You may not be able to control the way you feel or react in regards to specific things but you can alter your level of engagement with it.
Focus not on what could’ve been or what was but instead where you are now.
The should’ve, could’ve, would’ve is not at all conducive to your actuality. It’s not going to change the outcome.
Just because your feelings were hurt doesn’t mean you were wronged.
You can be right or you can be effective.
Sometimes you are a villain and perpetrator of harm.
It’s okay to be the bad guy in some people’s recollections.
Engage with your wants and desires in a way that is not detrimental to you.
Believe people until they give you a reason not to.
Don’t engage in discourse with people who are committed to misunderstanding you.
Sometimes a persons behavior has nothing to do with you but everything to do with who they are. Don’t take it personally. Move on accordingly.
Nov 15, 2020
Nov 15, 2020 at 11:18 AM UTC
I’ve waited my entire life for this grudge against you to become undone.
Yet every attempt to reconcile the past doings with the present circumstances is met with another unforgivable happening taking place in a real time.
Positioning me further away from you
Caught between meeting your level of escalation and
Echoing to myself:
“Don’t take it personal"
Over and over and over.
And I’m only left to remember what you’ve done to me.
And how burdened your mere presence makes me feel.
I can only imagine how burdened you feel too.
Far before you were a villain in my recollections
You were a victim in your own right.
It may be true that you are not the worst of what you’ve done
But you sure do bring out the worst in me.
Oh, the grueling beauty of duality and multiple truths existing at once.
Nov 9, 2020
Nov 9, 2020 at 4:13 PM UTC
You feel my heart with contentment
And my mind with ease.
You possess a heart of pure, untainted gold.
A smile brighter than any sun I’ve ever seen during the afternoon in the middle of June.
And the healing powers of a God.
To know you is to love you.
It is with immense pleasure that I am able to live in a moment where those dual truths exist.
Oct 9, 2020
Oct 9, 2020 at 2:51 PM UTC
I’d give you the world if I could.
But it’s far too imperfect for your precious hands to hold.
So for now my heart will have to do.
It’s in the process of healing and skipping a beat too many, just for you.
May 28, 2020
May 28, 2020 at 12:47 AM UTC
I wish loving you in the ways you deserve was as easy as loving you in general.
The love that I have for you is nothing in comparison to the ways that I could illustrate them.
The ways that I could enact them for you without fear, because you are the only member in the audience.
Beaming with pride and satisfaction. Applauding my efforts to do right by you.
Because I would love nothing more than to perform for you with Boundless Love as my co-star.
May 27, 2020
May 27, 2020 at 12:43 AM UTC
If I told you I knew how this would end, what would you believe me to be?
A psychic?
A realist?
A pessimist?
What if I told you I’m simply just cursed with the inability to love without conditions?
I got it from my momma.
Who got it from her momma.
And so on...
May 25, 2020
May 25, 2020 at 9:25 PM UTC
I enjoy loving you when you’re not within my reach
Everything I touch soon becomes a thing of the past
Eventually a distant memory...
I dont want to have to forget you like I have with all of those that came before you.
May 25, 2020
May 25, 2020 at 5:56 PM UTC
I’ve always believed myself to be the kind that wears my heart on my sleeve but Truth is I never allowed myself to feel close to anyone unless I was naked.
May 25, 2020
May 25, 2020 at 11:05 AM UTC
I love you
Even when I’m battling the powers that be
The very powers that lead me to you
And you to me
I love you
Because I’m only human after all.
Apr 19, 2020
Apr 19, 2020 at 10:47 PM UTC
I think that you and I are the right equation
So now I’m trying to show my work
By subtracting the hesitancy
Holding your heart
Carrying the love
Multiplying them both
Until love is no longer binary
But I’m stuck.
Truth is I’ve never been good at arithmetic
Apr 19, 2020
Apr 19, 2020 at 10:30 PM UTC