used to think it was fine
Until you took all my might and shine
You heard it through the grape vine
That I wasn't loyal
But it wasn't me this time
I can definitely see the signs
Oct 8, 2017
Oct 8, 2017 at 4:56 AM UTC
It’s the same routine,
Why haven’t you done this?
Why haven’t you done that?
But then I have to remind myself
THEY are not me,
THEY are not living for my dream.
Easy to judge,
Because THEY don’t know my story.
Easy to criticise,
When the people you know give you all the glory.
But yet THEY bring me down,
Put yourself in my shoes and stop being so mean.
Same thing everyday,
But attempted every single different way,
Trying to get noticed,
But somehow always rejected.
Finally feel like you see progression,
THEY are praying that you don't get the attention.
Focus on yourself,
And where you want to be,
THEY should never affect you or your self-esteem.
Not pretty enough to model,
Not smart enough to teach,
Just know that you are good enough to me.
You can do anything you want,
And be anything you want to be.
You may not be the best you at this time,
But I promise you THEY will notice you.
And THEY will realise it was all apart of your scheme.
Oct 8, 2017
Oct 8, 2017 at 4:23 AM UTC
They always say that the good ones go first,
But the question I struggle to understand is why?
Why did you have to leave? Why now? Why so early?
But we can never answer questions like that you see
Always wondering if this life will ever be fair and kind
Losing someone you love is unbearable and painful
So painful that you wish you could fly away with them
Wait for me.. please don’t go
But you can’t hear my call
Because you are already settled in your new home
While I’m stuck down here
With the crazies, racists, sexists misogynists
Why would you leave me here?
You took the best thing that I ever had
I know the fight was hard
But I wish the fight was just a little longer
Just so I could tell you how much I love you
And now I don’t know what to do
There’s no one to pick up my tears
And turn them into butterflies
No one to tell me everything will be okay
I can’t say that he was being selfish when he whisked you away
But don’t you think It’s funny
He chose you out of everyone else
And that made me realise why the good ones go first
Because you was too perfect
Too perfect to be sitting here with me
Only angels know the meaning
And one day I’ll be waiting for the day
Waiting for the day, so you can tell me why?
R.I.P Uncle Pat
Oct 7, 2017
Oct 7, 2017 at 3:53 PM UTC
Standing up peering over the window ledge
It’s hard to look down
But yet I feel as though it was meant to be
The only thing is I still feel there is no, perpetual bliss.
Just a life leading in the same path
Leading to nowhere, but everywhere
Wandering whether it’s me or not
Accepting me for me
But who am I?
Trapped in this vicious cycle
No one is looking but I feel them staring
I just want to hide
Hide away from it all
But I just can’t find the right way to do it
Slowly drifting into a world of false hope
Being comforted with words of love they say
But it’s not the same when these same words,
Are leaving these lips of mine
My body, mind … It’s hard to talk about it
I feel as though everything I’ve been told is a lie
They say don’t look into the light,
But I got blinded by the light
and ended up being wrapped in the most comforting wings
Sent from heaven above
I’m finally home
Oct 7, 2017
Oct 7, 2017 at 3:51 PM UTC
Little black girl don’t cry,
They just don’t understand your grace.
Too scared to try and give you an embrace,
Because the media have taught you to hate your face.
Curly hair and plump lips,
They wish they looked like you so don’t feel dismissed.
I know It’s hard sometimes to wake up with a smile,
But baby girl you’re something worthwhile.
Little black girl don’t cry,
If they appropriate and take your style.
Doesn’t mean you still cant shine with that beautiful skin,
So reflective that the sun can’t help but compliment your melanin.
They say you’ve got that black girl magic,
But drag you down when you try and project what you want to say.
Have you noticed that you get more attention when you wear that swimsuit,But not in that cultural garment because it is too empowering and not subtle like a flute.
Little black girl don’t cry,
When they point at you and laugh.
Dignity is what we were born with
and unfortunately it can never be taught.
We are strong, powerful and so full of prosperity,
that we will always have the last laugh.
From one stereotype to another,
Life can be nothing but trouble.
But from one black girl to another,
Keep slaying like no other.
Stay bright like the star you are,
They only see darkness in our appearance because they cannot fathom the indescribable.
Your skin tone is the beauty they refuse to see,
But don’t you dare let it be the reason you cry yourself to sleep
Because little black girl you are a beautiful sight to see!
Oct 7, 2017
Oct 7, 2017 at 2:05 PM UTC