Lying in bed,
can't get you oughta my head.
rehashing the things i said,
wondering how it was read.
feel bad
if I made you sad
Feeling glad
for the times We had
Wonder why
I made you cry
Firewood, flowers, food and fudge
haven't seen you since,
but from my mind you will not budge.
Closed purple tulips of royalty
for My Grace
She shows them open totally
reddens my face
The stars we say are aligning,
just something about the timing
You seem so close
but yet so far
I often wonder where you are.
Are you there,
do you care
Its hard to share,
do I dare
At the screen I stare
Its tough to bare
Mar 15, 2018
Mar 15, 2018 at 12:29 AM UTC
There is beauty all around me, even in the trees
Near half a century here, yet still struggle with the birds and the bees - but **** I love those chickadees
As beautiful as they are, I love them from afar
my scarred heart tucked safely away in a wine jar
Feb 14, 2018
Feb 14, 2018 at 3:32 PM UTC
I love mother nature
so i choose to live by the Sea
She can be beautiful,
as well as brutal
But She has always been good to me
Feb 1, 2018
Feb 1, 2018 at 11:27 AM UTC
I love her.
No not ******** worldly,
But softly, purely , celestially.
Obsessively?
Not necessarily, just completely,
selfishly and I'm sorry.
I love her unconditionally, some say unconventionally.
But they don't understand me.
Yes...I love her.
Most spiritually, asexually, platonically and wholly.
I love her, truly, honestly, musically and poetically...
She doesn't have to love me.
Jan 1, 2018
Jan 1, 2018 at 12:26 PM UTC
A whole year disappears
standing alone at the end of the peer
in fear
you will never be near
why aren't you here
where's my beer
bring on the cheer
I can't see you from here
So I'll shed a tear
My dear
Dec 29, 2017
Dec 29, 2017 at 10:55 AM UTC
I am mad
or so they say
Seems sad
the prophets way
I am bad
or so they say
Its always been
the prophets way
Shine the light
on the right
Resist and fight
ink is might
I am mad
or so they say
but I will live to fight another day
Apr 2, 2017
Apr 2, 2017 at 8:31 AM UTC
Every spring I get this thing
where my thoughts take wing
and my soul wants to sing
It was after the last fall
when it seemed winter had taken it all
that my world became small
It was only then I could see
you were right for me
and maybe we were meant to be
after all
Mar 27, 2017
Mar 27, 2017 at 1:52 PM UTC
Can't sleep
it is over you I weep
Can't eat
the pit in my stomach is too deep
Can't find my feet
not sure what path led to the retreat
Doing stupid stuff
finding solace in fluff
She does not seem to see
I am a diamond in the rough
Can't shine through
makes me feel blue
Wondering if its true
if I ever really connected with you
Wondering if you see anything in me
Whatever will be, will be
but lately its been sad and lonely down here by the sea
waiting for just the right time for you and me
Mar 4, 2017
Mar 4, 2017 at 10:34 AM UTC
So close but yet so far
Now I wonder where you are
Gone from sight, you fade into the night
what seemed right has taken flight
With all my might, I resist and fight
chasing my demons into the night
The glowing dawn, now seems gone
must dig down deep to carry on
The path is dark the road is long
what filled my heart I guess was wrong
Its hard to swallow, torso is hollow
lump in my throat, no lifeboat
Not knowing is slowing my capacity for growing
Not loving is shoving my heart and soul into a big dark hole
My mind is unclear, clouded with fear
Abandonment and loss is the cause of my delusional mirage
Home alone, yet lost in a sea
of emotion that overwhelms me
Feb 5, 2017
Feb 5, 2017 at 1:10 PM UTC
So its another snow day
Cold miserable and grey
Alone
Wondering
Wondering if its all slipped away
like the snow on a warm day
Frozen out and
Ghosted.....
Feb 4, 2017
Feb 4, 2017 at 6:26 PM UTC