bloodied water,
dosent clean how it should
my mothers daughter
Grew up no good.
without her father
misunderstood
She did what she wanted
She did what she could
made friends with the waters
Cut all firewood
But still, she was missing
her joyful childhood
So she chose one day
to grow up twice as fast
to forget all her sorrow
and leave it in the past
goodbye joyful fun
goodbye question "why"
because im older now!
and i want to die.
Apr 7
Apr 7, 2026 at 2:15 PM UTC
Ever so quiet,
The silence breaks my heart in two,
afraid that if I try it
The silence wil break your heart too
I told you I'd be there,
in a minute or a few
shedding tears,
kneeling,
praying to god,
here at the pew
let silence grow to sound,
let my knees grow to the ground,
But please don't let the heart i love,
do anything more than pound.
Apr 7
Apr 7, 2026 at 1:08 PM UTC
falling to the floor,
feeling coldness to my skin.
throwing up every day,
i let the drugs win.
losing weight rapidly,
convinced its not a sin.
smoking cigs and burning,
holes into my skin.
sleeping in the bubble bath,
overflowing laundry bin,
simple little reminders,
of the game i cannot win.
Apr 6
Apr 6, 2026 at 9:45 PM UTC
losing patience,
losing time,
losing sleep,
losing my mind
isolated,
strong silence,
preparing to depart,
complicated,
conversations,
ones that break my heart
acceptance,
unwillingly,
takes its toll on me,
blood filling up my eyes,
I try so hard to see
mistakes are made,
paths are crossed,
abuse lies deep within,
hearts of evil,
hearts of hate,
the hearts of those who've sinned.
Apr 6
Apr 6, 2026 at 4:55 PM UTC
My blood on solid concrete,
stains rocks I
once walked on
My tears recently fallen,
wilt flowers
in the shade
My success well earned,
is sabotaged,
by me alone
My feet lead me elsewhere,
places I
don't belong
And still I question
Why the world is so ugly.
Apr 2
Apr 2, 2026 at 5:58 PM UTC
losing a year to the things I now fear, the type of things that make murky water look clear. The things that relieved me, for a short period of time, are the same things that made me feel like I was losing my mind. the things that tended to numb, my achy little pains, the things that made me personalized shackles and chains. If I had been asked my name, I'd say I forgot. These things are addictive, so try not to get caught. caught in the cycle of using bad things, because addiction is painful and is caused by these things
Mar 30
Mar 30, 2026 at 5:43 PM UTC
I just turned five, and I'm as curious as can be!
I just turned eight, and I'm full of energy!
I just turned ten, I'm so excited to be me!
But now I'm fifteen, and I'm addicted to smoking tree,
trying different types of drugs,
methamphetamine,
taken into custody,
and trying hard to flee,
learning what is right and wrong,
and all that's in between.
Living on the streets and learning how to live unseen.
Homeless shelters, jail cells,
places I no longer want to be.
Working towards the life I lost,
my home, my family. Occasional visits now and then,
that help my recovery.
Every day, I seem to learn
a neater strategy.
To fill the hole that's in my heart,
praying god will hear my plea,
I'm stronger than I once was,
I'm strong enough to be set free.
Mar 30
Mar 30, 2026 at 4:51 PM UTC