i remember this so well
i remember this feeling
i remember this place so well
feel my heart giving up on me
im worried about more than today or tomorrow
im worried this might be forever
i still worry more about you
and i am here in pieces
i'm sorry again
i told you i would love you
i did then and now
i'm sorry i can't anymore
Feb 7, 2015
Feb 7, 2015 at 11:10 AM UTC
tonight i felt your hands shake
i saw your eyes close
and i felt your heart ache
i love you.
please believe me.
i promise we will be okay.
Feb 1, 2015
Feb 1, 2015 at 12:19 AM UTC
darlin do you ever think of the day we both have to move away
darlin do you ever think of the day you'll stop lovin my ways
Jan 27, 2015
Jan 27, 2015 at 8:19 AM UTC
i've only written about you and i for awhile
since i started to allow myself to love you.
i've only thought about you and i for awhile.
you are every good part of my days
every smudged line of my ways
please don't promise me anything
like that you'll stick around
Jan 27, 2015
Jan 27, 2015 at 8:18 AM UTC
the first to hold my hand
the first to kiss my lips
to brush away my hair
and look into my eyes
the first to love me deeply
truly, to love me without commas
to map out and memorize the freckles and lines of my face
to look at me with gentle and soft eyes
the first that i loved so deeply
with an aching in my heart.
Jan 27, 2015
Jan 27, 2015 at 2:16 AM UTC
i loved you quietly for years.
i didn't know i loved you or how much in fact that i was in love with you.
i should have guessed
when i started feeling dizzy when you would walk in a room.
or when my heart would skip a beat or two when you looked my way.
i should have guessed when i thought so hard for so long
about the moments our paths would cross.
and no matter how many times i told myself to look at you, to face you
my head bowed down at the second we would brush by each other
a habitual action of fear
of missing you and refusing to look at the face of lost love
now i see how much energy was put into holding myself back from loving you
and it makes sense as to why it was so difficult
i forced myself to look away from your speckled green eyes
i told myself not to love you, never to allow myself to love you.
Jan 27, 2015
Jan 27, 2015 at 2:09 AM UTC
you wouldn't believe me that some moments are so empty.
some moments i feel so completely empty.
and i can't tell you but
Jan 14, 2015
Jan 14, 2015 at 10:19 PM UTC
it's the first thing you think of in the morning.
slowly open your eyes, roll over and wrap your head in your arms feeling embarrassed, laughing at yourself, thinking of how incredibly ridiculous you are for being this way. in the quiet moments you imagine his laugh and speckled green eyes. in the busy moments you force yourself to slow down. quietly sing the songs that remind you of him to feel calm. sing them all day over and over. until the words speak the truth of your days as if they already coincidentally hadn't. in the city, wonder if he is right for you. in the country, wonder if you are enough for him. at night, wonder if you were beautiful enough tonight. in the morning, wonder if you were true enough.
Jan 11, 2015
Jan 11, 2015 at 9:57 AM UTC
your kiss hit me around 1:03 a.m.
your eyes rushed to me just after 1:30.
your laughed itched my heart past 2 am
your smile still lingers through my head all afternoon.
i consistently feel incredibly close and far from you.
but i know you've forgotten.
most of it.
our years keep me awake almost every night.
Dec 27, 2014
Dec 27, 2014 at 12:11 AM UTC
there is a time for silence
and there is a time for words
there is a time to wonder
and a time to wish
there is a time to love
and there is a time to let go
i always know when my heart wants to go
and hear the subtle silence of sadness.
where are the crooks and crannies of this love?
that leaves me fiddling my fingers, leaves me in wonder
there isn't a time to leave you
like this
i feel an unsettling feeling
there is never a time to leave you
Dec 26, 2014
Dec 26, 2014 at 11:55 PM UTC