I never used to have to remind myself
To breathe
In, out, in, out
But I do now
My chest never used to be tight all the time
Remember to breathe
It whispers to me
And I do now
I never used to cry
Once a day
For a weeks at a time
But I do now
I do now
I do now
I do now
When will it become
I don't have to
Feb 18, 2015
Feb 18, 2015 at 10:32 PM UTC
Crying,
wishing there was someone, anyone to talk to.
Weeping,
wondering how she will get through the days.
Sobbing,
alone at night
getting lost inside her own mind.
Thoughts of razor blades and bleeding skin
penetrating her every thought.
Wondering,
what would people really do if they knew her thoughts
Would they think her crazy?
Would they know this wasn't really an act?
Haunted by the ghost
She sees every night.
How could she say
"I see him still"
When she told them she was over him
but really--
She still loved him.
Feb 18, 2015
Feb 18, 2015 at 10:29 PM UTC
Sleep is scarce for me.
While my eyes may be closed,
My heart is beating rapidly,
In the fear of not falling,
Falling for you too.
Do I dare say a word?
No, my secret is kept in,
For they would not understand.
Or rather, they know, but refuse to accept it.
So while they're deep in their slumber,
Possibly in another world,
I'm lying here awake
Thinking about the tens of possibilities
That would never happen to me.
Like, you and I.
My body cannot tame
This unhealthy diet.
It does not deserve
To suffer like this.
Waking up in the morning,
Only to realize I did not succeed.
Going out,
Only to realize that my lack of slumber
Is affecting me more more than I know.
Why? Because of you.
These droopy eyes
Only wish for one night,
Where they could close
For quite a while
In real rest.
But, even when they do
My last thought is you.
Why?
Why are you doing this to me?
I think about you late in the night
And first thing in the morning.
You are the reason I’m so tired.
How can you help me
When you caused it in the first place?
I'm tired,
Tired of drifting off when I shouldn't,
Tired of half open eyes,
Tired of my restless sleep,
And tired of thinking about you.
Why'd you do this to me?
I cannot help loving you.
Is my Insomnia,
The aftermath,
Of falling for you?
Feb 18, 2015
Feb 18, 2015 at 10:15 PM UTC
alone
sitting in her bedroom crying.
alone
screaming, till her voice is gone.
alone
tired of feeling unloved and unwanted.
alone
wishing there was someone, anyone.
alone
trying to keep it hidden behind a smile
not telling anyone
never slipping from her perfect mold.
Nov 8, 2014
Nov 8, 2014 at 9:08 PM UTC
I'm in love
No, not with a person
But with the autumn night sky
I'm in love
With the way the stars bend down
And seem to hug me
I'm in love
With the way the breeze dances by
And seems to kiss my cheek
I'm in love
With the vastness of night
And the loveliness that is autumn
I'm in love
No, not with a person
But with the autumn night sky
Oct 22, 2014
Oct 22, 2014 at 10:59 PM UTC
Well I hate your cigarettes,
and the men that you go see.
Because one is killing you,
while the other's killing me.
Oct 22, 2014
Oct 22, 2014 at 10:57 PM UTC
I want to be like the sunset,
calm and gentle.
I want to be like the sunset,
constant and beautiful.
I want to be like the sunset,
bold and confident.
In colors and hues
different to every eye.
Oct 22, 2014
Oct 22, 2014 at 10:54 PM UTC
Every time we're face to face
You make my heart race.
And even though this thing is new
I hope to spend a while with you.
Your kind words flow so well
They make my heart swell.
And even though I try to write
The words just don't sound quite right.
Oh how I've missed the sound
Of your laugh and voice around.
The short time we've been able to spend
Has been so great - I don't want it to end.
You see, if I were a tiny tree
You'd be the rain
That would wash away all my pain.
Along with helping me (the tree) grow-
You'd make me whole
Just like
you've awakened my soul.
Oct 21, 2014
Oct 21, 2014 at 8:49 AM UTC