I fidget with my rings; sometimes get surprised that one ring has found its way to another finger. I return it to its original place and wonder where my mind has been.
When I'm forced to be in one place, I look for ways to stretch the limits. If I get a two hour break, I'm spending it at the park and ignoring notifications all 120 minutes of it. I eat my lunch while working.
On days like this I wonder how I've managed to do this at all.
Nov 5, 2023
Nov 5, 2023 at 11:58 PM UTC
did i dream of you?
i don't remember
but i might as well have
May 16, 2023
May 16, 2023 at 7:37 AM UTC
Im walking down the street
But im not just walking down the street
Im thinking nonstop of everything i see
And not just everything i see
The moon, and how its cheerier than it was the last time
I see the distance from where i stand and the place i want to be
And i think, breathe,
Nothing is so exciting you must be there at once
And so i walk
And my mind does not know how to walk in silence
So i walk thinking
I acknowledge this feeling of restlessness
My mind is so filled up it could burst
And honestly i wish it would
I dont mind thoughts dripping down my temple in its aftermath
I dont mind
May 8, 2023
May 8, 2023 at 8:31 AM UTC
in your presence
I already felt the opposite
which, in hindsight
explains the tears that I couldn't
Mar 30, 2023
Mar 30, 2023 at 10:15 AM UTC
three bags on top of the pile of laundry in the cardboard box in my mind
for whatever reason, they each have at least one of my things.
I don't feel like putting them away.
I choose to drink lukewarm water
but refuse to wash the dishes right away.
oh well
I'll always remember this time as the time
I wrote the most
Mar 25, 2023
Mar 25, 2023 at 11:00 AM UTC
when I remember you, it feels strange.
a feeling of still being in it. as if I never left.
or maybe I was never there
and this everpresent feeling is a feeling of nostalgia
for something that never was.
Mar 25, 2023
Mar 25, 2023 at 8:58 AM UTC
I'll write anything just to say I've done better things with my time. But really, I'm just passing time 'til it is for sleep. then when it comes, I stall. It's a weird one, this phase I'm in. I'm listening to songs I've never heard before, ones that make me think of old detective movies. or movies with space ships. Old, too. Maybe staring at the ceiling of my bunk would be of more consequentiality.
Mar 25, 2023
Mar 25, 2023 at 8:56 AM UTC
on the marble platform
there's a crowd
whose eyes refuse to meet yours
clouds coming in fast
people pretend they're surprised
to seem like they had no part
words escape you
or is it the other way around
Mar 25, 2023
Mar 25, 2023 at 8:52 AM UTC
I'm not paying attention
I'm only starting to learn how
I bring two books around to read
but don't understand a word
I let my eyes roam over the text
Mar 14, 2023
Mar 14, 2023 at 8:33 AM UTC
she stood
like a tree
with bright yellow flowers
amid the grey buildings and smog
stopping me in my travels,
I had to thank her
for simply being there
Mar 14, 2023
Mar 14, 2023 at 8:30 AM UTC