I can't believe how amazing you are. You're the only person who's made me feel this special in a long time [delete]
are you sure you just want to be 'friends', I think I'm in love with you [delete]
can I have a goodbye kiss? I love your kisses, they taste like summer [delete]
I wish you would just say "Hi" to me in the hallways [delete]
that girl you always walk with is beautiful, I can understand why you didn't want me [delete]
when you told me I was beautiful and **** and all you would ever want, was that all a lie too? [delete]
I got a mosquito bite today and it reminded me of when we slept outside and were attacked by them [delete]
it smells like the nights we spent together [delete]
one, two, three...I've lost count of how many drinks are for you [delete]
I wish you thought about me as much as I think of you [delete]
why are your words stuck in my head [delete]
I was naive and young, I'm sorry I actually thought you loved me [delete]
it's been months since the summer nights we spent together. please tell me you miss me. [delete]
my chest hurts. my heart aches. everything about you from the way your lips tasted to how I got chills down my spine from just one touch makes me want to explode [delete]
the blood running down my wrist contains the words you said but never meant [delete]
May 19, 2014
May 19, 2014 at 10:54 AM UTC
For that one sentence
We write hundreds of pages
We wait millions of seconds
To experience that one moment of bliss
May 4, 2014
May 4, 2014 at 10:36 AM UTC
i say
that you are like the sunset
you think that i say it
because you're beautiful
but it's because
you're always saying
goodbye
May 4, 2014
May 4, 2014 at 10:36 AM UTC
I will stand in petals
torn from blooms
and hope with all I've got
that someday soon
my heart will heal
and I will love you not.
May 4, 2014
May 4, 2014 at 10:34 AM UTC
You may be gone, but you're still here
You're the first rays of sunshine I see in the morning
You're the coffee that wakes me up in the morning
You're the colours of the vivid flowers that grow outside
I see you in everything wonderful, while I know you don't see me at all
May 4, 2014
May 4, 2014 at 10:32 AM UTC
1. Stop trying to remember his scent, he smelled like summer and reminds you of the time he made you laugh so hard, you snorted out milk on that dead, hazy day.
2. Don't waste your day trying to decipher what colour his eyes were, it'll only remind you of the galaxies and constellations that you once saw in his eyes
3. Stop trying to retrace the shape of his mouth in the middle of the night, you'll choke on your tongue trying to taste the mint he devoured seconds before pulling you in for a kiss
4. Stop reliving the times you clasped hands together, the glass plate will fall off your trembling hands.
5. Burn this list, admit that the galaxies and constellations shining in his eyes were wilted, the one in yours are bursting with fire. Remember on the dead, hazy day his laugh sounded like nails running down a chalkboard. Remember when you kissed, the weeds growing from his mouth entangled the roses blooming in yours.
Realize that one day, another boy is going to come and plant daisies where he left behind thorns.
May 4, 2014
May 4, 2014 at 10:32 AM UTC
sometimes i wonder
if the world i live in
is one i made up in my head
that exists only for me
and if that’s true
i don’t mind
because the world i’ve created
is filled with madness
but the best madness i’ve created for myself
is you
May 2, 2014
May 2, 2014 at 11:06 AM UTC
You are not lost.
You are not irreversibly damaged.
You are not irreparably broken.
You are not bound by fear.
And as long as we are alive, we will not be afraid to live!
Quit letting your counselor try to dig up reasons from your childhood to justify why you're damaged.
Maybe we are damaged, but maybe blaming the people who ****** us over will only lead to a life of bitterness and revenge seeking.
Yes, we are hurt!
Yes, we are young and yes, we are lonely but as long as we are alive, we will not be afraid to live!
Quit letting your church make you feel broken.
Maybe we are a little cracked in places, but those pieces are still glued together by the blood that beats in our hearts.
We are whole!
We are a living art with flaws and chips in our armor and scars that line our arms but as long as we are alive, we will not be afraid to live!
Quit letting your parents tell you that you've lost your way.
No, we haven't lost our way!
We are still here!
We are drunk on hope but as long as we are alive, we will not be afraid to be live!
Quit letting your society make you feel like you can't do the things you want to because of the fear that it has places on you.
Maybe we are a little scared, but maybe that terror is only there to remind us that there are things more important than fear.
Be scared!
Be horrified on the days when you feel your disorder is stronger than you,
and gawk at how your hands shake when you kiss your lover even though you'd break your mother's heart if she knew you were gay;
because as long as we are alive, we will not be afraid to be live!
Keep getting drunk!
Keep kissing the wrong person!
Keep cursing under your breath when you're forced to sit through a 2 hour church service!
Keep rolling your eyes at that teacher that you know is secretly a racist!
Keep making the same mistakes over and over and over again,
but as long as we are alive, we will not be afraid to live!
So what if you really, really hate pets?
So what if you just can't seem to take the public school education system seriously?
So what if you can't seem to wrap your mind around a God who is supposed to love us, but is cruel enough to put us through all of the world's awful antics?
So what you secretly cannot stand spending time with your grandparents?
So what that Christmas is the worst time of the year for you?
So what if you have trouble getting out of bed or looking people in the eye?
So what if your hands shake when there isn't a cigarette between your fingers?
So what if you just can't quit watching gay **** even though you swear you're straight?
What does any of that mean to you, anyway?
What does how you choose to live your life mean?
What do the little quirks and the bad habits and the curses that have been cast upon you mean?
It means that you are living.
It means that there are billions of coffins buried six feet under piles of dirt and bugs, with crumbling tombstones that do not have your name engraved on them.
It means there are billions of breathing humans that are buried under society's rules and expectations and standards, that have their names engraved on office cubicles and restaurant name tags.
It means there are billions of dead people in cemetery's and there are billions of dead men walking, but you are not one of them.
And as long as we are alive, we will not be afraid to live!
You are not bound by fear.
You are not irreparably broken.
You are not irreversibly damaged.
You are not lost -
you have found yourself here, in this poem.
And as long as we are alive, we will not be afraid to live!
Apr 28, 2014
Apr 28, 2014 at 8:38 AM UTC
Sleeping alone does a strange things to us,
and the dark distorts our view.
**So don't believe the things you tell yourself so late at night
because none of it is true**.
Apr 28, 2014
Apr 28, 2014 at 8:33 AM UTC