There were so many stars
in the midnight sky
but even with
the milkyway above us
all I wanted to look at
was you.
Oct 22, 2012
Oct 22, 2012 at 9:32 PM UTC
The angels never arrived
as I look into your eyes, I can see the pain you have
the longing to just move on from this place.
We both need someone to carry us home
to turn off the lights when we cant bear to get up.
You need someone to take you away from here
but we both know that cant be me.
I have been the only one you have ever opened up to
and that has crippled us.
I have been holding the weight of your pain on my shoulders for so long that am falling.
I’m falling faster than I ever thought I could
and you can catch me this time.
The angels never arrived
and now we are both lost.
Sep 9, 2012
Sep 9, 2012 at 2:22 PM UTC
Your words sink into me
filling every space I have
pushing things out of the way
to cling on the the spots inside my head.
Your words flow through me
and wash everything else out
the feeling creeps over me
and I can no longer hold back.
My feet begin to move
without asking my head first
with the feeling of the wind in my head
my thoughts are blown away.
Sep 9, 2012
Sep 9, 2012 at 2:17 PM UTC
Laying in your arms, the smell of the fresh rain in your window, I am complete.
Never before have I felt this way,
so safe and so loved.
You make me feel like this.
The way you look at me brings a new set of shivers,
ones that have no words to explain.
Day filled with mindless hours,
weekends with mindless days,
amazing mindless days.
Walking down the street hand in hand
I can see all the wondering eyes,
but never before have I cared less.
Judgement will never break the bonds we have built.
Every day of the week is a new adventure
one I wait for from the time I wake up.
Sep 9, 2012
Sep 9, 2012 at 2:14 PM UTC
Standing in this place,
Where you tells us nothing that is going on.
We fear the worst,
Only because you wont tell us better.
You take us away from our land,
To a place I never knew.
You tell us nothing that is going on,
And you treat us as though we are not human.
You tell us we are moving,
and whip us until we move.
"form a line" you tell us.
We fear your guns, so we do.
You take us to the water.
The same water that brings us joy,
Now will bring us nothing but fear,
and hatred.
You whip the ones who don't go,
And Yell at the ones who do.
You hurt our kind,
Like you have nothing but sin.
Slowly the line starts to move,
And I hear nothing but the clang of mettle,
And the cries of my kind.
We fear what will happen next.
I get to the place,
where the white man stays.
I try not to look him in the eyes,
Because all I will see is sin.
You put your cold grasp,
From something I do not know,
Around my wrists and ankle,
But worst, around my neck.
My man fears you aliens,
so we do what your guns say.
We are not to be feared,
Yet you show us nothing but sin.
All of my men,
are joined by your cold hard chains.
The ones who don't move ,
get pulled by the rest.
The whippings become more,
And my people find it hard to stand.
You tell us you need us,
But show us nothing but sin.
We get on the big beast ,
The one only white man knows.
You shove us down the stairs,
And crowed us in.
We are close.
Too close.
Man and woman and child,
Brought together by sin.
the night finally comes,
And I feel peace again.
But only until the morning sun shines,
And brings death with it.
17 of my fellow men,
Brought out my you aliens.
Its only the second day,
What will the next bring?
The hunger in our belies gets stronger,
as you feast upon your joy.
The days food is not much
But rice and ***** water.
As we start to lose count of the day,
We lose count of so many other things
Death, **** fear, mice, whipping,
And sin.
My man can not talk about there fears,
For the white man will listen.
The only thing we can do,
Is make our own language.
Some hope for death,
For by death our souls can fly free.
By death we can return home,
But our families don't even have our bones to remember us by.
Our women and children are used as objects,
Objects of the white mans will.
To show no respect to,
And release your sin upon.
We are brought to stable land,
Of which we have never seen.
You brake us into groups,
and show us no respect.
Only half of my men make it there,
And most of them are not well.
We are shoved around,
And most of do not stay on out feet for long.
The ones you deem 'Usable'
go on to the homes of the white man.
We are forced to work,
for the man of the sin.
We get nothing from this,
and very little food.
We bring you your growth,
While ours is held back.
We are the worker,
we are the barer of life.
You are the owner.
YOU are the sin.
Sep 9, 2012
Sep 9, 2012 at 2:11 PM UTC
In the moon, your face shows
you are my man in the moon
the face I look up to,
to make sure the sun is still there.
In the sun, your rays shine bright
my ray of yellow
you are the beam that I look up to,
to make sure I can leave the dark.
In the night, I look for you
I look to see where you are
where you have gone
why you are gone from my side.
In the day, I search for you
to try to find my man in the moon
my ray of light
to make the demons leave my head.
In the spring, you are my rain
the one that brings my garden to life
you are the one that makes the sun stand out
to save the world from the cold.
In the fall, you are my changing leaves
the ones that remind me that nothing stays
that every one falls
and that winter is soon to come
In the winter, you are my fire
the warmth that saves my limbs from frost
fire that wraps me in a blanket of safety
to keep the demons from coming in
In the moon, the sun and so much more,
you are the one I need,
to keep me safe
You keep me who I am.
Sep 9, 2012
Sep 9, 2012 at 2:09 PM UTC
Legs and arms moving with beauty and grace
a slow dance showing more than you meant to
emotions being thrown with each new face
and now, there is nothing else you can do
The song that spews love with each brand new beat
embraces awkward enough to make tears
letting him show you how to move your feet
is letting him take on all of your fears
Now that you have the moves down you must go
everyone will see how you learn so fast
its time now darling, to put on a show
you will be the one his eyes will see last.
Dancing is how the world will see you now
You have done very well, so take a bow
Sep 9, 2012
Sep 9, 2012 at 2:06 PM UTC
The fear takes over me, as I start to break down
You fill me with so many emotions and I don't know how to handle them
The fear that once left me wont leave me now
I sit here in the dark because its all I can do.
I know there's nothing I can do now, now that it has me
Shaking, I decide to move, but my body wont let me
It has taken over, and there's noting I can do
Taken over me all over again.
If you knew what you put me through would you care?
If you knew what your eyes do to me would you still stare me down?
If I told you how I react to your distance would you move closer?
Or would you sill put me trough this?
The way you move makes me want to move with you
But you wont let me
If the day came where you held me close
All my fears would leave me.
I try to move again, the fear is still holding me down
We try so hard to be loved, and to love
And when I finally decide I know what I want
It doesn't want me back.
The feeling of sinking takes over me now
And nothing will let me look back
If you where here I would feel safe
But your not...
You make the sun seem small
But only in my eyes
The sinking slows as I think of your eyes
And nothing will ever be the same now.
I had a taste of joy, but I let it go
Now I have nothing but fear
Can we ever go back?
I want that back more than anything in my life.
the tears start to fill my eyes when I think of that time
I was so happy, nothing but joy
Why, Why did I give it up?
Because the fear took over me.
I can feel the cold grasp start to break.
But I know it wont last
You will stay distant, and I wont say anything
But it secretly kills me.
You hate the way you are, so you close yourself off to the world
But there are some of us who love what you are
You know the way I feel
But you will never fully understand
If you know what I would give for you
You would know that I know what I want
Where you to give me a chance
I would show you how much you mean to me
Sep 9, 2012
Sep 9, 2012 at 2:05 PM UTC
The feet on the floor, your heart shows on your hands
I move with your arms, but not the way we know.
You know me well, we know this, why can you see through my layers?
But I can’t... not the way we know
Your limbs are my sea, the way the sun moves
You know, we could do this again?
But not the way we know.
Not now.
Your face lights up the place.
The way you show your eyes on the wall
But not the way I know, only the right one.
I have loved and lost, and loved again.
But knowing makes all the difference
The only way we know.
Sep 9, 2012
Sep 9, 2012 at 2:04 PM UTC
Stop now
Stop whatever you are doing
look down.
look at yourself
Notice your position.
How are you holding your body?
Why are your feet pointing the way they are?
Where are your hands?
Why do you have your legs like that?
How are you holding your head?
Would you let others see you like this?
Are you proud of your position?
Would you change it if someone asked you to?
Make any adjustments you feel necessary.
Now, as you go back to what ever you were doing, keep your position in mind.
Keep thinking about your body parts and how you are holding them.
Continue.
Sep 9, 2012
Sep 9, 2012 at 2:01 PM UTC