They shot a lot of black men,
this year.
Men with power and uniforms.
They were shot, too.
Schools were bombed
bullets scattered
& teachers, like me, had panic attacks practicing
drills, imagining their students’ bodies
riddled with shrapnel.
& we argued about gun control,
racism,
immigrants,
walls.
Injustice permeated the coffee I drank to calm myself.
Sorrow waltzed along the edges of cheerful conversations
in the grocery store.
White men and women took to platforms,
insisting their version of justice could correct
the suffering.
No one really believed them.
Presidency became a mockery
Division made more clear.
Over three hundred died in Baghdad,
no one flew their flag.
Maybe we were tired of avatars with flags of nations other than our own.
all suffering.
Perhaps so much compassion was overwhelming.
It could be that skin color meant more than I thought.
The skin color I wore,
Light, spattered with freckles,
made my compassion a condescension.
--how could I understand?
Jul 8, 2016
Jul 8, 2016 at 2:47 PM UTC
i love
you
with locked elbows
and tight fists.
one keeps you
at a distance
where i can see
your every move
but the other
keeps you
from running away.
Feb 24, 2014
Feb 24, 2014 at 3:57 PM UTC
I said "It's a beautiful
City!" To which
Several replied emphatically
"Expensive!" Soon I
Discovered that the
Philosophers and dreamers
Ended up driving cabs around
Beautiful, expensive cities.
Feb 24, 2014
Feb 24, 2014 at 3:54 PM UTC
Here, somewhere between
my coffee and your juice,
my potatoes and your eggs,
there are five,
maybe seven,
chairs that sketch a trail
to your strategically placed shoulders
that trace your back,
which is hunched
and faced toward me.
I didn’t know, then, that
These five to seven chairs would
More loudly
Say such magnanimous words.
Jan 10, 2013
Jan 10, 2013 at 3:06 AM UTC
I imagine they will look at me with
Patronizing incredulity
When they ask “So, you love him?”
& I unblinkingly answer
“yes”
here they will chuckle with great
condescension and worry,
believing I don’t understand the meaning.
Perhaps, they are right.
The trouble is:
I don’t like him.
It’s not merely that.
I am somewhere between
I-am-mildly-interested
I-like-him
& I-am-going-to-marry-him.
Which, in the smallest of my mother tongue, leaves me
With love.
I love him, in my way.
In the way I—with twenty years behind me—believe is love.
Jan 10, 2013
Jan 10, 2013 at 3:06 AM UTC
You used to sing with your whole body—
eyes closed
hands outstretched.
& I’m a little uncertain
why you clasped your fists
& opened your eyes,
& restrained the music in your body.
Maybe it was sobering for you
to embrace great change,
to begin to question
all the truths you once felt
certain of and swayed out of your body.
the music became angry
& your smooth forehead
furrowed with woe.
There is a silence in the place of
the loud, unapologetic, out-of-tune
vocals that sprung from the core
of your body.
in that cavernous container for the soul.
Manhood now covers the cheerful cacophony of childhood
loudly released with joy.
& childhood would be welcomed to return
if you might sing again.
Jan 10, 2013
Jan 10, 2013 at 3:05 AM UTC
in my stomach,
practically attached
to the indention that nourished me
in the womb,
a thread,
or string,
[some yarn?]
p u l l s
& I’m certain that,
should I follow it,
it would directly lead me
to you and perhaps this
a c h e
will subside.
Jan 10, 2013
Jan 10, 2013 at 12:44 AM UTC
I was just thinking
of kisses
& a red car
& the feeling of
my hair laced
in your fingers.
& I was thinking of summer—
of thunderstorms
[making your eyes wild
& your grin wide.]
I thought of
Eightthousandeighthundred&fourteenmiles;
& of fourteen hours & what
a difference they make
[when I live as you sleep,
& I sleep as you live.]
& I thought of the magic
that gives me a
sight of your face.
even though an ocean &
washingtonidahomontanasouthdakotaiowa&illinois; keep us apart.
I thought of your hands on my face
& lightning over a soccer field
I remember safety & danger
Fear & peace.
& pondering upon prickly beards
& words [so often unspoken]
being birthed.
&
Smiling, I missed my train stop.
Jan 10, 2013
Jan 10, 2013 at 12:44 AM UTC
Falling in love
with you is like
waking up to bright yellow,
peeking through sky blue curtains,
warmth caressing
streaming hair on a soft pillow.
It is subconscious smiles from
lulling visions & the murmur
of loved ones in the living room on Sunday.
Loving you is the wafting scent
of your favorite blueberry pancakes
& the crackle of meat on a griddle,
the peace of an afternoon
surrounded by loved ones—
half-awake & still dreaming.
Jan 10, 2013
Jan 10, 2013 at 12:38 AM UTC