You're my everything.
You're my nothing.
You're my dreams.
You're my nightmare.
It's you and me, eternally,
Dancing this game of fate,
We're lonely.
Sep 9, 2012
Sep 9, 2012 at 8:27 AM UTC
Goodbye
There he stood, upon that ledge.
Barely a step, from the edge.
Looking down, upon far away ground.
There was no movement, and no sound.
Tears streamed down from that lonely face.
He stood no glory, nor no grace.
'Its all gone, why can't they see?
There's nothing left to take from me.'
'Nothing more I can give,
I've lost the fight, my will to live.'
One more step, one deep sigh.
He closed his eyes, and ceased to cry.
With his last words he whispered to,
Any one that he once knew.
'Good bye, and please don't cry for me.
Sure I'm gone, now you might see.
I couldn't take it anymore,
For all this hurt, there is no cure.
The pain it burned and killed my heart.
You all hated me from the start.
I only wish, the one that mattered,
Would have seen, instead that shattered.
He didn't even realize,
That I loved him; that I tried.
Goodbye, all, its time to die.'
And with that he plunged, from the sky.
His last words, with his last breath,
His last movement, what a mess.
The tears that shed, upon his grave.
The flowers that, weepers gave.
If only they would have showed,
How much they love it, that he glowed.
If only they would have seen,
The sadness that stole his dream.
And the one whose love he didn't know,
Echoed through his heart also,
Wept upon his grave that day,
Then followed him, the same way.
Apr 15, 2011
Apr 15, 2011 at 2:52 AM UTC
Are you ready to cry yet?
It’s been a while since the awful suffocating in my chest.
The first feeling of dread that washed over me.
The first hitched breath, the first hastily wiped away tear.
It’s been a while since I held back my tears forcefully.
So am I ready to cry yet?
Every day it feels a bit heavier, the weight of what I hide inside.
The little feelings that slip through only worsen the pain.
I can’t feel happiness anymore, I feel so numb and hurt.
I think that if this goes on longer, I might go insane.
Can I cry yet?
Today I watched as the feather landed gently on my heart.
I watched as I buckled under the pressure.
I felt the tears spring to my eyes and choked as I held them back.
I broke as I tried to support the weight of the feather.
Am I ready to cry yet?
Apr 15, 2011
Apr 15, 2011 at 2:52 AM UTC
Remember that moments like this are fleeting,
and are gone within the blink of an eye.
Cherish them for what they are,
just moments of pure happiness in time.
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As my pillare of strenght crumbles,
The stony walls fall down to reveal.
The emotions and hurt,
All things that you tried to conceal.
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When i reach out to hug you,
And see that slight movement as you pull away.
When you rethink and hold me close to you,
Im just thankful that you change every day.
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One step closer to kindness,
One hug closer to care.
One look closer to love,
More moments of happiness we share.
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Remember that moments like this are fleeting, and are gone within the blink of an eye.
Cherish them for what they are, just moments of pure happiness in time.
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Keep changing, keep growing, lets make more memories.
Apr 15, 2011
Apr 15, 2011 at 2:52 AM UTC
I'd like to stop breathing right now; to stand where I can see.
What they'd all say and whisper, what they truly think of me?
I'd like to loose all I have left; to see if I would care.
Would I cry? Would I suffer, would I give up, deem it fair?
I'd like to feel pain, more than I have ever known.
Be it a broken heart, or agonizing end, true expressions shown?
I'd like to hear the answers, and mull over the facts.
I wonder if I'd go crazy, will my sanity be intact?
I'd like to be cut open, my soul laid out for show.
As one last attempt to understand, do I really want to know?
With the infinite paths and prospects, its no wonder I'm who I am.
I question and I ponder, where is truth and what's a sham?
Apr 15, 2011
Apr 15, 2011 at 2:51 AM UTC
I remember when I first read your book,
all the wonderful things that you have done.
So I asked mum when I would get to meet you,
she said, 'Hopefully not for a long time, precious one.'
When I asked the old man when he would see you,
he said 'Probably in a little while.'
I asked if I could go with him to meet you,
he shook his head and walked away with a smile.
The man in robes preached of your kindness,
and I asked him why you never spoke to me.
He said 'Open your heart dear child,
he is always there, you just need to see.'
I remember when I screamed aloud for help,
when I prayed for you to take away my tears.
There was no guiding voice, there was no guidance,
that was when my faith disappeared.
I will always question your existence,
and I think that that is fair.
If I have never seen you, heard or felt you,
why should I believe that you are there?
Apr 15, 2011
Apr 15, 2011 at 2:51 AM UTC
Fake
She wonders when she’ll turn around only to find,
That every where she’d once been, all she left behind;
Was fake.
She thinks about the smiles and laughs, even her own;
And stumbles across the hidden lies never before shown,
What isn’t a lie?
What’s left if all you have isn’t what you thought?
How do you make sense when the pretense is caught?
What is the truth?
All you’ve ever known displayed in front of you.
One by one, the important things, claimed to be untrue.
Fake.
Apr 15, 2011
Apr 15, 2011 at 2:51 AM UTC
Truly it needs no explanation,
the depth nor connotations,
its simple and its pure as life itself.
Surly you can't expect the reaper,
to step back and become meeker,
its truth and I can live life by myself.
You don't need to lend a hand,
I'll place my feet and take my stand,
there's no point worrying about me now.
My world has changed and it has shifted,
my view, the darkness it has lifted,
its time to fight, nowhere to run, no way no how.
Its not like I don't need you,
the truth is that I want to,
show you that I'm strong, my strength is true.
There's no reason to go and miss me,
I'm here, just not as you knew me,
I'm trying to become some one new.
So this step it is my own,
this heart, become like stone,
there is no way to shatter, strong at last.
I'll prove myself and go the distance,
from me you'll find no hindrance,
watch me as I throw, my die is cast.
Apr 15, 2011
Apr 15, 2011 at 2:51 AM UTC
Its sad to think that there's no one to know you,
no one to tell them, that you've passed away.
It makes me sad to think some day I'll leave them,
It makes me wish I could never die and just stay.
Whats worse is the fact that the people I want to,
know that I've gone, probably never will.
What if I die, in a flash, in an instant,
No chance for goodbyes, what a feeling, cold chill.
So much to think of and so much to see,
people to talk to, places to go.
I'd like to think that I've fulfilled my purpose,
maybe this lifetime, I can't truly know.
Death at the doorstep; silent and still.
There's nothing for it, no action no cue.
So many ways to leave without knowing,
Remember me, and I will remember you.
Apr 15, 2011
Apr 15, 2011 at 2:50 AM UTC
Hey god
Why didn't you tell me,
that I'd be going out this way?
Oh Lord,
I wish you'd told me,
there might have been things to do and say.
Say mum,
Was there something,
you wanted to do with me?
Or dad,
What about you?
There's so much we could have seen.
My sister,
you know I'm sorry.
For all of my appalling jokes.
and brother,
I hope you realize.
For you I always pray and hope.
Hey hate,
I'm sorry I used you,
to feel a little better occasionally.
and love,
thanks for helping,
and teaching me to stand on my own feet.
My friends,
I guess I'd thank you,
for putting up with me and laughing too.
My family,
I know you'll be strong
and know I truly do love you.
Yeah life,
I suppose it is fair,
you let me stay here all these years.
So fate,
I guess I won't judge you,
and, I will not fear.
Hmm god?
Since you might be listening...
as I die can you do me one little thing?
One I love,
he's soaked beside me,
let an angel shelter him with her wings.
Final Death,
lets go quietly.
I won't struggle I swear.
Bye life,
I'll definitely miss you.
But you can't live forever, I guess its fair.
Apr 15, 2011
Apr 15, 2011 at 2:50 AM UTC