I sail around my island of darkness,
There’s something about this stream.
A way of circling round and round,
That soil being gloomily themed.
When I come closer to the land,
I can hear the wind speaking subdued.
“This is the home you are longing for,
This is safe, pleasant, warm and good.”
I could have control over there,
And let my thoughts rule the land.
But to be a ruler of my own body,
There’s still suicide I’ll have to withstand.
After endless circles of sailing,
Around my island of the grasping past.
I now go look for inhabited land,
Where my warming hand is waiting at last.
Mar 8, 2020
Mar 8, 2020 at 3:19 PM UTC
I’m dragged by the Devil
Holding back my tears
He’s killing me slowly
Drowning me in fear
Fear is the rope
Dangling around my neck
While he holds me
I can’t fight back
He is the stone
On my leg trying to swim
I can feel my lungs burn
As the water runs in
He is the salt
In my wounds as i slide
And how he’d yell
If I would have cried
He is the voice
That let my ears bleed
“You are so wrong”
Is what he screamed
He is a reminder
Of everything I do wrong
Hell is the place
Where I think I belong
He is the Joker
The Sinner and Satan
Incubating nightly
On his evil plan
I hate him but won’t
I love him but don’t
I’d **** him but can’t
I’d live but can’t stand
The Devil’s power
The everlasting pain
I’m done fighting for life
It’s not in my veins
Mar 2, 2020
Mar 2, 2020 at 3:41 PM UTC
Let me see your scars,
Let me drop a healing tear,
Like a happy ending story,
You believed was never here.
Lead me through your thoughts,
Leave me on your pillow,
I’ll fight your demons,
Flashbacks and nightly sorrows.
Please, let me help you,
Together we’ll make baby steps,
I’ll be there to hold you,
When you’ll make your own next.
Let me hold your hands,
Let me warm your frozen heart,
I’ll be always there for you,
Even death won’t tear us apart.
Mar 2, 2020
Mar 2, 2020 at 1:00 PM UTC
Goodbye, my truest thought,
This is where I‘m running,
And you are getting caught.
Goodbye to warming hands,
This is becoming the heat,
Which I can no longer stand.
Goodbye, my beloved drug,
This is our blood bond ending,
No more kisses, no more hugs.
Goodbye to you and I,
This is were I realise,
This brain, body and life is mine.
Goodbye, my dearest friend,
This is where not mine,
But your existence ends.
Mar 2, 2020
Mar 2, 2020 at 12:54 PM UTC
My time has come
My tears are dried
After I cut through
The knot I tied
My time has come
After drowning in pain
I now use the knowledge
That I have gained
My time has come
My eyes are shining
From everywhere around me
My future is signing
My time has come
After being a disguise
My true inner self
Will finally rise
My time has come
I am happy now
Mar 2, 2020
Mar 2, 2020 at 6:52 AM UTC
Mum told me a story
Before I went to bed
That I will remember
‘Till my day of death
It’s about a girl
So careful and sweet
Walking towards home
Through some poorly streets
She saw a little girl
Being way too cold
So she gave the little girl
Her big warm coat
Then she saw a boy
That broke her heart
‘Cause he was so cold
She gave him her scarf
She gave away
Her socks and sweats
Until she had only
Her underwear left
Looking at the stars
While softly singing
She heard the 12
o’Clock bells ringing
The stars began falling
Golden stars on her feet
‘Cause this selfless little girl
Was also in need
With these gold stars
She bought new clothes
And gave them away
Like she did before
The stars kept fallin’
Every single day
And ‘till her death
She kept giving away
Now up in the sky
She shines bright
As she falls down
Every night
With her falling comes a purpose
Falling is part of the universe, it’s okay
Mar 2, 2020
Mar 2, 2020 at 6:47 AM UTC