"Behind the doors of Silence
I'm the tree that's never Grown
I'm the prisoner of your Pauses
I'm the ball that's never Thrown
The captive of your Caution
There is ice between my Teeth
I've wandered down the twisted Way
Where all the fences Meet."
May 20, 2020
May 20, 2020 at 9:54 AM UTC
We are these hunger driven monsters
We are these broken vessels that consume our body
Our desperate conscious tells us the things we beg not to hear.
The wonder of the mind
So extraordinary
So powerful.
The thoughts that turn into reality and the so called endless time slips away to a close.
The life we dreamed of washes of with every breath we take and every step we make
We realize how unclear we really are
No plans or hacks that we believed we had for our lives truly let alone nearly comes close to ever becoming a reality.
We are told once again the things we wished wouldn't be told.
May 20, 2020
May 20, 2020 at 9:43 AM UTC
Here's a little of what i see of society...
We continue in our loneliness, telling others how we hate it,
how much we want to change,
we cry every night praying to God that He will fill the emptiness inside of us;
bring someone along and take away out loneliness,
but DEEP DEEP inside our taunted we crave this so called loneliness,
this isolation we put ourselves in. The waves of emotion hits us hard and with each they get STRONGER and STRONGER,
weakening our desperate bodies,
ripping our skin from off our backs.
We stand there.
Waiting for it to hit us, begging it to hit us harder.
To tare us apart.
This loneliness all will feel sometime on our line of string, will either be declined or welcomed with arms wide open.
We tell each other how much we despise of it, but yet we do not know the TRUTH.
May 20, 2020
May 20, 2020 at 9:35 AM UTC
Father/Daughter
Half/Quarter
Split them apart
Break them apart
Stamp on them hard
Until they shatter
Beat them hard
And He can never hurt me again
May 20, 2020
May 20, 2020 at 9:23 AM UTC
I will watch my ways
and keep my tongue from the delights of this world.
I will put a muzzle on my mouth
as long as she dwells within.
Show me, my life's end
and the number of my days.
Each mans life is but a breath
man is a mere phantom as he goes to and fro;
He bustles about, but only in vain.
Your invasion consumes me
You rebuke and discipline me
You **** every last breath out of me.
Slowly trapping me, until i become no more.
Look away from me, that i may rejoice again
before i depart and am no more.
May 20, 2020
May 20, 2020 at 9:19 AM UTC
Blinded
Lame
And brain washed
Your love for me is everything
Your touch sends shivers down my spine
And your presence lingers endlessly...
Jul 18, 2019
Jul 18, 2019 at 11:22 PM UTC
Looking in the mirror is like a death wish
A glimor of hope before the horrid thoughts cime floading in
Screaming at the top of their lungs.
And the tears rush to the surface as I pinch my skin
Grabbing it tight
Pulling at it with all my might
Wishing
Wanting for it all to dissapear just like myself
As i slowly turn and turn that small glimor of hope gone
Flushed away by the rotton words that captivate my body
Screamimg for me to
"STOP EATING"
I walk away woth a heavy heart sinking down to the lowest part of me
Hiding away frim anyone
Ignoring every word spoken to me.
My mind
My body
My whole being has been captured by those fithly words and throughts which are tormenting me and eating me alive
Without a word
Or
A thought i move on frim the plate of fruit and the bowl of chocolates
Swinging with a heart heavy,
Yet filled with nothing
I act like it has no effect on me
Like it doesnt hurt at all
Aug 15, 2018
Aug 15, 2018 at 3:01 AM UTC
You obliterate my central sun
And i hate and fear you for it
Every moment with you is fraught with my anxiety
Of failure and disappointment
To be who you want me to be
To say what you want me to say
You don't remember you have a daughter.
You never see my pain.
You see yourself.
Dec 26, 2017
Dec 26, 2017 at 5:09 AM UTC
I return to the cold hallways i once remained.
I swallowed the tasteless pill of depression
And sunck deep with her warm embrace.
So far into the wasteland
Diving into the stark blinded sight i now see though.
I don't know how to get though my sadness
My pain
My unplaced love.
My ears cannot hear
My eyes can't see
My mouth cannot speak
And my mind cannot tell the truth.
How am i ment to continue on?
How can anyone.
But i do not chose death
Nor do i chose life.
Dec 25, 2017
Dec 25, 2017 at 5:06 AM UTC
You can't have me in the good times and leave me when i need you the most.
I stood there by your side when you needed me.
I ****** you over one to many times Yes.
Leaving me isn't a big enough punishment.
That's saying goodbye forever.
Dec 2, 2017
Dec 2, 2017 at 11:13 PM UTC