Sometimes i force myself to cry,
so i don't drown in my emotions.
I pity myself until i am tired ,
then the nightmares come,
i dream of betraying you.
I haven't forgave myself.
I did not forget.
I was too young to understand,
the things i have done,
and what they meant.
I would never do it again,
never look the other way.
The words i say i will keep,
until God takes me away.
Will it ever be enough?
The life i'm willing to give to you?
Will my love be able,
for us to live this through?
Dec 21, 2019
Dec 21, 2019 at 11:37 AM UTC
i want to write my pain out,
but it won't drip through my pen
it's been stuck there for five years,
a rotting clot inside my head.
Dec 21, 2019
Dec 21, 2019 at 11:14 AM UTC
Who are the people who decide what is the beauty?
Who is the person who made suicides trend?
Who picks the standards for how i should dress?
Who chose the right amout of food i should eat?
Who says i should be as everyone else
And why are everyone turning that way?
Thank you but i have peace of my own mind, and i won't listen what you say.
Apr 18, 2018
Apr 18, 2018 at 7:40 PM UTC
Nautilius is ready,
prepared as it can be,
searching for the lost Atlantis,
drowned in deep blue sea.
Jan 13, 2018
Jan 13, 2018 at 4:18 PM UTC
there is someone in my mirror,
someone i know well.
its bones are cracked
but it feels no pain.
its lips are black
and eyes are gray.
every now and then
it tries to escape,
it breaks the glass
and cuts its face.
and when we met
it had new scars,
that never hurt,
and never bled.
it counts my words
and then goes mad,
if my hairs are not
perfect on my head.
it tells me where
it tells me when,
and then goes mad
if i don't obey.
it wakes me up
to check the door,
and then goes mad
if it's locked once.
it moans and cries
if i knock three times,
instead of four
which is fine.
it whispers softly
when i walk,
to make sure
my steps are all
carefully counted
four.
Nov 11, 2017
Nov 11, 2017 at 7:04 PM UTC
Memories go missing,
our smiles get broken,
we leave on purpose,
some words unspoken.
Nov 11, 2017
Nov 11, 2017 at 4:58 PM UTC
Dear daughter of mine,
i want to thank you,
for all the wonderful things,
that you have taught me.
Thank you for the sticky
chocolate kisses , the necklace
made of pasta and dental floss, for all
the hand made cards and flowers picked from my garden.
you made me remember the way i was,
the way i danced in my room unhurt by the world,
the way i was falling in love with people i shouldn't,
the way i felt like the whole world was under my feet.
Oh deer daughter of mine,
i hope you stay the way you are,
my little girl with no worries and no pain,
with big mouth but with nothing smart to say.
I wish you the love that lasts forever ,
i want you to have a safe and loving home,
with good friends, and people who care,
i want you to feel the most wonderful things.
i wish for you to know what happiness means,
and that sometimes it comes only after pain.
I want you to know that everything has a price,
that you will eventually have to pay.
You'll learn that love is the most expensive thing,
and the cost is your time and commitment ,
And i will teach you everything i can and know,
for the rest, i am sorry, but honey, you must do it on your own.
I wish you to be the best person you can
you have a lifetime of decisions that you'll have to make
so don't hurry to grow up, stay sweet as long as you can.
Nov 11, 2017
Nov 11, 2017 at 6:09 AM UTC
Light the fire in my chests,
so i can depart from the pain.
Burn feelings that i have suppressed
before you even came.
Nov 10, 2017
Nov 10, 2017 at 4:09 PM UTC
Our lips will fuse,
As our hearts collide.
You promised me love,
until the end of time.
The calculus was wrong,
because it did not explain,
How interstellar distance
is not that far away.
Nov 10, 2017
Nov 10, 2017 at 3:55 PM UTC