She was once a tough, hard headed woman
Threw her heart away a long time ago, so no man could play with it
She was through with the endless love game that broke her into pieces
That made her the way she is now –a cold, heartless *****
Until she met him and got lost in his eyes in a blink of an eye
Made her look like a fool who tried her best for him
Afraid that he would go away and she would devastate
Like a dog lost its bark
He could blame all his life on her,
He could play with her heart,
Still she would forgive him and embrace him
In hope that he would care even just a bit
She destroyed the walls that she built
Just to feel loved again
Even though she knew the chance is as thin as a piece of paper
Still, she kept her hopes high
And when he told her those sweet words,
sugar coated ******** came out from his mouth
She fooled her mind, pretended that all of those are true
Even though she knew that his words are made of lies
Deep inside, she knew that she wasn’t really there
She wasn’t really in his heart
She was just smoke from his cigarettes
That slowly disappear –and he wouldn’t care if she does anyway
Dec 22, 2017
Dec 22, 2017 at 12:30 AM UTC
She needs him
And she wants him, a lot
But needing someone is neither beautiful nor romantic
It’s ******* painful
But she embraces the pain
He knows how to paint a smile on her face
Make her laugh until her stomach hurts
But what he doesn’t know is
Sometimes his words carves the pain in her chest
His silence digs a hole in her heart
And she cries her heart out at night
Whilst blaming herself
For all the mess that happened between them
She tells herself that the next day
The sun will come up
And she will eat her breakfast
And she will drink her coffee
Sadly, things sometimes don’t go as planned
She wakes up the next morning,
Again, tears rolls down her cheeks
She hates herself for being weak
She hates herself for being not good enough
She is tired of doubting whether people are coming or going
Still, she is hoping that he would stay
She would rather be hurt by him than be loved by anyone else
She keeps telling herself that she’s okay
Whilst her heart bleed continuously
She knows that she was doping herself a ******** of lies
Yet she chooses to drown and bleed without him knowing it
She doesn’t know how to love herself
but she really does love him wholeheartedly and blindly
And even if it hurts, she would do it all again in a heart beat
Dec 22, 2017
Dec 22, 2017 at 12:25 AM UTC
A girl stared at her own figure in the mirror. Her pale face showed no smile, no expression. Her weary eyes looked empty. She felt so heavy yet so **** empty. A man stood behind her, running his fingers through her long hair whilst staring blankly at the girl. She then turned her head towards the man, looking deeply at his glazed eyes. He placed his palm on the girl’s cheek, gently caressing it with his thumb whilst his eyes locked to hers. They were drowning in her own thoughts, their own feelings.
After a long moment of silence, words finally came out from the man’s mouth.
“You ready?” he asked. The girl nodded.
She turned the music up as he turned the lights down low. They slowly reached the bed, and once again, looked at each other’s eyes. They felt their hearts beat faster than ever, but they remained calm. They were nervous, but they knew that this was what they wanted for so long. They knew they were both ready for this.
As their long, silvery, sharp knives stabbed on each other’s chest, they dragged their souls into oblivion, slowly released themselves from the mortal world. Before the girl completely disappeared, she caught a glimpse of the man’s eyes. The man then leaned down toward her face, looking at her eyes deeply. She smiled as she whispered, “welcome to my circo de muerte.“
They’re now gone.
Oct 13, 2016
Oct 13, 2016 at 10:25 AM UTC
Why do people lead us on
Why do we think they care
One thing you learn
Is that no one ever cares
Even the person you love the most
Is the one that's the first to leave
You could give them your heart
Even wear it on your sleeve
they'll still take advantage and leave
Since when is it fun to be alone
Never!
But its the safest for our well being
So why do people lead us on
Why do we think they care
Because they played us
And its just not fair...
Apr 27, 2015
Apr 27, 2015 at 10:23 PM UTC
Darling,
I have been thinking.
Lately, I think I am starting
To forget how to pour my feeling
Into words
I used to write about my sorrow
About the broken vow
That I used to swallow
I used to feel hollow
I was so low
I was afraid to face tomorrow
Until you came up here,
Trying to take all the fear
And I thank you for this, my dear
I do realise that
I never write you poems anymore
Maybe because I am not one
to speak with poetry
or maybe I am just too busy
to think what words to write
I’m busy looking at the brightest eyes I have ever seen—your eyes
I’m busy listening to my favourite sound—your voice
I’m busy burying my face in your chest,
Just to smell my favourite scent—your scent.
I’m busy drowning in our sweet, passionate kiss
I couldn’t write you poems,
I can only feel,
I feel my heart beating,
And it is beating for you.
Apr 27, 2015
Apr 27, 2015 at 1:03 PM UTC
Don’t let me hug you,
Because once I do,
I will give you
A tight, bone-breaking hug,
In hope that,
All my broken pieces
Will stick together
-
And I’m not letting you go
Mar 19, 2015
Mar 19, 2015 at 10:22 PM UTC
You really want to disappear, don’t you?
You really want to leave me without any last words, don’t you?
So I can easily forget everything about you,
everything about us,
without being hurt?
In fact,
You let me drown in a pool of sorrows
You left me hollow
but all the pain, i have to swallow
Mar 13, 2015
Mar 13, 2015 at 12:42 PM UTC
It’s started when the first time you came
You let me fall into your game
Oh, fool that i am,
for falling too deep, and that is my shame
I keep calling out your name,
hoping that you’ll turn around and wipe my tear
But instead, you’re just standing there, drinking a can of beer,
pretending not to hear
And watch me drown in my own tears,
choking in fear
Alone, with nobody near
And that, is how I disappear
Are you happy now, my dear?
Mar 13, 2015
Mar 13, 2015 at 12:39 PM UTC
There was once a girl,
Who has been staying too long
In a cold, dark tunnel
“Maybe it’s where I belong,”
She mumbled.
Deep inside,
She was hoping that one day,
Someone would find a way
There, and take her away,
“or maybe I’ll just die here” she said.
Until someone found her,
His eyes spark a fire,
His voice sounds like a beautiful choir,
He lifts her higher, and higher,
And she feels better.
-
*So now i need you,
To light me up,
Warm me up,
Love me do,
will you?*
– K -
Mar 13, 2015
Mar 13, 2015 at 12:31 PM UTC