i'm not in love.
not in love with the way
your eyes follow
my every move.
not in love with the way
you run your fingertips
across my skin,
memorizing every detail.
not in love with the way
you make me smile.
not in love with the way
you make the overwhelming
noise of life quiet,
even if it's just for a moment.
i'm not in love,
but so what if i was?
Sep 14, 2021
Sep 14, 2021 at 6:03 AM UTC
You left so suddenly.
I thought you were
coming back,
I was so alone.
Months passed and
you were still gone,
I thought it was
my fault.
That I had done something
wrong,
to push away your love.
I started to look
for that love
in other men.
Turns out their love
isn't sweet like honey,
but burns like whiskey.
Now look what you've done
to me.
Jan 29, 2021
Jan 29, 2021 at 3:23 AM UTC
He dug his fingers into
my colors,
searching for himself.
Carving my insides into something
beautiful.
Writing his words
across my skin
making a book out of me.
He took the flowers out of
my garden,
and planted weeds.
He took me apart and hung me
on the wall
and called it
priceless.
Jan 29, 2021
Jan 29, 2021 at 3:20 AM UTC
Today I gave my heart
And soul away.
He’s the Devil
In an angelic
Disguise.
I sold him my
Soul for
Love.
Never have I
Felt love
Until his sweat
Dripped down
My innocent lips.
Till his eyes captivated
My whole
Essence.
I sold it all to
The Devil.
I regret
Nothing.
Jan 29, 2021
Jan 29, 2021 at 3:17 AM UTC
i’m tangled up in
our bed sheets,
my sheets.
reminiscing the dreams
i had next to you.
overwhelming nights
just like this one-
i think about
you,
us,
me.
i could think about the
cracks in the
sidewalk,
but that would
remind me of the
lines your face
makes when you
smile.
i could think about my
first time at the
beach
and the sand
between my feet,
but that will only
remind me that
the ocean is the
same shade of
blue as your
eyes
and that your hands
felt like the
sand across my skin.
its overwhelming nights
like this
when even i don’t
want to,
i think of you.
Dec 8, 2017
Dec 8, 2017 at 6:18 PM UTC
I love the way
Your eyes light up
When you talk
About writing.
I love the way
You love life.
I love the way
You want everything.
But most importantly,
I hate that
Those beautiful eyes
Have seen so much pain
And darkness.
I hate that
There are times
You wish to be
Someone else.
I hate that
You are so insecure
In your writing.
Most of all,
I hate that
I love all these
Things about you.
Oct 23, 2017
Oct 23, 2017 at 12:26 PM UTC
i'm sinking.
going further down
than i intended to.
the water fills my lungs,
i feel it burning me
inside and out.
don't try to save me,
baby i'll just drag you
down.
everything is fading,
all i want is you.
but i'm too busy
drowning in my
past.
Oct 11, 2017
Oct 11, 2017 at 2:05 PM UTC
i'm scared of this darkness,
scared that one day
i will lose control
and it will consume
all of me.
i'm afraid that this darkness
is the real
me,
the me you never knew.
i'm terrified that this darkness
will consume you along with me.
so i must let you go
to keep your light
away from
my darkness.
Oct 7, 2017
Oct 7, 2017 at 5:20 PM UTC
i want to love him
but,
his lips taste like
***
they burn holes into
my skin.
i want to love him
but,
he doesn't need me,
he just wants
two legs and a hole
to get lost in.
i want to love him
but,
he doesn't even know what
the meaning of love is.
Oct 4, 2017
Oct 4, 2017 at 3:28 PM UTC
you confuse me,
in ways neither of us
understand.
one day its love,
and the next
we’re ripping each other
apart
at the throats.
we apologize
for things we
aren’t sorry for.
this isn’t love,
this is
addiction
for something
so beautiful,
so intoxicating,
yet so painful
and deadly.
Oct 3, 2017
Oct 3, 2017 at 6:46 PM UTC