*I was quite,
but I was not blind.
I was calm,
but I was not collected.
I was smiling,
but I was not happy.
I was smart,
but I was not appreciated.
I was sad,
but I was not showing it.
I was free,
but I was not brave.
I was curious,
but I was not questioning.
I was articulate,
but I was not speaking.
I was nice,
but I was not vain.
I was me,
but I was not enough.
I was found,
but I was lost.*
May 1, 2014
May 1, 2014 at 4:18 PM UTC
it isn't just writing poetry, it's banishing your demons with the ink of a pen
May 1, 2014
May 1, 2014 at 8:54 AM UTC
When my eyes stopped cooperating,
my pen became my best friend.
May 1, 2014
May 1, 2014 at 2:30 AM UTC
i know this is a selfish request
but please don't leave me
you're the only thing that i have left
and if you go, i might just snapped
i know that i'm a mess
but please just stay
and love me till i am me again
May 1, 2014
May 1, 2014 at 2:27 AM UTC
let us not be this way
let us just be normal
can't you see that i'm only
pretending to be calm
on the outside but actually
i'm shaking like some
earthquake eruption
deep inside of me
my fears are always getting to me
and i really can't help it
there's nothing i could do
i want to scare my demons away
but instead they are the ones who
are winning the battle
i'm trying not to be in this state
i really am, please believe me
i don't want to scare you
but please promise me
you'll stay, even if you're lying
i just can't handle it
the thought of losing you
what would i be
without your
smile?
Apr 30, 2014
Apr 30, 2014 at 12:25 PM UTC
home could be you
wrapping your arms
around me on cold days
smothering me
and me
getting lost in your lovely
embrace
Apr 29, 2014
Apr 29, 2014 at 8:58 AM UTC
we're just friends
and i don't know if you
know about i feel for you
but if you do
and the feeling isn't mutual
please just pretend that you
don't know anything
Apr 28, 2014
Apr 28, 2014 at 12:57 PM UTC
We were friends but i wanted more,
I wanted you whilst you wanted someone else.
I wanted you to touch my skin, more than you wanted too.
We could have intwined in the bedsheets together, but you were already in someone else’s arms.
I wanted forever but you wanted forever with someone else.
You left me with nothing but memories and the smell of you on my sheets.
You left a stain on my soul an ache in my chest.
I was addicted too you,
and i was a faint memory at the back of your mind.
I fell in love with you when you weren’t willing to meet me halfway.
I wonder if my clingyness, sadness drove you away,
to someone else.
And im still stupid enough to care, because you are you, because nothing else matters to me more than you.
You only cared to fill the space of loneliness from your last whilst you waited for your next.
You left a hole in my soul.
I left you with the satisfaction of knowing that i will always be there no matter what pain, suffering or upset you have put me through because i care too much to forget you.
Apr 27, 2014
Apr 27, 2014 at 8:03 AM UTC